I've always made sure not to say your name
If I did, it feels as if it would only bring you closer.
And closer means that I am in close proximity to myself. Now, the true question rings:
Am I scared of my existence or the result of it?
It may be both.
I am fearful of the idea of having you, yet absolutely terrified of not. Every breath, blink, and brash decision I make can change the fabric of your being.
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