i wake up,and wow its my first christmas with nobody.I wake up to the sound of my alarm ring like a christmas bells,i smile and check my phone up to see those bunch of notifications from family friends and fans.I cant fight my urgue to snuggle back into my blanket and burry myself,so i did.With my phone silent windows down,slow music playing i bury myself and fall into a deep deep sleep.
I choose to be alone.I left Cam,the guys,and family,i also left my fab-four.At this time i just want to go back to Jakarta.People may say that i'm not thankful for what i have,but honestly these things are ruining me.
It's 3pm,i open up my eyes and notice that i missed christmas morning,and again i choosed to.
I open up the curtain and see people walking down the street happily,those smiles and christmas spirits cheered me up,they spent their holiday correctly,you know when i just ruin everything when i can spend nothing,this moment i just want to buy ticket and fly back to where i really belong.
I dont fit in this world anymore,everything is different when Cam left.
Should i quit?