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it scares me.
you scare me.
we're so close, so close,
closer then we'll ever be,
because eventually,
our future paths will disclose,
and we'll go our ways.
i don't want to loose the moment,
of talking to you.
i want to take the next step,
in doing so.
i want to overcome my fears,
and do it.
but oh gods, i'm going insane.
i think i'm going insane.
because all i long from you is this mere contact
that you could easily give,
but i'm too scared to accept it.
i'm very scared.
because i don't know what i'll,
end up asking from you next.
so i want to keep this to myself,
and store it up,
and leave.
but i can't.
i have to tell you.
so tell me how, how i can tell you
because if not, i might use what i use,
when i don't want to feel
anything
at all.
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