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—✎ December 28ᵗʰ, 2018.
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Huang Renjun, you disappeared
at first.
In the last weeks, I've rarely heard of you
from your other friends, and they also
don't really know the end you've done.
The worry I felt in my guts began to fire
up when I met you again on the same
day.
You looked oh, so demolished.
Your face looked so pale, your eyes so
tired, your lips chapped by the cold air
of Winter. Renjun, you tried to ignore
my presence, but you stayed completely
still when our sights met.
And then I hugged you, I held you in my
arms so tightly, as if I was suffocating your
lungs with my warmth.
You started to cry, sobs threatening to leave
your painful throat, mouthing “I'm tired”,
“i can't do it anymore” under your breath.
You were destroyed, you already
transformed yourself to million pieces,
I felt them in my hands.
Huang Renjun, you promised to not leave
me again. You promised me to never
fall in your own traps again. You promised
me that you'll feel better tomorrow.
But, it was all a lie.
✦
“I'm so sorry Mark,
I'm so damn sorry..”
“It's okay, Renjun.
You needed space, it's
completely alright.”
“I could've told you.
What if I never met you
again for one last time?”