Bas stopped in the middle of the room, holding his favorite clutch bag ready to go, he turned around to see his P laying on the bed, legs stretching leisurely.
"You aren't going to go with me, P?"
Godt sighed, "I'll stay."
Bas knitted his eyebrows, Godt rarely addressed himself as 'I' it's always 'P' especially when it's just the two of them.
Godt looked back at his phone, finger moving up and down focusing on nothing and Bas just stood there like a fool waiting for another fool to respond, even though he did not say anything.
Bas looked away from the view while mumbling "let's run away together"
Godt stopped whatever he did. He looked up.
"What did you just say?"
Bas was a bit surprised, he thought his words were blurted out unheard.
"I didn't say anything." He shrugged his shoulders off
Godt put his phone on the nightstand and stood up "I clearly heard you say 'let's run away together' Bas"
"You just misheard it" Bas said haphazardly, he walked towards the door but Godt caught his wrist fast. Bas grimaced from the sudden pain on his hand. He was having a cold and a small touch on his skin sent him pain. Seeing that, Godt loosened his grip but he did not release his hand. Bas turned around and looked at him in the eye, Godt's hand still clutching Bas' wrist.
"Did you mean that?" Godt spoke softly.
"What?"
"You said 'let's run away together'" if Godt's eyes were nails, they surely made deep holes on Bas' eyes. He was waiting for Bas' answer
"Let go of my hand..."
"I want you to tell me the truth."
"If you want to stay today, then stay. It's not like we are always on the same page." Bas said coldly and surprised himself how cold he sounded.
Godt's face changed, he released his grip. Giving Bas a chance to walk towards the door, holding the doorknob. He stopped and staring at his own hand for a moment, he turned around again and whispered.
"It was supposed to be a joke" and disappeared from the door.
*
Bas got in the car, plastering his upset face to everyone, did not mind if people suspected anything.
He chose to sit at the very back of the car, his favorite spot with his P.
"Isn't Namsan famous for it's heart padlock?" Tee commented after knowing their next trip.
"Yes, I heard whoever wrote their name and their lover's name on the padlock and lock it there, they will stay together forever." Cop added.
All were chit-chatting about how excited they were to go to Namsan Tower, but someone was lost in his own world, leaning his head on the car window; all gloomy.
Bas bought a pink padlock and contemplated whose names to write... After some minutes, he wrote Bas love mama.
"Aww why did you write mama? Isn't this for a couple, why don't you write his name?" His mom asked
"But mama is my first love" Bas smiled. He thought it was too early to think about forever with Godt, even though his heart screamed for it.
**
The orange dusk was hanging beautifully on the sky, he remembered how they always talked about light and the sun, being light for each other, he took a picture of the sunset and the heart lock, posted it to his IG story.
Not long after, a Line message popped up.
-GG-
'Let's go to Namsan together in the future'
Bas recited the message, he was happy to read the message, but he wasn't betting his heart on this. He didn't reply, so another message popped up.
-GG-
'It was not supposed to be a joke.'
'P will take you there in the future.'
He smiled, earnestly this time. Lately, he was a crybaby but he smiled a lot and laughed insanely too. Love has been giving him so much emotions all at once.
***
The dinner was ready but Bas wasn't hungry or so he thought, what he wanted that night was his having Godt by his side. He desperately wanted to hug him, touch him, felt loved under his embrace, being pampered and showered with kisses. His body was aching all over but that pain was nowhere near the ache in his heart at the fact that they're breathing the same air but could not be together. Added to his misery, it would be Godt's last night in Korea.
-GG-
'Eat a lot. I love you.'
He reread the message over and over. Godt could feel it that Bas was not at his best that night, especially when he could not be with him and their talks before Bas went off also left weariness in his heart. Sometimes, he really wanted to run away with Bas, but lately, he really wanted to run away with Bas.
It was past midnight, God slided the card on the door to their shared hotel room. He got a message from Kim a while ago.
-P'Kim-
'You have to take responsibility of his mood and I know even if I tried, his happiness is you. Take your time. The room is all yours.'
Godt replied a short thank you to Kim. Kim understood them the most and he treated Bas like his own little brother. They shared the room, the three of them, but Kim sacrificed his nice sleep to sleep with the other three so Godt and Bas could take care of their issue and made a happy memory before Godt going back to Bangkok.
Godt opened the door, a sight of sleeping Bas welcomed him, he was backfacing the door, so Godt walked to the other side of the bed to see his favorite person. His face was calm. Godt moved closer, took off his jacket and shoes, climbed up on the bed, laying beside the sleeping baby. He was enjoying the sight in front of him from a breath away, his fingers trailing over Bas' lock. He saw Bas knitted his eyebrows and fidgeted in his sleep.
Godt slided his hand below Bas' neck and pulled Bas' body to his embrace carefully, he put Bas' head gently on the pillow. Bas stirred from his sleep, but Godt pulled him closer till half of Bas' weight was on him.
"Shh...back to sleep, baby." He whispered while fixing the blanket to cover their bodies and kissed each of Bas' eyes sending Bas to a deep slumber again.
****
Bas jolted awake and went all panicked like he was late for something. He looked around and found no one in the room. He almost cried, he wanted to see his boyfriend before the latter going back to their motherland. He was so close to break in tears when he suddenly heard noises from the door. The door was unlocked and Godt appeared with a mealbox on his hand. Bas did not wait a second before running towards the door and hugged Godt tightly.
"Aww nong..." Godt circled his hand on Bas' waist while the other hand managed to put the food on the table next to the bed. Bas did not seem to care about the food, he just kept burying his face on the crook of Godt's neck, it was a bit cold.
God looked at the cute baby before him. "What's wrong? Did you think I have left?"
Bas did not answer, he just nodded his head a few times, still hugging Godt.
"Did you think P will leave you without your goodbye kiss?"
Bas nodded again.
Godt released himself from Bas and made him look up.
"P won't do that. Ever." While nuzzling his nose on Bas' nose.
"I thought P was still mad and didn't want to talk to me."
"If P was mad, do you think P will let Bas made my shoulder all numb the entire night?"
"Huh?"
"Look at this." Godt showed the wrinkle lines his chest. "P almost couldn't feel my chest when I woke up. You slept like a baby when P was holding you." It succeeded to plant blushes on Bas' cheeks.
"P isn't mad at you. Stop being upset na?" Godt ruffled Bas' after-wakeup hairs.
"I am sorry about what I said earlier."
"Which one?"
"Everything." Bas stared at Godt's fingers, nervous.
"That you want to run away with me? Or that it was a joke?"
Bas mumbled "That it was a joke." And started playing with Godt's fingers.
Godt nodded "P understand"
"I want to be with P always." He replied right after and moved closer to him, circling his arms around Godt's back, resting his cheek on Godt's chest; listening to his favorite melody, Godt's heartbeat. He felt safe whenever he got to listen to it, somehow it told him that he was not alone and it actually beat for him.
Godt started fondling Bas' hair lovingly "What Bas said before was true...."
Bas looked up again, meeting a pair of beautiful dark brown eyes, he looked confused.
"It's true, we are not always on the same page, but...we wrote on the same paper, in the same book, our inks touched and that's how fate works between us." Placing a soft kiss on Bas' lips, Godt whispered "I will be always around and so do you."
END.
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