~ziva~
When Ray was making love to me that night it didn't feel right... I didn't like it, i should be in tony's bed to be honest.
"What's wrong Ziva?" Ray asked me,
"Nothing, I'm just tired." i lied.
"Is it that Tony Dinozzo guy? I swear i'll beat the shit out of him, again anything for you ziva." Ray told me.
I have to be careful about what i say, i can't say about him beating up tony and stuff, even though I'm mad at him for it..
"Tony's done nothing wrong." I shrugged,
"Yeah, but Ziva I don't like how close you two are getting, like every single day you seem to be getting closer and closer. He's jealous that i have you, and he doesn't. He wants to get into your pants Ziva, he has since day one i can see it in his eyes, and i don't blame him. But you're mine." he claimed.
I'm nobody's.
"Ok."
"Why are you being so blunt Ziva? Also how come i can smell Tony's cologne on you?" Ray raised an eyebrow.
"Tony hugged me, because i started crying." I made up an excuse.
"I don't want you near him Ziva." Ray told me.
"It's my job, he's my partner.. i have to work with him, my job becomes before anything Ray, you know that." Ray's starting with his possessiveness...
"Ziva, you can come and work with me.. There's a spare job, i could get it for you." Ray claimed,
"So you don't trust me? Ok, so how am i supposed to be with you, marry you. when you don't even trust me." I rolled my eyes.
"I do trust you! It's just him i don't trust." Ray exclaimed.
"Yeah whatever." I mumbled before getting out of the bed and putting my clothes back on, i can't be around Ray at the moment, i love him, but he's doing my head in.
"I'll get you that job application form Ziva, and i'll put a good word in for you." Ray continued,
"I'm not leaving NCIS! I've been working there before i even knew you, so this is it Ray. You either trust me, let me work at NCIS with tony and we get married, or we both go our separate ways." I raised my voice.
"I'm not agreeing to any of them Ziva." He grabbed me fiercly, "Now listen you're not going to be anywhere near Tony, is that clear?" Ray glared at me.
I elbowed him in the stomach,
"No outsiders give me orders Ray! And do you want to know something else? I don't even want to marry you now.. have you seen the red mark you've left on my arm where you grabbed me so hard?" I shouted at him.
"Do what you fucking want you whore! But nothing will stop me getting you and Tony Dinozzo." Ray shouted back, before getting his gun out and pointing it at me.. Is he going to shoot... I quickly got mine, which was still attached to my trousers, and pointing the gun at him..
"Are we really going to do this Zi? Even though you look sexy pointing that gun at me thought." He grinned,
"No we're not going to do this. I'm going to leave this apartment and you won't stop me Ray." I told him,
"Do as you shall, but remember what i said before." Ray warned me.. I walked out of the apartment, picking up a blade on the way, then i sat in a shelter in the rain.
I began to cut myself with the blade.. i just couldn't do this anymore, the man i'm supposed to love is a complete monster, and goodness knows what will happen if i go back to him now.
I sighed, before wiping my tears away..
What am i supposed to do now?
Where am i supposed to go?
Who am i supposed to turn to?
I have absolutely no one..
I went on my phone, i had a message from Ray. Why can't he just leave me alone?
Ray: I've been thinking Ziva, and it was horrible for me to grab you the way i did, and the fact that i pointed my gun at you.. i am so sorry, i guess i just didn't like the thought of you and Tony sleeping together. Please come home, i miss you and we can make this up to each other..xx
Reading that text makes me feel absolutely sick.
"Ziva?" Someone called my name in close distance, i looked up.. tony. Him of all people to find me, in one of my emoctional states.
I quickly pulled my sleve back up, and tossed my blade into my pocket.
"Tony?" I spoke, trying not to sound upset.. But it was obvious that i was.. Tony came and sat next to me, he's sat so close to me.. I can feel butterflies in my stomach. I have to stop this.
"Zi, have you been crying?" Tony asked me, whilst placing both of his hands on my cheeks,
"Yeah." I answered his question.
"Come back to my place?" Tony offered,
"I really don't think that's a good idea." I sighed,
"Why not Ziva?" He frowned,
"Because of what happened earlier, and what i wanted to happen, and the fact that i wanted more from you and i still do." I replied.
"You're vunerable at the moment, and i won't take advantage of that." Tony told me.
I placed my hand on Tony's cheek, before brushing my lips against his...
"This is what i mean Tony." I pointed out,
"If that's what you want Zi." Tony mumbled, "But you're still coming to my place." tony persisted...
"Fine." I agreed.
"My cars over here." Tony muttered, and i walked along beside him to his car, then he drove us to his apartment.
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A/N
I felt guilty about yesterdays short update, so i've decided to update again today.. This one is a bit longer, but is unedited, so bare with that. This book has 50+ reads now, and i have only been writting it for about 2/3 weeks :).
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