I somehow nearly got lost trying to find my way back, I don't even think that's really possible but of course I managed to do that.
I see Sage and Zoe sitting down eating and talking, so I take a quick look behind me to see if Harry followed after me, but he didn't. So I just decide to go and sit with Sage and Zoe.
"Hey where were you?" Sage questions in a casual tone but with slight curiosity.
"I just went to the restroom, I also think Harry just went too"I respond.
"Oh okay, well do you want anything to eat?"
"No I'm good" I answer, giving her a small smile. As I say that Harry comes back and sits down next to me.
"Welcome back" I tease Harry, raising my eyebrows at him.
"It's a pleasure" he sarcastically replies back.
"Well if y'all are ready we can leave?" Zoe speaks up. I look over at Harry then back to Zoe.
"I mean I am if y'all are" I say, shrugging.
"We all look a little done with today, so I am" Sage responds.
Honestly I am too, I just want to go back home and relax in my comfy clothes. I look over at Harry and he nods at me, signaling he's ready to go back.
"Okay then I guess we'll leave. It's been really fun today y'all, I learned how to finally skate, who would have thought" I laugh, making Zoe and Sage chuckle.
"Yeah knowing your clumsy ass I'm surprised you made it out without a wheelchair" Sage says giggling.
Honestly I'm pretty impressed over that too.
"Yeah honestly same. We should do this again sometime" I say genuinely, while grabbing my things and getting up.
"Yeah for sure!" Sage says, while both of them yell bye to me, I wave in response.
I practically throw myself in the car, somehow exhausted with the small amount of activity I did today. Don't get me wrong, I stay pretty fit, I'm just a little dramatic, and get tired quite easily.
We've been in the car for ten minutes and Harry hasn't spoken a word. It's not awkward tension, but it's definitely tension.
There's no way he can be mad at what happened earlier. He's either frustrated or he's playing some game with me where he won't talk. Both of them being very possible.
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We get back to my place and Harry still hasn't spoken a single word, he came in and threw himself on the couch and went on his phone. I'm actually starting to get really confused.
I walk over to him and sit down on the coffee table right in front of him, but he doesn't make eye contact with me. He has to be purposely ignoring me. I poke his knee and still nothing.
"Silent game huh?" I speak up.
There's not a single sign of him listening to me, it's seriously like he's deaf. He doesn't move a muscle. I push myself off the coffee table and crouch between his legs, trying to meet eye contact with him since he's looking down.
I rest my hands on his thighs "Harry" I drag out. He just sits there like a statue.
What in the actual fuck?
I grab his chin trying to get him to look at me, he resists at first but then looks at me with this blank stare, almost like he's not even there. My eyes go wide as I lightly chuckle to myself. He's really going for this whole silent thing.
"You are so frustrating oh my god" I say with a loud sigh, looking away while rubbing my temples, and a miracle happens, I hear Harry mumble something under his breath.
My head snaps back towards him "What? Come on I think you can speak louder than that"
He slowly starts looking up at me, with a slight smirk on his face. Why is this kind of scary?
"That's how you make me feel" he finally speaks up.
I immediately furrow my eyebrows "Not in general I don't think, maybe just sexually, but you tease me too so don't act like a saint" I reply shaking my head.
He nods his head at me in a taunting way, like he really doesn't care what I'm saying at all. His attitude flipped so quick. I just nod back getting up to go to my room. I'm not mad at him, but if he doesn't want to talk to me, he doesn't have too.
I go to close my bedroom door but Harry puts his hand on the door, stopping me. Without speaking a word he walks in, I sigh as I close the door. The second I turn around I feel him push me roughly up against the door. Not what I was expecting, but I'm not really surprised at this point.
"You know you're frustrating in ways, that aren't even your fault or don't even know" he says.
"And hows that?" I ask him, furrowing my eyebrows.
He steps closer to me "Do you know how terrible it was wanting you when you didn't want me?" He murmurs "You know, I tried not wanting you, I tried to convince myself it was just sexually, but that's not what is was, was it?" He admits.
I just stand there looking at him not knowing where he's going with this.
"But I really didn't know what I was getting into" He says, putting my hair behind my ear "it's frustrating how addicting you are. It's frustrating how witty you are, and it's so fucking frustrating how much I want you, but I don't know how to show you, or make sure not to overwhelm you" he takes a pause to take in a deep breath.
"I'm not used to this either Leah but all I know is I want you" he confesses. I immediately grab his face giving him a quick kiss.
"I want to know how you feel, so don't ever think you'll overwhelm me" I say, taking his hand and leading him to sit with me on the bed. "I want to know you Harry, anything you'll tell me"
"I'll tell you as much as you want to know" he says confidently.
I laugh, looking down at my lap "Okay, so how about this, right now let's take some time, asking each other questions to get to really know each other?" I suggest.
"Okay I'll go first?" I nod giving him approval "What's something you loved as a kid?" He asks.
"I mean I've always loved books, it's always been my escape, same with music. I've also always loved sunsets" I answer.
"Sunsets?" He asks wanting me to go into further detail.
"I would always go out on walks with music and chase the sunset, there was something just so relaxing about it. Especially when the sky would turn all pretty colors like purple and pink, I love them" i reveal.
"Sunsets are really pretty, I've never really heard someone say that surprisingly, nobody just seems to mention it" he replies.
"Yeah, it's kind of an obsession of mine" I laugh "Okay my turn, is there anything you think I should know about you, like something I may not ask about but it's important to why you are the person you are?" I ask.
"Um before you" he clears his throat, making me sit up straighter "I wasn't much of a relationship person either for awhile. I wasn't against them it's just...one night stands were easier" he admits, while looking down a twisting the rings on his fingers.
"That's why I was so shocked you actually wanted me too. I was scared if I'm honest" he lets out a dry laugh while shaking his head "I haven't felt that way in a long time you know, actually wanting someone. I just wanted sex, no emotional attachment, and so did the other girls, so I thought maybe that's all you wanted too"
My heart literally drops.
"And at first, that was fine with me because that's how I was but once I caught feelings for you, that thought running through my head, began to hurt. What drew me in though was your bold attitude and" he takes a pause "you not falling at my knees. You challenged me"
"You didn't put up with my bullshit, you're real and genuine. You helped me realize that maybe I was capable of feeling something again and if I was worthy enough, you'd possibly feel something for me"
I'm at a complete loss for words. The fact that he just admitted that all to me has me unable to speak.
I slowly reach my hand up to his face and stare into his eyes for a moment "Who made you feel that you weren't worthy of affection?" I softly say, he then bites his lip looking down. I try grabbing his face but he gently grabs my hand and pulls it away.
"No I don't want you to see me cry"
Here I thought he couldn't break my heart more. I nearly start crying when those words leave his beautiful lips.
"Please look at me" I grab his face again, he resists again, but then I grab his face with both of my hands, looking at him directly in his watery eyes.
I have to look away for a moment, trying to hold myself together. I look back at him, I use my thumbs to wipe under his eyes, he grabs my wrist again but instead of pulling my hand away, he keeps a grip on my wrist to keep my hand on his cheek, as I feel him melt into the palm of my hand.
I can't help but let a tear fall. Seeing him this way breaks my heart. He thinks he isn't worthy of any care or affection, or even worthy in general.
"Listen to me, you can cry, it's okay to cry, showing emotion is what makes us human. You're allowed to be venerable and not be okay, don't keep it all bottled up. And Harry" I take a pause, taking in a deep breath trying not to cry more than I am.
"You are so worth it. I know you may not see it, but I do, and I don't know who told you that you're not or made you feel that way, but they were wrong. Because the man that I am looking at right now, deserves all of the love and care in the world" I say, grabbing his face again.
"I know I suck and will never be able or give you what you deserve or be the person you deserve but I'm not going anywhere and I can promise you that okay?" I try to reassure him.
He just shakes his head while looking down "No Leah, you are more than enough, I don't want anyone else, only you" He replies quietly.
I let out a deep sigh as I can't take it anymore, i smash my lips against his, he immediately melts into it, grabbing my hips trying to get as close to me as possible.
He runs his tongue along my top lip, asking for entrance as I open up letting his tongue caress mine. I lay back, pulling him on top of me, bending my legs slightly, letting him rest between them, as he still is hungrily kissing me.
He moves down to my neck, attacking there as I grab onto his hair for support, as he holds a firm grip on my waist pinning me to the bed. He leaves trails of kisses all along my neck and jaw as he picks his head up looking at me for a moment, then grabbing the back of his shirt and pulling it over his head.
I notice his tattoos on his chest that I had no idea about but before I can even think more into his tattoos, he leans back down raising my shirt and kissing my stomach, making me instantly grab onto his hair, trying to contain the butterflies in my stomach.
He kisses the spot on my stomach right where my jeans start, then looking up at me, wanting me to give him permission to continue.
"Are you sure?" He asks in a soft voice
"Yes I'm sure" I quickly reply, I just need him to do something about the horrible aching I feel starting to bubble up on my lower half.
He looks back down and slowly starts to unbutton my jeans, then slowly pulling them down my legs. How slow he's being is literally killing me.
I instinctively slightly bend my legs again, he starts to kiss the inner part of my thigh, starting by my knee, then slowly and teasingly kissing to my upper thigh, near where I want him.
He stops once again to look at me underneath his eyelashes, making me suck in a sharp breath, my heart beating out of my chest.
"Please" I let slip out, making something flash in his eyes before looking back down, and grabbing the hem of my underwear, slowly pulling them down, staring at me as if he's taking in every detail of my body.
He throws my underwear to the side before coming up near my face and kissing me with complete passion, then leaving trails of kisses down before stoping right above my bare lower half.
He grabs underneath my thighs before lowering his mouth to attach to my center, making my stomach jump at the feeling.
I immediately grip onto his hair, as he uses his slick tongue to traces patterns against my sensitive nerves, making me shiver. I let out a moan as he laps and sucks on my clit, flicking his tongue against it while humming.
"Oh my god" I pant, my grip in his hair tightening, while tugging on it slightly "Fuck Harry-" I loudly gasp as he keeps up his rapid movements with his tongue on my heat, making him let out a deep grunt coming from the back of his throat.
His eyes flick up from underneath his eyelashes to watch my face, its near impossible to keep eye contact because every time he licks along my clit I feel the need to throw my head back.
He unlocks his arm that is holding my thighs apart before pushing my leg further apart to give him more room. He attaches his mouth back to me, dragging a slow eager lick up my folds before suctioning on my sensitive nerves that are throbbing with an ache that I can feel through me.
He pulls back "Say my name again for me love" he says in a hoarse voice, then teasing me, with his breath fanning my center, making me whimper at the feeling. I tug on his hair to urge him to keep going. I notice him smirk before attaching his mouth back to me, with more force and determination, making me let out filthy sounds, but I can't help but rock my hips against his tongue, feeling the strong orgasm in me start to unravel.
"Harry s-shit" I moan, not being able to finish my sentence with all the air being knocked out of me "Don't stop-" I feel my legs start to shiver and my lower half start to twitch.
He speeds up his pace, tightening his grip on my thighs, moving me closer to his mouth before attacking my sensitive nerves in fast motions.
I squeeze my eyes close, crying out as the fullness in my stomach gets to the agonizing point of nearly spilling over.
"H-Harry I'm- I'm gonna-" I let out loud moan, echoing as I scream out profanity's I can't understand as my orgasm explodes inside of me.
My body goes limp but my muscles can't seem to stop convulsing. I keep my eyes squeezed close as I ride through the aftershocks.
I start to collect myself as Harry rests on his side next next to me, I turn and look at him and all I can do is kiss him, but pull away soon after.
"You okay?" He asks in a vey gentle voice.
I mean I'm great but holy shit, where in the actual fuck did he learn that?
"Mmm hmm" I hum chuckling, making him do the same.
"Leah?" Harry speaks up again.
"Yeah" I reply, letting out a sigh as I turn my head to look at him.
"Thank you for everything. For caring about me, and wanting me, just for being you" he blurts out, making a warm smile appear on my cheeks.
"Look at you, being all sappy" I tease him.
"What can I say, I'm a romantic" he says laughing at himself as I feel exhaustion start to take over me, my eyes starting to droop.
He puts his hand in my hair and starts to gently run through it "Im going to go take a shower, you sleep okay?" He softly says.
"Okay, see you later" I laugh, waving at him.
He smirks while waving back at me and blowing me a kiss before closing the bathroom door.
Not long after, sleep takes over me as I think about Harry and that dumb smirk of his.
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Hope y'all enjoyed this chapter loves!
Taylor x