Part one of three:-
"Are we seriously doing this?", he whined.
"Yuh, I need some time ", I shifted on my legs still avoiding his eyes.
" Please Alex... Its just me! I'm still the same person", he stumbled upon his words, his voice slightly quivering. Looking at Georgie Stokes, you'd probably never guess that he cried like a baby watching A walk to remember.
And he'd probably slap me if he finds out that I told you about that.
I looked everywhere else but his face.... I seriously can't do this right now.
I can't bear to look at his face right now, the pain washing over his face, the way his ears and nose get annoyingly red everytime he's had get good cry. His whole face must look like a tomato right now and I can't bear to look at it. My own face slightly green from all these bottled up emotions.
" Georgie just give me some time to think.. Just give me some space..ok?", my voice came a lot harsher then I intended it to. I winced at the tone.
I imagined Gee flinching at my tone.
I rarely get angry, ever but I still didn't dare look at his face.
"You called me Georgie. You never call me Georgie", he mumbled, I heard the little crack at the end. I heard his voice break and I'm the reason so.
I want to ask him to come to hang at my house and eat my mom's chocolate chip cookies but I just couldn't.
We've been friends for our whole damn lives. 14 whole years if the story our moms tell us of meeting at the pediatrician's when I was 8 months old is true.
And still he didn't tell me...how could he lie to me like this?
" Okay ", was all he said before he dashed away. Almost running towards the exit.
I just stood in the hallway and watch him slip out of the door.
It would have been far more heart breaking and gut wrenching if we didn't share the same bus home and if he didn't live next to me. Like if the moment he ran away heartbroken was our last moment together or some sappy shit like that.
He moved in next door 8 years ago ; but we've been friends our whole entire lives.
Sometimes I even get jealous how much mom loves Gee. Not that I'm loved any less by the Stokes'. I am very lovable I've been told.
It is only going to make it more awkward sitting on the bus and walking back home together.
Are we going to walk in a line since we can't walk side by side?
And I don't know what I'm suppose to say if mom asks about him.
This whole situation is so fucked up. Why did he have to be gay! Like you don't expect your lifelong best friend, the one who's been attached to your hip since the beginning of time to come back from summer camp and drop this bomb of a news. Its a fucking nuclear bomb at that!
I was totally against this ratchet Summer camp. First of all I didn't want him away the whole entire summer off to some la la land to study protons or shit whatever the hell you do at science camps that is..
But Gee loves science,he's a total geek and besides I had to spend the summer at Nana's in Florida.
It wasn't even that fun...all I did was eat cake and learn to cross stitch.
I did make a sick doormat. I was planning to give Gee the doormat but gahhhh.
I was all smiles coming back home to see Gee, I was literally singing along to Lady Gaga's born this way 3 hours ago but he had to freaking ruin it all.
How would you feel if your best friend said he's gay because he kissed a stupid prick at the stupid summer camp and he liked it. That he's always known but he couldn't share it with his best friend!!? What the hell is that suppose to mean?
Also you don't just blurt shit out like that in the middle of lunch. What was he even thinking dumping shit like that when I was trying to saw through my rectangular shaped school provided pizza.
That's besides the point. Can he really blame me for asking time to process this shit.. idiot! He didn't have to guilt trip me with those puppy eyes and shit.
Ughhh...
I truged onto my stupid fucking shit yellow school bus and walked past Gee, he was sitting in our 2nd row seat ,the one where we sat in the morning onto the last row, the bumpy lumpy one.
I pouted the whole entire ride, I sneaked a look at Gee everytime time we drove over a bump...he was leaning his head on the window, his head was bumping at the window every 2 seconds. At this rate he'll get a concussion.. Stupid child.
The walk home was more awkward than I anticipated. He acted like I didn't even exist...
I had to resort to counting sheeps to keep myself entertained.
As soon as I stepped inside the house my mom asked if Gee was coming over.
I spewed some shit about getting a surprise project for Lit and having to make tomorrow's deadline.
That wasn't even a decent lie given the fact that Gee and I always study together, books snd shit..not really my thing. But Gee, the little genius.
I sulked the entire night.
I didn't even get to show him my cross stitch. Stupid.
He's a total idiot. Why did he have to be gay? Doesn't he like boobs? Like boobs are soft and squishy.. Not that I would know, I'm still a virgin.
Boobs are supposed to be fun not penis! How can you like penis over boobs!??
Well I do like my own penis.. I also like masturbating so it couldn't be that different doing it to someone else's penis.
Why the hell am I even thinking about wanking Gee's penis. Gahhhhh
Its not that I'm some homophobic bigot.. I live in LA and mom has a girlfriend for Christ sake! Maybe that's why he told me before he even told his mom.
Great!! Now I feel even more guilty!
Its just want my old Gee back, the one who I could talk to about Emily Ratajkowski's boobs.
And my birthday is in like a 8 days. I turn 15! Freaking 15... I'm 3 months older than Gee so I've always taken it upon myself to look out after him, being older and all ,even though everyone would probably say it's the other way around just because he's a mere three inches taller than me and he has some man muscles, to me he's a huge ass baby. Stupid idiot had to spoil it.
I was planning on cruising highschool with Gee by my side. With the cheerleaders hanging off our arms..The classic nerd and jock. Well I'm no jock but hey!! I could be... I'm plenty good at Fifa.
But he had to be gay. He had to spoil everything on the very first day of High School.
I know mom is going to start noticing and she's going to hate me if she finds out that I pushed Gee away just cause he likes sucking cocks. Although I doubt he's sucked one..but can't trust anyone these days...you send off your bestie to learn molecule shits and they come back eating face with some rando named Steve. Imagine being named Steve in 2019! Fucking bozo.
I am not even homophobic but I don't know why Gee being gay scares the shit out of me.
I should probably run away to Florida. Cross stitch and carrot cake doesn't look so bad right now.
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I almost forgot how much I loved writing...
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This is obviously a short story.
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About my other book? I am having a writers block on that one.
Thank you.
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