GET YOU POPCORN READY SIS, IT'S A LONG CHAPTER
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"You know what" I burst through my room door making Jungkook jump "Jesus" He breathes out holding his chest
I drop my bag in a huff and cross my hands over my chest "I can't do this" "Do what?" "Go to school and pretend everything is alright when it is not, I have been just bullshitting this all but it's so- just so frustrating" I sit on my desk as my bed is pretty occupied "Stress is really eating you huh"?" I nod to his question and he nods too "Jimin stress or school stress?" I shrug "Both I guess" I rub my temples and close my eyes
"So what are we doing today?" He limps over to me with a forced smile "We?" "Like you and me?" He gives me a duh look "I am not in the mood, sorry" I sit back properly "Oh come on" "I have no idea who you are and you want to do something together?" I snap and he steps back "Woah, I thought we were reaching the friendship stage" He limps back and sits at the edge of the bed facing me
"You claim you're a gang member and you expect me to associate myself with one" I press him further "Yet you're dating the leader?" He snaps back and I shake my head looking at him "I don't believe you-" "Why not?" "Jimin is too nice to do anything, let alone kill anyone" I choke up "Who said he killed anyone?" He pressures me "I don't know, you implied it" "Nope, that's where I come into play" He breathes out looking lost "You kill people?" "I do" He answers so calmly "Are you serious?" "Did I stutter?" "WHY?!" "Orders"He shrugs and lays down "And you still do it?" "Yes" "I am in a room with a murderer" I say to myself quietly "Essentially" He replies and I sigh as I get a headache immediately "Guess I'm really not not going school"
"Don't be scared of me please, I won't kill you cause I really cannot you're my bait so.." "So after what you want comes then you'll kill me?" He sits up, limps back over to me and comes over to my face "I'll think about it" He pokes my nose and I push his hand away "Yuck, you've still got bloody fingers" "It's not my fault! I had a shower, it just keeps leaking" "Yuck ew stop"I cover my ears "Its really not that-" The sound of the doorbell interrupts Jungkook's sentence and we both look at each other confused
"Are you expecting anyone?" He asks with one eyebrow up "I am supposed to be in school" I whisper to him "Who could it be then?" "I don't know this is not really an ideal situation is it?" "Why are you whispering?" He squints looking confused at me "I don't know" I cough out and speak properly "Well let me go check it out" He steps forward and I stop him "Hold up there cowboy, You're a murderer so could be the police coming to arrest you. Your blood is leaking over the top, so if it is a plumber or something essentially they would call the police or-" "Or it could be Jimin, coming to give me an explanation" He believes and I raise my eyebrows "He wouldn't ring the doorbell though" "Well apparently he is a changed man" He runs out and he is too quick he opens the door before I could even move
"Oh hi, I am looking for Y/n, I hope I am at the right house" I hear a familiar voice say from outside and Jungkook looks back at me "It's for you" He lets the door go looking disappointed and limps to the living room and I rush to the door and to my surprise it's Mary Anne, who has showed up unannounced
"Oh my gosh what a surprise to see you here, how do you even know where I live?" I ask her so shocked "Is that the boy you've been hiding from me this whole time" She completely ignores what I just asked and starts a new topic "Who? Him? Nooooooo" I wave my hands trying to explain "Oh come on, I know he is, isn't he? he is pretty cute but what happened to all the cuts his face?" "Nothing he is just disfigured I don't know, but trust me nothing like that" "You sure?" "100%" "Okay I trust you and sorry for coming unannounced but classes ended early today and Jackson-" She points to a black car indicating he was inside "Wants me to go to a event tonight but I really do not want to go so I asked if I could bring you along and he agreed so please please come" "Oh, I am really not in a good mindset right now I just find it hard to think" "Please Y/n"
"What time?" Jungkook takes over the door once again and pushes me aside answering for me "7:30" She looks surprised at his sudden presence "We will be there" He shuts the door in her face and I slap his arm "That was extremely rude" " 'He is just disfigured' isn't rude at all right?" He imitates me and I roll my eyes "I didnt want her thinking I liked you or something" "Now that wouldn't be bad" He comes close to my face and pushes my hair back "What are you doing?" "Just putting on a show for the bear" He nods over to the table where Chimmy is sat and I am shocked "Why is my bear here?" "I consider this bear being Jimin, cause of course he is watching so I am just simply letting him see it all whilst giving a good show" I look at him weirdly and he hugs me suddenly and whispers
"This will make him come faster" I feel him look up and guess he's looking at the bear
"So since we are going out, and you apparently invited yourself which I am not complaining about you need to have another shower and get patched up again" I explain to him and he nods with his hair bouncing "Yes mummy" He answers and I roll my eyes "I am serious Jungkook" "Okay okay, just get another one of your dads tops and throw this in the wash" He takes off the top revealing his chest yet again but this time I notice some tattoos on his body I didn't see before
I turn around "I didn't know you had tattoos" I put the top in the washing machine and turn back around "Well I didn't know in this one day of getting to know each other, you wanted to know my whole life story" He says sarcastically and I roll my eyes again "I am going to clean, so hurry up" He doesn't say anything and heads upstairs so I quickly head to my parents to find him an age friendly top which wasn't hard at all but I hope my dad doesn't realise
"Are you ready?" I ask Jungkook as he steps out of my room looking fresh and clean and he looks me up and down "Is this how you're going out?" He asks rudely and I gasp "WHY? Is it ugly why did you say that? I am changing" I am about to go into my room but he catches my arm "I didn't mean it in a bad way, you're wearing a skirt and its quiet cold so I was a bit confused but don't worry you're cute" He smiles cutely and I relax "I've got a huge coat so that will keep me warm hopefully" I smile back at him
I order an uber to the address of where Amelia texted to me and when we get there, I see so many people surrounding car, looks like people gambling or something "What is this place?" I say out loud "You brought me here so I wouldn't really know" He says half heartily as he scans the area "But the people here look so familiar" He says quietly and I look up at him "What do you mean?" "I can't pinpoint it, but him-" He nods to a boy leaning on a car talking to his friends "I know them, well I've seen them but I cannot remember where, I literally cannot" "Well this is Jackson's even so we can ask him when you see him"
"What did you just say?" He turns me around quickly and I look at him confused "I said we can just ask Jack-" "We need to go" He is no longer looking at me he is looking behind me so I peak too and I see a group of boys walking towards us and then I look back at jungkook as his grip tightens on me "What is happening Jungkook?" He swallows and stands tall and pushes me behind him
"Well well well, look what the cat dragged in?" Jackson says looking at Jungkook in hatred "Cats can't drag humans dumbass" Jungkook smartly remarks "Back at it again with those stupid comments huh?" Jackson grabs jungkook throat and pull him closer and I am exposed but no one seems to notice me "I see you're back at it again with your fruity(gay) behaviour" Jungkook smirks and I see his fist tighten on his throat "If this wasnt my even you'd be in pieces right now, so you fucking try me I dare you" He lets go of Jungkook and Jungkook coughs "Is that a promise?" Jung kook still manages to get out "Where is your little bitch?" Jung kook walks right over to me as people are staring at us then I feel Jacksons eyes on me and Jungkook turns me around and we walk the other way
As we are walking away I hear him say "Next time, that will be your head and you baby bros" Which seems to anger Jungkook as I can feel him breathing heavily but I hold his hand and he calms down "It's okay, I mean I have no idea what just happened but don't let Jackson get to you"
Me and Jungkook decided we were just gonna walk home because we wanted to keep a low profile so we decided to take quiet streets as a shortcut "How do you know Jackson?" I ask as we walk and Jungkook breathes in "It's a really long-"
Suddenly out of no where someone runs behind us and pushes Junkook aside shoving him onto the wall and throwing a punch at his face then at his stomach, I screech but Jungkook remains calm and spits blood onto the floor laughing
"Oh look Y/n, looks like Romeo came late" I look at Jungkook to see if he was alright then the person holding him up to the wall and to my surprise to see the horrible looking Jimin
"Hello bother" Jimin says sinisterly and Jungkook snickers "Brother? Oh my, wow you remember me? And Taehyung? No you didn't have to" He says grunting trying to catch his breath "So you went behind my back to my girl? and you think I wouldn't come?!" "The girlfriend you can barely call yours, huh? I knew you'd come thats exactly why I ran to her" Jungkook pushes Jimin back and they both stumble
"You've done so much than avoid her and you look her in the face and call her your fucking girlfriend" Jungkook rages out at him and Jimin looks at the floor then swallows and looks me up and down
"Jungkook, stop moving you're hurt" I whisper as I go to him quickly hold him up and he nods leaning on the wall in pain "Why would you go to her for help?" Jimin asks angry "I had no one else" "She was never yours to go to!" "I HAD NO FUCKING CHOICE" He yells then catches himself again as I hold him "Where's Taehyung?" "YOUR-NEW-GANG-TOOK-HIM A-AND I GOT STABBED, YOU FUCKING ABANDONED US" He says between his breaths
"I TOLD YOU I DONT WANT THIS LIFE, I WANT TO MOVE ON AND YOU AND YOUR FUCKING BROTHER DIDNT LISTEN, YOU DID THIS?" Jimin rages back at Jungkook as if I were never there, he was so angry, they were both angry but I have never seen Jimin this rattled before "Yeah it's always me" Jungkook says lowly and I just keep staring at Jimin in awe of him even being there despite his state
"Y/n" He whispers as he catches me but I pretend not to hear him "Jungkook we need to get you to my house before my parents come home, you're really hurt so I hope I won't hurt you more" I pull him to my side and he nods with his arm around my neck
"You barely know him" Jimin says surprised at my action "He kills people and you order him to do it" I spit out and start to walk with Jungkook hopping at my side "Order?" Jimin shakes his head confused "I don't want to talk about anything, all I want to do it make sure Jungkook is safe" We keep walking but then I feel weight lift off my shoulder and I look to the side to see Jimin has taken the other side of Jungkook's body and is helping me to carry him back home
"Are you okay, Jungkook?" I ask afraid as we lay him down on my bed and he nods shutting his eyes "Stop treating me like I'm a baby, I am a grown man, y/n" He chuckles hurt making me smile "Get rest" I pull the blanket over him and walk out the room with Jimin tailing me to the kitchen
I open the fridge and get a beer out for Jimin then turn and throw it to him in which he catches almost immediately then I get myself a bottle of water, then I turn around and lean on the counter as we face each other awkwardly
"Thanks for that, and thanks for spying on me" I nod to my room where Jungkook is sleeping then to the teddy lying on the counter "It was for your own safety" He bites back "For what?" "For things like this" "So if this never happened you would never show your face until I was in trouble?!" I screech and he stands straight in defence "I'm trying" He swallows out painfully "I can't even call you my boyfriend anymore" "Listen, I've been trying to live, this whole shit, whole life is so fucked up
He moves closer to me "I was so stupid when I was a little kid and I thought moving here I'd just keep a low profile and forget about everything but I can't because this fucked up life keeps following me around, gang life was not for me and I do not know what Jungkook has told you about what happened but I didn't kill anyone and I didn't order him to kill anyone, in the game it's every man for themselves, you either kill or get killed, so in order to keep my brothers alive I had to tell them what to do, and it did pain me to tell them to do something I didn't want them to do but they were like my little brothers and I was doing anything to keep us all alive, so when I decided to leave this life I didn't know they would still be trapped in what we were doing and n-now they have Taehyung, they've almost killed Jungkook, god knows what they are doing with Tae, and it's my fault, it's all my fucking fault" He cries out with tears rolling down his face which makes me teary and I hold him as he cries on my shoulder holding me close "I've done many bad things and I won't deny it but it's a past I didn't want to remember, yet go back to but they were gonna kill me, my family, you" He looks me in my eyes as I tense
"I told myself I can't love you, but I can't stop thinking about you"
He says the last sentence then shuts his eyes as more tears come out and I step on my tip toes and gentle peck his lips and wipe his face "Jimin, you can't do everything by yourself, it's too much pressure" Tears roll down my face as I look at his state "I don't involve anyone in my business ever, but I just don't know what to do now" "Just relax" We rest out foreheads against each other and stay in silence
"You're going to leave me again, aren't you?" "Yes" He says making more tears come back "When are you gonna be back?" "I don't know, I can't say, I need to get Taehyung" I hug him tight and rest my face in his chest "Can we just stay like this for a second" He calms down in my hold and I shut my eyes so I can stop crying "Please come back quickly" I croak out silently "Anything for you" His voice cracks and we stay there
We walk up the stairs and we enter my room to see Jungkook siting up as if he was ready to go somewhere and I see he is looking at Jimin for direction then I look to Jimin who nods to him "What's going on?" I ask as Jimin goes to Jungkook's side and gets him up carrying him up again "We have to go now" Jimin answers back and I look at them as if they were both going to war and I didn't know how to feel "Why are you taking Jungkook?" "He doesn't belong here, he can't stay here" "I can take care of him, he is hurt and needs to heal" "It's okay Y/n, I've got him, he is going to be safe, don't worry" They walk over to where I am and Jungkook side hugs me "See you later, Y/n, thank you for taking care of me" I hug him tight and even Jimin lets go "So I guess we are friends then?" He asks and I nod "Please come back" "That's if I am not dead" I wait for him to laugh or smile but he didn't which indicated he wasn't joking
They both walk out of my room, then down the stairs "See you Y/n" "Bye baby" They both yell and I hear the door shuts and I sit on the step
'I have never felt so lonely before, and now depression is really kicking in'
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if you see any spelling mistakes like Jimmy, Jim instead of Jimin or Jung kook or JUNGKOK for Jungkook its because my auto correct just randomly does it for me, rubbish. son if you feel triggered cause same lol