•Harry's POV• 🐸
A year had passed since the incident with Zayn and everything was going great
He had told us everything one by one breaking down each time he did
His mom had gotten a job as a librarian and she had even met someone new. His name was Tony and he treated her like a princess just like she should be treated, they were even going to get married in a couple of months once she finished sorting out the divorce with Zayn's dad.
Fortunately they had found a house to move into coincidentally it was the house next to Louis' but they got on great now
And speaking of Louis you're probably wondering if we were back together again, unfortunately no.
I had thought I'd just have to wait a few months but apparently Louis wasn't ready for a relationship and I tried to respect that.
So I've waited and waited and somehow my love for Louis has never faded, though I don't know for sure if I can say the same for him
He became more serious about us being platonic after a few months and I had no choice but to do as he said
He wasn't ready. So I had to be okay with it.
However onto happier topics, Niall had finally asked June out and their relationship was going great. Niall was completely whipped for the girl it was clear how much he liked her and I wouldn't be surprised if they spent the rest of their life's together
"Earth to Harry!" Zayn says waving a hand in my face
"Huh?" I ask looking around at my surroundings
I was still laying on his bed while he was laying next to me trying to get my attention
"You're done talking with Liam?" I ask turning to look at him
"Yeah, I was just wondering if you were getting hungry but you were completely spaced out," He says worriedly
"I was just thinking," I say sitting up
"About?" He says sitting up as well
"Louis right?" He says knowingly
"Yeah, and everything that's happened," I say running a hand through my hair it was getting a little long but everyone said it suited me so maybe I would grow it out
"I don't understand why you guys aren't together, I mean you both love each other and want to be together, so what's the problem?"
"The 'problem' Zayn, is that he doesn't love himself," I say turning to look at him
"I get it, I'm just tired of seeing you silently pin after him," He says getting up off the bed
"I've done everything I can, he knows I love him and he'll come to me when he's ready," I tell him following him with my eyes as he walks over to his desk
"Well maybe he's ready," he says holding up my phone
"What do you mean?" I ask getting up to stand next him
"Take a look for yourself" he says handing me my phone and walking over to the window facing Louis' house
I look at the phone and see Louis texted me
Louis 💙: Hey can u come over? I wanna talk
"Is it okay if I go?" I say looking at Zayn apologetically
"Sure, just come back after to tell me everything," he says turning back to look at me
"I will, thanks mate," I say as I grab my jacket and leave the door
I exit the house the cold air hitting my face. I slowly make my way over to Louis' house and knock.
"Harry! Come in!" Louis stepdad says leading me inside
"Louis! Harry's here!" He yells out looking at the stair case
"I haven't seen you in a while, what've you been up to?" He asks me with a huge grin
"Just school work, the school years almost over I'm gonna be heading to college soon," I say realizing it as I say it
"I know can't believe Louis's gonna be a sophomore in college soon," He says with proud eyes
That was another thing Louis had graduated last year a few months after the Zayn thing. He had choose a college in town deciding he wasn't ready to leave his family just yet
"Harry, lets talk outside yeah?" Louis says suddenly running downstairs
"Yeah okay," I say smiling up at him
He was beginning to grow a little scruff and I couldn't help but admit he looked amazing
I wave goodbye to his dad and we walk towards the back yard
We sit down on the little chair swing they had gotten this summer. Louis was so enthusiastic about it saying he would never go back inside. However he quickly changed his mind after the millions of mosquito bites he had managed to acquire
"So what do you wanna talk about?" I say looking up at the sky while slowly rocking us
"Us, me. How I've been feeling," He says nervously threading his fingers through mine
His hand looked so small in mine, at this point I was getting noticeable taller than him.
I look down surprised that he's holding my hand
I nod at him in attempt to make him feel safe and comfortable. He smiles at me and continues
"When I first told you I needed time I never expected you to be so supportive and I honestly couldn't be more grateful," he says squeaking my hand
"And over this year, I've tried to love myself and at first I was doing it for you, but then I realized I needed to do it for me." He says looking deep into my eyes
"And getting self-love isn't a thing where like you can just stop hating yourself. And there never is a certain amount of time it'll take you to love yourself." He says looking away with teary eyes
"But I guess you just gotta fake it till you make it. At least that's helped me," He says furrowing his eyebrows
"And everyday I would get up and get out of bed and I'd look in the mirror and I'd tell myself 'you're so ugly' 'no one could ever love you' and I would just be so miserable all the time," Louis says his voice breaking
"And I've decided it's not worth it, being so sad takes so much effort. And why be sad when I have all these great things in my life?" He says sniffling
"And I guess when I'd put myself down in the back of my mind I'd always think 'really though?' because no matter how many times I told myself otherwise I always kinda knew I wasn't ugly." He says with a sad smile
"And at this point I can admit I'm attractive, I know I am. And I realized that back then I would never admit that. But I am. I'm attractive." He continues
"I mean I don't think that I'll ever not falter when I get insulted on my appearance. But at least now it won't make me wanna crawl into the floor and begin crying," Louis tells me turning away
"But along with this realization I realized I'm a great catch, I mean I'm nice, funny, and attractive. And I do deserve to be happy with the person I love." He says sincerely
"And that person is you," He says turning back around and smiling at me
"So you're ready? You wanna get back together?" I ask feeling butterflies erupt in my stomach
He nods and my heart literally feels as if it's about to burst with love for the boy.
"I love you so much," I say bringing my lips to his
He chuckles into the kiss before he begins kissing back. It was a feeling I had missed so much, the way his lips felt against mine communicated a thousand words he still was to afraid to say.
I could honestly stay here forever.
We finally pull away needing to catch our breaths. Our heads rest against each other as a grin appears on my face
"I love you too," He breaths out closing his eyes and gripping both of my hands
"Finally!" We hear a familiar voice say suddenly
The black haired boy from which the words came from crosses the two backyards and comes over to us Liam and Niall following in suit
We chuckle to happy to be bothered. I pull Louis closer and he rests his head on my chest
They invite us to go to the theater with them. I'm about to decline but Louis agrees.
"What? I haven't been in a while," he says after I give him a questioning look
"Well let's go then," I say pressing a kiss to his forehead
We both get up and Louis goes back inside his house to tell his dad he's going out.
As I wait for him to resurface I notice Niall looking a bit upset
"Hey, what's wrong?" I ask walking over to him
"June and I broke up," He says with a heartbroken look
"I'm so sorry Niall," I say pulling him into a hug
"I'll be fine," he says trying his best to smile but failing
I decide to leave him alone. I really thought they'd end up together.
Louis comes back out and we head towards Zayn's car. The boys begin to pile in and I'm about to follow but then I realize Louis is hanging back.
"Are you okay?" I ask slightly worriedly
"I'm fine," he tells me with a smile one his face.
And for once I actually believed and knew it was true.
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That's it! It's over, I've worked on this story for about 2 years now and I've finally finished. In my opinion you can see my writing getting better throughout the story but idk. I'm high key emotional I remember first coming up with the story and now it's over :( I may or may not write an epilogue (probably though) btw check out my other stories especially Wallflower k :))) Anyway for the last time in this story
-1dtillthedayidie 💕