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Bella's POV:
Today's the day where he fixed the 'date' and I can't stop checking out the time.
I'm kind of really nervous and a little panicky the whole day today.
Surely, it was just a way to make Cherry jealous because that's what he said to me at the wedding, remember.
And, Cherry's yesterday confession clearly provoked me with lots of 'Why me? ' and more of anxiety.
The woman told me to be careful as she herself knew that he is doing this to make her jealous. When, I asked her why and her answer scared me.
"He loved me so much, Bella. There's no way for him to move on simply like that...so just ignore him, okay. " this is what she said yesterday on our last work period before leaving the company with her husband.
She's right at the point. I, myself seen the devilish side on him at the wedding so why can't this be true?
He might be using me to get her and I would be his bait here. God, why don't anyone know about how it feels to get used to?
I have crossed that stage over so many years before and it's continuing back?
Some of my friends became friends with me, just because I could teach them History or Mathematics. Because they suck in it and I'm an ace in it. I knew that they were using me at first but then I get used too.
Pathetic? I know, I'm.
My fidgeting fingers on the arm rest of my couch ended and in a brief look, I caught the time to settle on 7.20. Of course, I'm not going to go but I'm not that bad like him.
I would just message him to let him know this. What if he showed up at the date and wait for me.
I reached for my handphone and found it dead with no life. I snorted and quickly went over to charge it. I shut my handphone on but it keep on popping the blank screen.
Oh my God, please. I know I have been using you for like so many years but don't die now. I mentally said as I tried to turn it on.
Tried. And, the handphone kept going blank.
I should had buy a handphone as my mother said sometimes and why don't I listen to her? Ya, I was too lazy and stubborn to get a new one because I was only using Whatsapp or email in it.
So, why the need for a new branded handphone right? That's what I would thought on the idea of getting a new handphone but now, serves me.
I gave up at last and went back to settle down on my couch, letting the gadjet to charge and see whether it would work right after being full charged.
For now, I just hope that whatever he said that day about the date is fully fake and he wasn't expecting me to show up there too. It's clearly an act to make Cherry jealous and why would he even show up?
I think if I ever messaged or called me at first about this date, he would have laughed at me while thinking that, why I'm so desperate over a fake confession.
But, he did sent me this details about some restaurant along with a reservation number. What if it's true?
But, what if it's a joke?
But, at least I should have to inform him that I'm not showing up right? I would feel very bad if he wait for me there.
But, I don't want to be a fool either.
Like, what if I said this things to him and he never really cared about it. Then at last, he would laugh at my face saying that it's a fake thing and everything is just to make Cherry jealous.
That's the true thing but what if...what if he also says that, how can a guy like him go on a date with me? I would be breaking and crying out right now.
Luckily, I never risk any of this to happen.
With this thoughts running inside my head, I decided to distract my mind and took out my laptop to finish up my work in it.
*****
Harsh multiple bangs on my door startled me and I quickly put away the laptop while wondering about who might that be on this late night.
The bangs began stronger and I did afraid that the door would break off if I kept it bang any longer. I don't even have a peephole to see the person and the sounds of bangs itself surely would disturb my neighbours.
I wasn't in a 1 acre gapped bungalow for not having neighbours closer by. I'm in an apartment where the neighbours could easily peak on any conversations or sounds which is loud and disturbing enough.
I don't want to bother them at this time and so, I decided to meet this person behind that door. The banging came aimlessly and I don't want to risk my door's life anymore.
So with a quick wandered, I stepped infront the door and when I was about to open it.
I had this thing in mind. What if it's a burglar or a kidnapper? My neighbours who's two doors away, just got burgled last month and what if the burglars are back at my door. After then, a security guard has been appointed at our apartment and the old guy is too generous to me.
The bangs are rough and hard so why can't it be the burglars, right? I don't know what happened to Mr Dollan, as if our security guard because he needed to be here in minutes by now.
And, I still have to open the door so I quickly fetch onto a knife yet with a final breath out, I opened the door.
My eyes widen and his eyes staring me coldly with so much anger in face.
How did he came here?
Right now.
Standing in front my house.
With so much anger.
I opened the door fully and quickly put away the knife on the side table beside the door.
His breaths was heavy and he was leaning into the door while still glaring at me.
God, don't tell me that he had waited for me at the restaurant.
"So, you bailed on me is it? Like, am I a toy for you guys? Don't you guys know that I have feelings to? I had rushed like a mad man for you but you never showed up. There's no reply for any of my calls and messages too. What do I ever did to you, woman?" he yelled and punched his fist on the wall, very hard. Blood already oozing out of his knuckles and tears already pooling my eyes.
I could also smell the hint of strong alcohol on his breath but I could careless about it.
I looked up at him and a with quackery voice due to the tears, I approached him.
"N-Noah...I didn't mea--" he cut me off shortly. I was about to tell him the reason why I couldn't reach him but he took me midway.
"No, don't come near me. Women are just the same. She left me while I'm away and you ignored me the whole time. I'm just the stupid fool here, right? At least, you could have called and tell me right away that your not coming but...you had make me drown in that sympathy looks of others. " he spatted so loudly as I could already hear sounds of door clicking open along the hallway.
"I'm such a fool to think that you did understand me but...you didn't, isn't it? " he add up with much anger in his voice.
I could feel eyes on us and humiliation started to hit me. The last thing I wanted was to get embarrassed by my own neighbours and I knew that all my good deeds for all this 4 years to win them over were crashed on this single night.
I hugged myself tightly and noticed all the looks around while embracing the tears that overcoming me. I felt really bad to make him wait for me there and I deserve this humiliation right now.
I sobbed harder and he stood there without adding up any words. I felt him breathing out sharply and the next, he stomped away.
I heard whispering and murmuring around yet I quickly get into my house while locking my door behind me. My back met the door and I sobbed out again.
Why do I became such a crybaby after he showed up in my life?
I have been good for the past 4 years and now, all my walls had crushed.
He made me felt really bad for making him wait by expecting my arrival and I couldn't even get angry at him for embarrassing me once more in public.
Of course, anyone will do feel that and I did know that he have anger issues yet that is why he hurt himself.
My poor weakling heart couldn't afford to put anyone in hurt and I hate my own self to put him through this.
I know for sure, his bloody knuckles and his anger look would be lingering in my mind as I'm the reason for it.
How painful could his knuckles would be. I cried even more at the thought while guilty charging in me.
I don't know how to make it up myself and I would just say that he is affecting me way more quickly than I expected.
And, that's clearly undeniable.