Sami ~
I startle awake, damn, it's hot in here, I think. Wait. There's an arm over me. It takes me a few minutes to realize where I'm at.
I try not to wake him. Sliding out of the bed slowly, I have got to piss. Going to the bathroom down the hall so I don't wake him.
Turning on the water washing my hands I glance up into the mirror. Damn I am a hot mess for sure.
Going to the kitchen for a bottle of water, I glance at the clock. 5 am. What the fuck.
To early for me. Looking out the kitchen window, it's still dark out, I can barely see my house from here. At least I left the porch light on.
Sitting at the table, in the dark, I'm thinking about the past few days. Alot has happened. I'm too old for this shit anymore. I have to make up my mind about many things. Me and Talon, the club, Padre and Tony.
I almost feel bad for Tony. Almost. He's being punished because of me, no, that's not right. He brought it on himself, right?.
I shake my head mentally. Yawning, it's too early to think about this all.I need coffee and a workout. Getting up, get clothes on, find my shoes and grab my stuff, I head down to my house.
Walking in my house, I start coffee, go change into workout clothes.
Grab a cup of coffee and head to the basement. 2 hours of pounding the bag, lifting, and treadmill. I need a damn shower now. Going back up, grabbing more coffee.
The hot water feels good on those muscles I haven't used in awhile. Letting the water hit my back, I'm in my head with thoughts.
I can let things go and try be happy. Today is the day I'm going to change it.
Dressing in jeans, a club tee and boots, I'm ready for this day. Grabbing my phone and jacket, I'm almost out the door when arms wrap around my waist. I don't have to turn around, I sense
him, his smell and touch.
"Darlin, I missed waking up to you" he says in my ear. His breath, waking up desire in me.
"Sorry, woke early, and came here to workout and shower" I say, turning to kiss him.
His eyes are the most sexiest I've seen. They crinkle a lil when he really smiles. "I have a room to workout in ya know. You could have used it".
Asking in between kisses, "what's the plan for today?" I ask.
Pulling me into his chest, which by the way, is solid fucking muscle. "Going to get our brands Queenie. That is if you will still have me" He looks at me with hope in his expression.
I act like I'm thinking on it, "hmmm" tapping my finger against my chin. With a smile.
He growls. I glance up to him, I can't tell him no. "Only if you'll still have me" I mumble.
His smile tells me all I need to know.
Who would have thought that my life would be like it is now?
Finally feeling as if I belong. Although there is still that nagging feeling, that I don't deserve happiness.
Getting on his bike, I'm a little anxious. Last time turned out bad.
As if he's reading my mind, he says "It's ok sweetheart. Nothing bad this time. We have a shadow. Prospect is in the truck".
Letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding. "I know. Let's go do this and if anything else happens, it means it's not meant to happen".
"Oh Queenie, this is meant to be. You and me, no one or thing can stop this between us". He smirks.
Laughing. We take off. It doesn't take long to get to Inkman. He's ready and waiting for us.
"Who's first?" he says looking at us.
Talon looks at me, "Queenie will be first".
" well then lets get this started. Where is this going?" Inkman pats the chair for me to sit down.
I sit down, getting nervous. Damn. Am I really doing this? Hell yes I am. It feels right. No regrets.
Looking at Talon, he nods reassuring me. "My chest. Right below my throat". I manage to get out.
I know it's the one place that can be seen, but if needed can be covered up with a shirt. I glance at him and he looks shocked. At a loss for words.
I'm now the one smirking. "Cat got your tongue Tal?"
The man seriously just growled at me. I can only giggle. Shaking his head, grinning. "I guess that's where mine goes also".
Hearing the machine, it soothes me. I've always loved getting inked. As soon as I feel the needles hit my skin, I almost relax. It's almost like a high. Sitting there, I get lost in my thoughts. My boys will be home soon. Damn. That stings, the needles hit bone. Oh this is gonna be a rough one. Talon grabs my hand, holding it in his. I squeeze when it gets unbearable.
I'm lost in the stinging and letting my mind wander and barely hear Talon talking.
"Queenie, Queenie! Hey you want a break?" he ask, looking concerned.
I shake my head no. I want this done and over.
A few minutes more the stinging stops. "All done. And I must say, I did awesome work", Inkman states.
I slide out of the chair, and look in the mirror. I gasp, "it's beautiful Inkman". I look at the scrolling letters, the script is perfect.
King Talon
And below it, in smaller script,
Devil's Sinners MC
It's the most beautiful tattoo I have ever seen. The scrolling, the font. It's perfect.
I turn to look at him, the man whom I just tattooed on my body.
His eyes look at it, taking it all in. "Perfection sweetheart".
He slides on the chair. Pulling his shirt off. I stare, this man's chest
is perfect.
Inkman gets ready again, and ask "where's this going Prez?.
Looking at me, smiling, "same place, Left this blank for a reason. And now I've found that reason".
Inkman looks at him, "I'll be damned. Never thought I'd live to see this day. But damn glad I have".
"Fuck you Inkman." Talon laughs.
Shaking my head at them, "gonna step out and check on my boys".
They nod as I hear that sound. I don't know what he's getting but it'll probably be similar to mine but not in the fancy scroll.
Stepping outside, it's a beautiful day. I call my boys, talk for about an hour as I listen to what they've been doing. "Thanks for the heads up that we had shadows momma." Bub says laughing. "The girls were concerned until I told them they were from you".
Laughing myself, "sorry bout that, but until I knew you boys were safe, it had to be done".
We talk more and hang up. They will be home soon.
I sit out here enjoying the sunshine for awhile before I hear familiar sounds of a group of motorcycles. I see a few brothers pull up, backing in.
Razor is the first to hug me. I gasp as he pulls me into the hug.
"fuck!" I grimace.
He pulls back "Sami, I'm sorry. Did I hurt you?" he looks down at
me, seeing the tattoo above my tank top Yelling at the others who are climbing off their bikes. "No no no. No fucking way. Why? Why would you do that Queenie?" he asks.
The others are walking up, concern and worry on their faces.
I only laugh at him, turning to look at the guys. "I got it because it feels right. Like I finally belong Razor. I finally admitted we belong together". Is the only thing I can say.
"About damn time Sami". Sarg says.
The others say the same thing. Razor though, he looks concerned.
"I'm sorry. Just caught me off guard. And here I thought I had a chance", He chuckles.
I know he's not serious. It's his way of dealing with change.
"What are you guys out doing? Causing trouble?" I ask.
"Hell no we ain't. But trouble finds us", Gunner says walking to hug me.
"Haha. You saying I'm trouble there Gunner?" I smile.
They all chuckle walking into the shop behind me. I don't hear the tattoo gun going but hear them talking.
"Think she'll like it Inkman?" Talon ask, sounding unsure.
"If she doesn't then she's crazy", Inkman replies
I'm walking into the room as he's turning around, my mouth falls open.
I can only stare, lost for words. His tattoo is beautiful. Same place but the scrolling is more manly. But beautiful just the same.
Queen Sami
Devil's Sinners MC is below like mine.
Whistles bring me out of my head. He looks at me, hopeful. "It's the same but different"," he says.
I look up to him, "I love it Tal".
The guys give him shit but all in good fun.
I look at them, they each nod to me. Knowing we did the right thing together.
"This is one of the reasons you are our Queenie", Razor says.
"There will be more done to it later Queenie", Talon states.
I look at him confused, "but it's perfect the way it is".
He nods but I know he has something in mind more.
Walking out to the bikes, no one was aware, but I had a bad feeling, fuck. Just one day without this fucking feeling.
It's as if since the club knows what I do, there's more than usual who need help.
I don't know why it was me that was chosen to do this work, maybe because of my past that I am so in tune with it.
I turn, seeing a young woman, with a child, maybe 5 years old. Her head is down, not looking where she was going.
She bumped into Gunner, looking up she mumbles "sorry" and stumbles.
I see her face is bruised.
The little girl smiles at me. I bend down to talk to the little girl, "aren't you a beautiful girl. I'm Sami, what's you name?"
She smiles, "Belle".
I look up to her mother, and see fear. Fuck. I didn't want to be back into this. But how can I not help.
Not looking away from her, "Gunner, call Padre. Need a car here".
He nods, knowing my tone and look says it all.
I stand up. "If you want help, I can do that. You don't have to stay with someone who hurts you".
She looks at me, mumbles, "no one cares to help, why would you. I'm nobody".
"That's where you're wrong. You are that little girls mommy. That says it all." Stating it so she knows the truth.
Gunner comes to me, "A cars on the way. Few minutes out."
"Thanks Gunner, My names Sami, and I have people can who help with your situation. But, you have to want it", I tell the woman.
She looks at me, thinking. "I do want out. I'm tired of the beatings. Please help us".
Pulling her into me, I hug her. "We can help. New name, new life. Or just relocated. Up to you on that. There will be a safe house you're taken too first. Anything you need will be provided. All I ask is that you do your best for that little girl of yours" I say.
She nods. Tears falling down her bruised face. "There are Angels among us, and you are proof".
I shake my head, "no darling. I'm no angel. But I will need a little info on the person who did this".
I can tell she's scared. "But he's mean. I don't want him to hurt you", She stammers out.
"No one can hurt her. She's saved many women like you and taken care of the trash" Padre says.
I didn't hear him walk up. He kisses my cheeks, "thought you needed a break",Laughing.
"Yeah, well it walked right into us. I couldn't walk away", I say.
I turn to the woman, "this is Padre, he will take you somewhere safe. I trust him with my life, you can too".
Looking at them, "when she's settled, I need his info".
Padre snapped his head at me, "no. This one is mine".
He's looking at the little girl, his face softens. Something in his face changed. I look at him, questions ready to ask.
He shakes his head, "she looks like Lita". ahh I understand now. The little girl has a hold already.
"Ok then. Take care of them", I say walking to Talons bike.
"You know I will. Be safe", He says ushering them into his car.
Talon looks at me, I just shrug. "Talk later" He nods and starts the bike.
Getting back to the clubhouse, feels good to walk in and see the guys drinking and my family is at ease.
Grabbing a water, I sit at my usual spot in the corner. My phone lights up, shit. I almost forgot about the run.
I answer the call. "Hey you. Long time. What's up.?" Turning on the speaker phone.
Len is babbling as usual, "wanted touch base about the run. Make sure it's all still settled".
I laugh, "it's all good. Everything is on".
Talon and Ice sit down, eyebrows raised.
Len stammers, "um well, may have a problem here. There was someone in here last night, I'm hoping it's just a coincidence".
"Who? Just spit it out Lenny boy", I smirk as I say his nickname
"Fuck you with that name" He laughs then goes on," don't think he knows you worked here. Looks like was just drinking".
"Spit it the fuck out then" I growl.
"Your husband" He whispers.
My mouth falls open. Fuck me. I look up to Talon, his eyes show turmoil.
"What the fuck Sami?" Ice says.
"Thanks for the heads up Len." I hang up.
Scared to look at the 2 men in my life that mean so much to me. "I can explain. Believe it or not, I actually forgot I was married." I stammer
Talon growls, "how the fuck is that.?"
I take a deep breath, and go into my past. Telling them all about it. How we got married after him being out of my youngest son's life for 21 years, was fine for a year then the drinking got worse, my oldest released from prison, and my youngest took off to a different city. Then came back, things were ok until I demanded he get a job. He left for an interview, never came back.
"And then what?" Ice ask.
"Right before bubba's accident, I filed for divorce and he missed the court date. Then the accident happened, well, that was the farthest from my mind. He came back into bubba's life 2 years after the accident. I gave him another chance but we didn't get along. His drinking was the problem. He was a dick. Then he stopped coming around, hell bubba hasn't heard from him awhile. I pushed him from my mind. I'm sorry I didn't tell you about him, I wasn't thinking." I breathlessly said.
Ice stood up, looked down at me. "Fix this Talon, she needs be free from him. I know there's more you're not telling us, but, you're ours now and no one is gonna try to claim you back." He turned and stomped off.
Looking anywhere but Talon, I stood and rushed off. I didn't want to see his eyes.
Gunner was walking in when I walked out, "what's wrong Sami.?" Grabbing my arm to stop me.
"My past coming back to haunt me. He'll probably be pissed when you go in. Fair warning." I said trying to jerk away from him.
The doors flew open, I froze, Gunners face fell. I turned, to look at the man I've fallen in love with, who made my life complete.
I shook my head. I knew better than to get attached to him. And now, I've fucked it all up.
"Gunner, inside. I need a moment." He said. Looking at me, " let's walk."
I stood there, my mind a mess. Shaking my head no.
"Woman!" He barked. Grabbing my hand and pulled me into him. "We need to talk and I'll be damned if I let you walk away from us. I've finally broken thru to you." He breathed into my hair.
I felt a tear escape my eye, I thought he'd be done with me. Looking up to him, I see not hate but understanding and love in his eyes.
"Sorry Tal. I told you I wasn't good at this shit." I say trying not to cry.
"When was the last time you were with him? " He asks guarded.
"4 years ago or more." I say not remembering exactly. "Long enough to forget about him".
He looks at me, "do you love him?"
"Hell no I don't." I say being confident on that.
"Well then, time to finish that divorce yeah?" He says, kissing my forehead.
"Yeah. It is time. Won't be hard to find to serve papers since know he's been to the bar" I say.
Nodding his head, he pulls his phone. Dials a number, "need divorce papers drawn up. Text you the info and want this done ASAP." Hanging up, he looks at me. "Fast enough?" Laughing at my look I guess.
Damn that easy huh? I shoot Len a text asking him to let me know if he shows up again.
"I'm gonna head home for awhile. Get a shower and take a nap." I tell him as I'm getting ready to leave.
He looks at me odd. "You sure you're ok? Don't like you being upset and alone."
"I'm fine. Just a little tired." Tiptoeing up to give him a kiss.
"Ok. But keep your phone close. I'll be there after getting some invoicing done." He says hugging me.
Walking in the house, I'm bone tired for some reason. Talon text telling me to text the info to our lawyer. I shoot the info to him.
I jump in the shower, trying not to get my tattoo wet. Damn. Still stings a bit. Rubbing ointment on it feels better, throw on one of his t-shirts and my boy shorts. Soon as my head hits the pillow, I'm out.