TW// mention of death
"I'm sorry Donghun, I can't do this." Jun says, while letting go of Donghuns hand. "Please, we can try it. I'm pretty sure we are able to do this." Donghun begs the black haired male. "No. I'm sorry, I can't and I won't." Jun turns around. "So you're just gonna walk away and leave me like this?" Donghun asks, a little sob is escaping his throat. Jun hesitates and turns around. "Please don't cry. I beg you, please don't start to cry Donghun." he says, laying a hand on the others shoulder. He searches for Donghuns gaze but the older escapes him. "Let me cry. This is hard Junhee! Have you any idea how I feel right now? You get to leave the country and start something completely new while I have to stay and just get over it!" Donghun spits out, a sudden anger in his voice. An old women who's walking past them is looking at them in confusion.
"Donghun..." "No! Don't try to get any excuse for this. I know you want this job and you know that all I want is to see you happy. We could have worked it out but you don't want it, then fine!" Donghuns voice looses strength with every word he says, a single tear is running down his face. "Leave." he whispers before he gets down on the park bench next to them. Jun stares at him with a shocked face for a second and walks away right after.
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Love of my life, you've hurt me
You've broken my heart and now you leave me
Love of my life, can't you see?
Bring it back, bring it back
Don't take it away from me, because you don't know
What it means to me
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"Are you alright?" Donghuns roommate Sehyoon asks, as the older locks the apartment door behind him. The brown haired stayed in the park for nearly 2 hours, only staring on the ground. "No. But I don't want to talk about it." he says quietly and goes to his room.
He closes the door straight away before laying down on his bed. As he buries his face into the pillow, Donghun picks up the familiar sent of Junhee and tears start to fall down his face.
He's fully sobbing when Sehyoon knocks on the door and comes in after a few second. The blond guy sits down on the bed and lays a hand on the back of his best friend. "Hey what happened?" he asks carefully, but Donghun doesn't answer him. So Sehyoon just stays next to him, to show him that he's there for him.
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Love of my life, don't leave me
You've stolen my love, you now desert me
Love of my life, can't you see?
Bring it back, bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know
What it means to me
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10 months later
"Sehyoon hurry up! We're gonna be late!" Byeonkwan shouts through the dorm. Donghun is sitting next to the younger boy on the couch, waiting for his friend to get ready. "Why does he always take that long?" the grey haired boy sighs. "You should know your boyfriend good enough, to realise that his style is a bit complicated and he needs time. Maybe you should have told him earlier." Donghun suggests, cheekily grinning at the younger. Byeonkwan rolls his eyes and get's up quickly to get Sehyoon who's finally coming out of the bathroom. "Let's go guys, we're going to be late!" he says and drags his boyfriend out of the door. "It's not like I'm driving or something... WAIT FOR ME!" Donghun shouts before he quickly puts on his shoes and locks the dorm.
When they arrive at the gay club, the party has already started. Donghun thankfully found a parking slot not far away and they walk to the entrance together. "Donghun, I'll bet today is gonna be special." Sehyoon smiles before they enter the building. His friend stops walking in confusion. "Stop telling me that." he frowns. "I can feel it. Like I have a really good feeling about that." Sehyoon smiles before taking Byeonkwans hand and entering the club. Donghun rolls his eyes and follows them. He just wants to get drunk... "And remember you're driving today!" Sehyoon shouts back at him to be heard through the loud music.
Right... it's his turn to drive today. Donghun sighs and sits straight down at the bar, ordering a coke. Sehyoon and Byeongkwan went to the dance floor and are enjoying the dancing.
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You will remember
When this is blown over
Everything's all by the way
When I grow older
I will be there at your side to remind you
How I still love you
I still love you
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Donghun sips on his coke and looks around the club. There isn't that much going on as normal, it's actually kinda empty around here. He watches some men dancing next to his friends but nobody is really catching his interest. He tried to find somebody for a little while (mostly because Sehyoon and Byeongkwan pushed him to) but he knew that this won't work. Not anymore.
You know when they say that you get that once in a lifetime chance? Donghun had his and he let him go. Just like this.
"Can I get a whiskey please?" a voice to Donghuns right catches his attention. He notices a black haired guy, sitting three seats on his right. He seems to be really tired and sad, Donghun takes a closer look. It seems as it started raining outside, the coat of the other guy is wet and his hair soaked. As the bartender places down the whiskey in front of him, he immediately pours it down and asks for another one. Something in Donghuns head is ringing as he hears the husky voice again. He is not able to see the black haired guys face, so he takes action and gets up, before sitting down right next to the stranger.
"Seems like you've had a rough day." he simply says, his finger playing with the nearly empty glass in his hand. The other one looks up in a surprise and as Donhun sees his face he immediately jumps up, his coke falling to the ground. Hundreds of glass pieces spread on the floor and Donghun stands in the middle of them. "Wait I'll get a broom." the bartender quickly says and disappears in the back. None of the two guys staring at each other is saying a word.
"What... are you doing here?" Donghun finds his words, after he helped the bartender clean up the mess he made. He can feel tears starting to rise in his eyes but he doesn't want to cry right now. "I'm... I'm back in the city." Junhee answers, now staring at his whiskey glass. Donghun notices how mat the others eyes are. He doesn't remember him like that, something must have happened and it makes him sad. Not only the fact to see Junhee right here, right now... see him like this really hurts him.
"What happened?" he simply ask, sitting back down on the chair right next to the black haired male. He notices the tiny tear, leaving Junhees eye. "What's wrong? Why did you come back?" Donghun asks carefully.
"My dad died." the younger says, his voice full of pain. "I came back because of my mum, she can't deal with this alone, I..." Junhee stops talking, a sob is escaping his throat. Donghun can feel his inside breaking. Not like it did when they broke up but it really hurts him seeing the other like this. "Want to get some fresh air?" Donghun asks, Junhee nods. The older grabs the others arm and drags him outside.
They sit down on a the staircase in front of the building but nobody says a word. Little sobs escape Junhees throat and together with the noises of the nightly city, it makes a weird soundscape.
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Oh, hurry back, hurry back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know what it means to me
Love of my life
Love of my life
-
"I missed you." Junhee sobs after a while, Donghun looks at him with a bit of surprise. "I am... I am sorry Donghun." he whispers, wiping away his tears with his wet jacket. Donghun notices that the floor doesn't look wet at all and the sky has no clouds. "Why are you this wet?" he asks, kinda ignoring the youngers words. "It rained this afternoon..." "And you didn't had the chance to get dry?! Park Junhee don't lie to me!" Donghun says, grabbing the other by his shoulders. "Stop Donghun... it's embarrassing." Junhee said, staring at the ground. "What? It's not like you fell into the river or something." Donghun says, Junhee shuts his eyes. "I fell into the big fountain on the way here... I wasn't paying attention and just walked into it..." he says, an red shimmer on his cheeks out of embarrassment. "Oh my god, Park Junhee..." Donghun mumbles' "You'll get a cold for sure. You need a shower and some fresh clothes. Wait for me here!" Donghun says before running back into the club.
"Sehyoon!" he shouts at his friend who's sitting in one of the chairs, his boyfriend on top of him. "What?! I have business here." Sehyoon growls giving Byeongkwan a little peck on the lips. "You guys get a taxi for home, I'll have to go." Donhun quickly says. His friends are too drunk and too busy to ask questions, so he walks away quickly.
"Come on Junhee!" he says, pulling the slightly tipsy guy on to his feet. "Where?" he asks, Donghun searches for his car keys. "Home. You need to get a shower." Donghun says and points to his car.
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An hour later the both of them are sitting on the couch in the dorm; Junhee had a shower and is wearing some warm clothes from Donghun.
"Donghun?" "Mhh?" "I really meant that." Junhee whispers. "What?" "The thing I said before. That I'm sorry. And that I missed you..." Junhee says, Donghun looks at him. "I missed you too." he whispers. "Do you think... we could try it again?" Junhee asks carefully, Donghun can feel a weird feeling in his chest. "I don't know." he mumbles, Junhee's shoulders fall down.
"But you know what I truly know?" Donghun asks and closes the gap between their faces, kissing the younger softly. "I love you, I still do." he says, as breaks the kiss.
Junhee lays his hand around Donhuns neck and pulls him closer again. "I love you too, I never stopped. I was just being an idiot." Junhee says and kisses the older again, this time with a lot more effort.