I'm drying my hair while watching videos on youtube. This is actually what I do on my free time. Well, actually isa nato sa mga daily routines ko. I'm a big youtube fan.
Di na ako lumabas ng kwarto after I took a shower. I just don't feel like it. Meron akong own mini ref inside my room. Since, I get groceries for myself. pero, it's not like I make my own dinner and stuff. Para parin kaming isang family dito, pero I have my own snacks inside my room in case tinatamad akong lumabas ng kwarto ko. I decided to just eat some yogurt and Orange juice for lunch...
Basically, I spent my whole afternoon in my room. Watching Youtube videos and movies. umalis ata si Hannah kase pag di yun umalis normally she will spend her time with me in my room...
I checked the time and it's almost 7pm and realized I had to get something to eat for dinner. Kaya ayun. lumabas ako ng kwarto, While I was walking my way downstairs. I heard the tv is on sa may sala. maybe it's Hannah or si Tita...
dumiretso na ako sa kusina and looked for something to eat. Pero walang food. And Parang I wanted to eat something filipino so I decided to make Adobo. Yes, I know how to cook. Tinuruan ako ni Lola.
I prepared everything that I needed to cook adobo.
Hiniwa ko lahat ng dapat hiwain ng mardaman kong parang may naka tayo sa likod ko.
"Hannah?" I said without looking at my back. Pero hindi ito sumagot.
Hinaya-an ko nalang. I started cooking..
"Wow!" Napa lingon ako sa narinig ko.
"J-Jer" I was in shock. Bakit sya nandito? I saw him smile at me.
"I didn't know that you cook"
I glared at him. "What are you doing here?"
"Uhhh." he said while scratching the back of his hair.
"Uhhh what!?"
"Chill okay? hannah and yael went for a vacation just for two days."
he said.
"So? Why are you here then?"
"Hannah's mom is also out of town for a medical mission. And Hannah asked me If I can stay at your house while they are away so you have someone with you"
Tinaas ko ang kilay ko. Hannah talaga. i'm 18 and I can already manage myself. I can be on my own.
I crossed my arms "Well, Thank you. But I'm okay. You can go home now"
I turned my back and started cooking again.
"Why are you so grumpy?" I heard him talk. Di ko nalang pinansin. di ko din alam kung bakit. Maybe, because I'm in shock. And dissapointed kase di ako sinabihan ni Hannah about her plans.
"What are you cooking?" He asked.
I felt him doing something in the kitchen. Sinilip ko kung ano ginagawa nya, and saw him preparing the dining table. Napangiti nalang ako.
When I finished cooking. Dinala ko na ito sa Dining table. Si Jerome, naka upo na. I saw him got confused kung anong pagkain ang nilatag ko sa table. I giggled because of his reaction. "That's a filipino food jerome. It's called adobo" He looked at me. Still confused
"Ado-what?" he asked.
"Adobo. have a taste. If you don't like it. We can order pizza" Nilagyan ko ng adobo ang plate nya. He was still in doubt if he's going to taste it or what.
But, Tinaas ko ang kilay ko. And he started to eat it. I saw his face lighten up. And started digging for more "this is so good!"
I smiled a little. Pero inside me, I was jumping and my heart is pumping fast because he liked the food i made.
"It's delecious when you eat it with rice"
He looked at me and said "Gimme some rice then!" so I did. He started eating again and He really liked it.
"This made me fall in love with you harder, Tarin" He said while staring at me.
Namumula na ako. Para na akong kamatis sa sinabi nya. I didn't know what to say. But I knew na kailangan ko itong barahin.
"Stop it, jerome."
"Why?" he asked me and I can hear the sadness in his voice "Tarin, You know I'm inlove with you! why can't you give me a chance?"
He was staring at me deeply. But I just can't look at him. I looked away.
Hinawakan nya ang kamay ko na naka patong sa table. It made my heart beat fast. "Just take a chance on me, Tarin!"
napayuko ako. Oh! I hope he knows how much I wanted to take a chance on him. I want to love him. But, I'm not ready yet. "But we barely know each other Jerome"
Di parin ako tumitingin sa kanya. But I felt his body stiffen. "We know each other for just 5 months. I... I don't think that you really love me"
This time, I looked at him. I tried to looked at his eyes. His hazel eyes was watering. It's like he's about to cry. He stood up, sumunod din naman ako. This time lumayo sya saken.
"So what?! There are people who knew each other for years but they never fell inlove with each other! It's not about how long you know someone Tarin..." What he said, sounded so familiar.
Yan yung sinabi ni Cloud saken when he asked me to stay away from him and April. Napuno na naman ng galit ang nararamdaman ko. It disgust me thinking that I HAD a bestfriend like him. Who didn't deserve to be called a Bestfriend. I hate him. Maybe, Just maybe. Being with Jerome won't hurt me at all. tama sya. Hindi naman mahalaga kung ga ano nyo katagal na kilala ang isa't-isa eh. It's about how you feel for that person. Alam ko deep inside me that I have feelings for this Beautiful human being.
Lumapit sya saken. And He held my cheeks. "Mahal kita"
My eyes widened from what I heard. Medyo pa bulol-bulol pa sya nung sinabi nyang mahal nya ako. It struck my heart. Tinuruan namin sila magkakaibigan ng basic tagalog before. But that was months ago, And I was in shock na alam pa nya.
"Gustong-gusto kitang mahalin Jerome" I said. alam ko na di nya maiintindihan, Sinadya ko naman din. I just needed to get it out from my system.
"What?" he asked but I just smiled at him.
"Stop. Your smile makes me fall harder and harder. Please" He sounded sad. Napayuko sya. So Tinaas ko ang ulo nya and looked at his eyes "Jerome, I like you."
For a good few seconds hindi sya nagsalita or gumalaw. Naka titig lang sya saken... I didn't know what to do. I was about to say something but he hugged me. So tight. That I can feel his heartbeat. I can feel his breath in my ears. "I love you" he whispered. "As long as you like me. Thats enough for me. I will do my best to turn that into love. And I promise you, I will never hurt you" tumango ako and hugged him back.
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"Good morning pretty." Bati ni Jerome as I walk to the kitchen. walang ligo, magulo ang buhok, naka pajama. I didn't do anything from my morning rituals. I rubbed my eyes as I sit down to our elevated chair. "Good morning"
"I can't believe it" I heard him murmured it.
I yawned and rubbed my eyes some more "Believe what?" I asked.
"You are letting me see you like that"
Tiningnan ko ang sarili ko tapos binalik ko ang tingin ko sa kanya. I raised my right eyebrows "Like what?" I said with a bitchy tone.
"Like, On your PJs. You didn't even wash your face" He laughed.
Medyo matagal bago nag sink in saken. nung nag sink in na talaga saken yung situation. Agad akong tumayo at nilagay ang dalawa kong kamay sa bewang ko. "Pake mo? Kung mahal mo talaga ako, kahit pa mabaho pa ang bibig ko. You won't care" I covered my mouth.
"Uhm, The only thing I understood is You won't care." He said and still laughing. Ughhhh. He's so annoying.
"But it's okay. i still love you" He said it then bumalik sa pagluluto. Naiwan akong naka tayo at pulang pula ang pisngi. Nakuuuuu!
Matapos kong kumain, nagpa-alam ako na maliligo lang ako at magbibihis. Dumaan ako sa Sala and saw his things sa couch and gamit na kumot. Dun ba sya natutulog? Di ko naman din alam kase kagabi after nung napag usapan namin umalis sya kase kukuha lang daw sya ng damit sa bahay nila. Kaya di ko na hinintay at natulog na. Tatanongin ko nalang sya mamaya, Sabi ko sa sarili ko.
I took a shower. Nagbihis ng normal shorts and shirt ko. After I did my morning rituals. I spent my time watching videos again. Got some snacks while watching a movie. Di ko namalayan ang mga oras na lumipas ng may kumatok sa kwarto ko.
"Yes?" i shouted.
"It's Jerome. Can I come in?" My eyes widened. I forgot. I forgot na nandito pala sya sa bahay ko. Nawala sa isip ko . My bad.
Tumayo ako and started walking to my door. I opened it, And nakita ko si Jerome naka tayo. Ang Bango. Naka suot sya ng Sando tsaka yung shorts na ganggang tuhod. parang pupunta ng beach ang attire nya. I saw him smiled and his dimples showed up. "Come in" Pag i-imbita ko.
Pumasok sya sa kwarto ko and he started to look around. "Wow. You got a nice room. It's not too girly" He said.
I went back to my Table where I watch videos and do stuffs. I felt him sat in my bed. "And your bed is so soft!" He said excitingly. Humiga sya dito. Aba aba. Kapal din. Di nagpa-alam na makikihiga sya. Tsk na-alala ko that I had to ask him kung saan sya natulog kagabi.
Tumayo ako to talk to him. Pero I saw his eyes close. Natutulog na ata. kahit naka pikit ang gwapo parin. Haaaay.
"Tarin, I can feel you staring at me" He murmured. "What do you want? We can't okay? I respect you!"
Namula ako sa sinabi nya. Kaya tinaponan ko sya ng throw pillow ko. Napa ilag sya. He started laughing.
"I'm just kidding." he said while laughing his life out. Seriously, whats funny?
"Where did you sleep last night Jer?"
I asked him.
"Ooooh. You being a girlfriend now. Thinking I'm cheating. That's sweet"
wow Haha napaka assuming naman neto. "No I was just wondering"
"your couch" Kawawa naman.
"Why? we have a guest room? why didn't you sleep there?"
"Because, you didn't invite me to sleep there. And I didnt want to be disrespectful"
Hahahaha naku. Pumasok ka nga ng bahay namin na di ko alam eh. Ngayon mo pa naisip yan.
I looked at him,Nakahiga na ulet sya sa kama ko. "Well, You can sleep in our guest room. Okay?"
"Ashsbahtabjysyou" Ano daw?
"Uhm, what?"
I heard him snoring. He fell asleep. Di siguro naka tulog dahil sa couch lang. I said to myself. I went back to watching videos. I got bored. So, I decided to do some scary make up. I was planning to scare Jerome.
Nag make up ako. With the bloody things. when I finished. Pumunta ako sa Cr. Pumwesto ako sa may bath thub. Naka tago sa curtains. Nang naka pwesto na ako, Tinawag ko si Jerome. "JEROOOOOMEEEEEEE!!!!" I shouted with the tip of my lungs. i waited. Pero wala parin. I called him again and again. Hanggang sa nagising sya "Yes!? What!!" He shouted back.
"HELP MEEEEE!! i cant breath" i said. I heard him parang nag alala. Narinig ko syang pumasok sa cr. And I can hear his breathing heavily.
"Tarin? where are you?"
tinakpan ko ang bibig ko kase just thinking about his reaction natatawa na ako.
"Sht. Where's the switch. Where the fuck are you Tarin!?"
Naramdamn kong malapit na sya. So I jumped out and scared the shit out of him. "BOO!"
"Fuck!" he shouted. I couldn't stop myself from laughing. He glared at me and walked out without saying anything.
Sumunod ako and saw him naka upo sa gilid ng kama ko. "jerome? are you mad?"
Hindi sya sumagot or lumingon. "Jerome? Sorry. I didn't mean to-"
"That wasn't fun Tarin!" He shouted. Di ba talaga yun nakakatuwa? Kase tawang-tawa ako eh. I mean, Di ko naman alam na ganito ang magiging reaction nya. Medyo oa din.
Naka tayo lang ako doon habang naghihintay sa susunod nyang sasabihin. Tawang tawa parin ako sa kaloob-looban ko pero I had to make a straight face kase mukhang galit si Jerome. He turned his face to me. I tried my best to look serious pero nag fa-flashback saken yung reaction nya kanina. Which is funny for me. Pinipilit ko ang sarili ko ma hindi tumawa. I looked at him and his face was so serious and it looked like he's really upset.
I walked slowly towards him. "Jerome" I said.
He looked away from me. Yumuko sya and his covering his face with his two hands. What's with this guy. Grabe! Ang oa ng reaction, parang batang babae. Zzzz
"you almost kissed me" He said habang naka yuko parin and his hands is still on his face. "You almost kissed me!!" Humagulhol bigla si Jerome. Ano ba to? Baliw ba to? Anong kiss? Nanaginip paba to? Haha di ko maintundihan.
Umupo ako sa tabi nya and rubbed his back with my hands. I felt his body stiffen the moment I laid my hands on him. "Look, I'm sorry" sabi ko.
"You almost kissed me!" He raised his head. "Tarin, you were going to kiss me in my dreams! But you woke me up" Di ko alam kung seryoso sya sa pinag sasabi nya because if you ask me he sound so stupid right now.
I laughed pero hindi yung malakas na tawa. "You think its funny huh" He looked at me.. i'm confused.
"Ugh! Jerome, You're over reacting"
"I AM NOT OVER REACTING" He was emphasazing every word he said. "you don't know how badly, I wanna kiss you right now tarin!"
Napa tayo ako sa sinabi nya. I am not ready for that. I mean, yeah its just a kiss.. It's not like I never kissed some guy before.. This is different...
"I'm sorry." He said.
I gazed at him. "Don't be." Sabi ko sa kanya. "I like you Jerome. But, I want us to take this slow."
Sa totoo lang, I still have my doubts. Natatakot parin ako na masaktan ulit. Natatakot ako na dumating ang araw na bigla nya rin ako iiwan... I sighed heavily.
"Please, Give me a chance Tarin"
"I am giving you a chance"