Jai's POV
It's only a day till I go to New York to be with Ariana. I was all excited about finally meeting her but there's something in my head that's stressing. Since that day, when I kissed Nat I couldn't stop thinking about her. I thought It would be normal to just kiss on the lips because it's tradition infact I completely forgot about Ariana at that moment. I wanted to kiss her for longer and more but that's when I remember that I'm technically cheating. I would've never done that I don't know what drove me to kiss her but it was amazing. I cannot get her out my head and I really miss her. It's been over 2 weeks since I saw her and that was the time of the kiss. And we haven't spoke at all or texted after that.
At first I thought the reason I think about her a lot is because I always used to spend time with her a lot but it's more than that. Now I don't see her at all I miss her even more and still can't get her out of my head. I think I've fallen for her but I'm realising it now after she's gone. Natasha completes me. I always felt like I was missing something which was not completed even when Ariana came into my life but when Natasha came into my life everything was completed she was puzzle to complete me and I need her. I shared the most beautiful moments with her.
Maybe, I wasn't really in love with Ariana, maybe I just felt that way because she returned the attention and as our relationship is publicised people think we're a Fairytale couple but I don't feel that way. yeah I've liked her and she's a great girl but It's not love we have it's more about the sexual attention but with Nat it's everything. She makes me happy and I've fallen for her and I can't help it. I feel like a bad person for liking another girl while having a girlfriend but Nat is a special girl there's something about her. she's my angel sent from heaven. I don't think I'll ever see her again I isn't even text her so I can stop thinking about her and Recently I found out that she moved to Uk the following day after that kiss.
"Why are you always asking about her seriously jai that girl is gone it's not like she's your girlfriend. We all miss her but we don't TAlk about her 25/8 , be excited for tomorrow " Luke says whilst drinking his red bull. We're all chilling and Nicole is here too. I feel like she knows that I like Natasha because I wouldn't stop asking or talking about her to her.
"stop being butthurt because she didn't Tell you she's moving to UK stop crying over her jai are you in love or something " James adds.
"Guys Natasha is a special girl and she means a lot to jai so he can't just forget about her. Follow your heart bro " I love my big brother. Beau understands me, he knows what I'm going through.
After observing our conversation Nicole finally says "You said you have a stopover in London...But that's none of my business.." She says sarcastically and drinks her coffee. After a while she tells me privately that that I should go after the one who my heart belongs to not what everyone thinks or what my mind says and gives me Natasha's London address just incase I change my mind but I doubt I will because she probably doesn't feel the same way about me, Nat hated me since we first met so there's a high chance she'll reject me besides she probably already found a boyfriend.
"I know the way you feel about her trust me she feels the same way..she only left without telling you because he wanted to distant herself away from you..so you can be happy with Ariana little does she know you love her back ...don't hesitate if you love her go after her and you both can be happy. That's all I have to say but the decision is yours" Nicole advices me.
I'm not sure I can't break Ariana's heart like that and be selfish. she's gorgeous and it's the best if I forget about Nat and let her be happy and just be happy with who I am and stop asking for more.