Continued
"Where is he"
he asked making me think about sanjai,which was our baby boy.
"Please don't start ka'jai"I cried.
"SANIYAH YO WHERE IS HE AT"
he slightly raised his voice at me.
"Take me home ka'jai"i told him not wanting to talk about this anymore I didn't even wanna be in his presence.
"Please just tell me moe"he shook his head.
"I don't know"I mumbled looking out the window.
"Whatchuu Don't know"
Dumb ass.
I looked at the lock on the door it was down smfh
"I don't know wanna talk about it"
"Take me home"
He started up the car and took off driving.
Looking out the window i thought about what happened that terrible day.
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Flashback
•march 19 2017•
"Mommy we park"
A 3 year old sanjai yelled running although the house.
"Slow down"I laughed.
"We gotta wait until grandma gets home Bubba"
"B-buh mommy plwese"he pouted.
"Go get your shoes"
I smiled watching him run away.
He reminded me of ka'jai.
Sanjai ran back in the room with his shoes
"mommy i got it"
he laughed sitting down
"okay pa"i said watching him as he tried to put the wrong shoe on his foot.
"Look baby,that one goes on that foot"
i told him,showing him which foot his shoes went on.
Letting him do the rest i put my shoes on texting my muvah to tell her.
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Mommy were going to the park
Muvah💙!
Okay i love y'all, be safe
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we love you too
Pulling up to the park i looked back at sanjai "you ready bubba"i asked looking at him
"YESSS!"he yelled excited.
Getting out the car we went to the park and played.
"Mommy can i pway wit the othwr kids"he asked me making me frown.
"Whatchuu don't like playin with me"i faked cried.
"Noo me sorry mommy"he hugged me.
"Thanks bubba,yes you can go play with the other kids"
I laughed hugging him back,he brought me soo much joy.
"Otayy"he said tryna take off making me grab his ass up.
"First of all don't run away from me and stay where i can see you"i told him sternly.
"K"he nodded running up to the other kids.
Walking over to the picnic table i sat down keeping a close eye on sanjai until my phone went off distracting me.
My alarm came on it was 6:20 pm meaning we had to go.
"SANAJAI" i yelled calling for him to come on.
Until he didn't come "SANJAI"I yelled louder walking up to the group of kids.I saw there was no sanjai causing me to panic.
"SANJAI" i yelled walking around the park looking for sanjai.
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7 hours later
"SANJAI"I yelled as I cried because I couldn't find him.
Right now me and my mom and the cops we're out looking for him.
"Officer" Another officer yelled making us all run over to him.
looking at what he pointed to which was a little boys body without a head,but with sanjai's jacket on.
"OMGSHH"I screamed as i broke down.
"Who would do this"my mom yelled as she cried
"My baby"
"My baby"
My baby" I repeated blacking out.
10 days after that
"Saniyah no"my mom said from behind me as my legs dangled from upstairs window.
Nobody could see me from outside it was dark but they could hear my mom keep telling me know.
"Ma I can't do this no more"I cried I missed him so much.
"Saniyah please"she kept begging as I heard Kayla and kye come up to the room.
"No no no"without me looking I guess they both grabbed me and pushed me in the house making me hit my head.
"It's okay"kye patted my head and rubbed my back as I cried on her shoulder.
Later 3 paramedics came in my room and grabbed me softly but still.
Why is they grabbing me?
"Who are y'all"kye and Kayla tired to get them off me.
"I'm sorry baby,you needa go with them okay"my mom sighed walking past the room.
"So you just gon send me with them"I laughed tryna stop myself from crying.
"It's Okay,we gon come see you"
"Love you"
X
I was in the hospital for all that year
Between suicide watch and for care.
That year i was diagnosed with depression,anxiety and even more.
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