When the moon is gone
And the sun rises
The one who has been with me
Will you be gone?
Park Chaeyoung's POV
I should have gone home at 7 as I usually do but I ended up staying a little longer tonight. There are not many customers at night and usually they can take care of the shop without me. But today, I stayed with them for a little longer as I was waiting for Jungkook to come back.
He said that he will be back but it is already night time and he has not yet come back. It is not that I am worried about him but I thought about the food he bought actually. I wondered if he still wants to eat it because I have put it into the fridge after he left.
But, I cannot let it be stored in there for a long time. The fridge in the kitchen is used only for the bakery's goods and not for other kind of foods. So, I am having a deep thought whether I should just throw away the kimchi stew or let it be until tomorrow morning in the fridge.
"Chaeyoung, are you going to wait for Jungkook to come? I told you it's fine. I'll tell him about his kimchi stew later.", Lisa said to me as she brought a tray full of dirty dishes to the sink.
"I will be here till 9. If he doesn't come, then I'll throw out that kimchi stew.", I answered as I briefly peeked on my watch that showed the time is 8.45 pm at the moment. "Okay, whatever you say. I'll be in front if you need me.", Lisa said before she vanished from the kitchen leaving me alone.
I briefly looked at my watch and nodded. "Within this 15 minutes, I'll leave.", I said to myself.
Then, I heard the sound of the door being opened making me to look at who is entering the kitchen now. "Hi, Chaeyoung.", Jungkook smiled briefly before taking a seat next to me. I glared at him without replying anything as I watched him doing something with his phone.
It seemed like he was turning off the phone as he put it on the table and sighed. "Your kimchi stew is in the fridge.", I told him before I went to the sink to wash the dishes in there.
After I am done washing everything, I saw Jungkook still on the chair with his face facing down to the plain white table. He made me curious of him so I slowly walked towards him to see what he was actually doing. Did he fell asleep? If yes, that is the weirdest sleeping posture ever.
"Jungkook?", I called him as I stood next to him. He hummed in response but he kept his face down. "You...your food is still here. I didn't throw it out yet.", I said as I thought he might be sad that I throw the food he bought into the dustbin. Again, he hummed only before I heard his stomach growling.
"You hungry? I...I'll heat up the stew.", I said as I headed to the fridge and took out the kimchi stew he left this late afternoon. Then, I went to the stove and started to heat it up there. Once a while, I checked on Jungkook and he stayed in the same position. What is in his mind though? He looked stressed out.
Jeon Jungkook's POV
The smell of the heated up kimchi stew really got me attracted to it. However, the thing that messed up in my head still bothering me. I wonder if my eyes can hold on longer to keep all my tears to myself.
I should not have come back to the bakery but here I am. Back to the bakery with my messed up head.
"Jungkook. Hey...your stomach is making a lot of sounds. Eat up, fill it.", Chaeyoung said to me. "Whatever your problem is, you can't hurt yourself like this. Eat this, Jungkook.", she continued as I felt her hand patting my shoulder. I smiled before I slowly looked up to her.
"You care about me, do you?", I asked as I took the chopsticks beside the bowl of kimchi stew.
"I care about the staff here. You're one of them so...", she said as she sat next to me.
I sniffed the food in front of me and smiled. "Keep me company, can you?", I asked. "No, I'm leaving.", she said as she checked the time on her watch. "I'll send you home later. I really...need someone to accompany me now.", I said without hiding anything.
"Please...just watch me eat is even enough. I can't be alone for now.", I told her the truth. There is no way I want to be alone now. If I am alone, I might do something stupid like how I did before in school days. I do not like it and I do not want to repeat it again.
"Are you okay? You never be like this. You looked stressed out, Jungkook.", she said as she stayed seated next to me.
I nodded as I started eating. She watched me eat just like how I asked to. We did not talk at all as I kept myself busy eating and she stayed watching beside me.
After I was done eating and washed the bowl and chopsticks, I washed my face trying to freshen up myself. "What's wrong with you?", I heard her voice asking me. I turned around and looked at her. "No need to know. Let's go. I send you home now.", I said as I pointed to the door.
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A few minutes later...
Park Chaeyoung's POV
I hate this. I hate that I feel curious of something but I did not know what it is about. And right now, I hate that I feel curious of what is bothering Jungkook's mind. Plus, the ride home with him is so lonely. He did not even turn on the radio in his car.
"Okay, this is enough. Jungkook, what is it actually in your mind?", I uttered the question after the traffic light turns green. I felt like the time passed by so slow that I cannot hold it in anymore. I want to know what it is that he had in his mind until his face looked gloomy tonight.
"You really want to know?", he asked back at me. "Yes, I do. I don't like seeing your face looking this gloomy. It's weird, it's like...it's not you.", I said as I reminded him of how he always had his face bright that it sometimes annoyed me.
He suddenly took a left and stopped at the roadside. I was shocked by his actions but I tried to stay calm. Maybe he did that so that he can tell whatever in his mind without getting bothered with driving.
"Do you believe me if I say I tried to hurt myself in the past?", he asked in a sudden.
I looked at him and saw the dark look in his face. Then, I shook my head at him. I never know this part of story about him. Why?
"My parents argued a lot when I was little. But, I can bear with that until...they decided to get a divorce. I hate it so much and I hurt myself. I cut my hand and fainted. Luckily, someone found me and saved me. But now, I feel like hurting myself again.", he told me.
"Why...do you want to hurt yourself?", I asked as I do not know what the reason is this time.
"Because I feel used. I lived with my mom and didn't want to have anything anymore to do with my dad. But, he asked me to work with him and I did as he said I am still the heir to the wealth he has. I did my best, I tried...but today I heard from him that he will marry his girlfriend, a widow with two sons. He told me that he will give some of his inheritance to them too and they will work at the company with me when they are older. He made me so angry knowing all that in a day, you know.", he explained with his voice started to tremble.
I felt sorry for him so I apologised for making him telling me those things, "I'm sorry, Jungkook. I didn't know..."
"If you want to know, I don't want my dad's wealth. I just want to see my family back together. I agreed to work in the company because I thought maybe that will help me to make my parents be together again. But, I'm wrong.", he said as I saw a tear escaped his eye.
"If you want to know, I thought of hurting myself again today but I remembered I told you I'll come back to the bakery...", he added as I saw more tears on his cheek.
He showed me the scar on his left wrist before he put his head on the wheel. The devastated and fragile look of him made me sympathize him. No wonder he became this heartless of a guy in the eyes of the girls who are head over heels for him. Maybe that is his escape from this family issue he has. Or maybe this family issue is just one of the reason he became the way he is.
"I might have been gone if I didn't go to the bakery. I feel so stupid...", he said before I cut him off.
"No, Jungkook. Don't say that.", I hold his hand and tried to comfort him. "You're a strong man. You have a strong heart. That's why you are still here and you will for tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and so on. If not, how did you make it in the past? You have a strong will to live, you know that?", I said to him as I rubbed his back softly in hope that it will make him feel better.
After that, Jungkook pushed himself back a little and I moved my hand away from his back. "I wanted to fix my family, Chaeyoung. And that will fail.", he said as he leaned back to the seat.
"Have you ever asked your mom if she's happy with her life now?", I asked him. I know it sounded so sudden but I just had to do it because I know how Mrs Lee is happy with her life now. "She had an interview with a magazine last year. One of the questions were about whether she's happy with how Euphoria Bakery is doing. You know what she answered?", I asked him and he stayed quiet.
"Euphoria Bakery has given me an enormous amount of happiness and it's doing good each day. My life has been at its best days now. I have Euphoria, I have my son and I have the best staff at the bakery. So, I can say that I'm absolutely happy with how the bakery is doing.", I told him just like how it was written in the magazine.
He chuckled a bit after I am done. "You memorized it, did you?", he asked. I smiled seeing him starting to feel better.
"I just want to say that Mrs Lee is happy now...with the business she has and the son who loves her so much. You don't need to fix a thing, Jungkook.", I told him as I let go of his hand that I held earlier.
I saw he slowly formed a smile and wiped his tears with his shirt. "I never thought I'd tell anyone about this and even cried. How stupid am I.", he said as he checked his face in the mirror. I chuckled at his own words of cursing himself. I realized that I just saw his different side tonight. A fragile, sad, devastated soul of a heartless guy. Maybe he is not that heartless though.
"You can always cry in front of me from now on.", I said to him. "I'm serious. You need a friend to talk about things like this, I can be that friend for you.", I added.
"I'm your staff, Chaeyoung.", he reminded me and it totally had me speechless. He was right. I cannot be a friend to him like how I be a friend to the others at the bakery. We are not like that, we are not at the level where we can be friends. Never.
While I was in my own thought, I heard a loud laugh from him. "You look so done with me. It's okay, Chaeyoung. I will never be like this again. I promise you.", he said as he started to drive again.
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Is this the start of Chaeyoung treating Jungkook kindly? Let's hope that it is.
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