HEY GUYS!!!!!
Okay, guys, so I'm like 13, ya know, I know that I have ABSOULTLY NO CHANCES WITH Niall Horan, soooooo, I just fantazie about it on here. Man, I wish that I was older for once.
But yeah, I do swear, so yes, there will be swearing in here. I guess I got pressured into swearing in 5th grade, did it for a week, quit, then started back up in 6th grade and been doing it ever since. I kinda wish I didn't get pressured though because I have a big dirty secret to hide from my parents now, and I'm always scared that I'm gonna slip up, like for example:
Today, I was in Wal-mart, and my brother said something stupid, so here is what I said: "No ssssssshooot." I ALMOST said shit. Do you know how much of trouble I would've gotten in?! Okay guys, so sorry, I just like expressed how I feel, but I think that's how a lot of us feel. Like, we are influenced by it almost everyday in our lives. But it does feel good to swear, it's like a stress reliver for me, ya know?
Okay guys, I HAVE NEVER KISSED ANYBODY. So, I'm sorry that the 'kiss scences' in here won't be descriptive. Like, I kinda have a feel on what it would be like from reading other stories, but I've never personally kissed anyone. I'm just waiting for a special person to come around. (HINT, HINT, YEAH, I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU NIALL JAMES HORAN, YOU COULD BE MY LAST FIRST KISS.)
So yeah. I know, I'm a miss goodie two shoes. Not really. Well kinda. Idk. I don't think I am, but my friends do. It's complicated guys, it's complicated.
I think that all authors like to put themselves as the main character in their books, so I will too. It's just I'll have my name as Justice, because well, let's be honest here, who likes the name Kyra? (It's not Kira, it's Kyra, it's complicated like my life.) I think my name is too childish. It sounds like a 4 year old name to me. (Sorry to all of you Kyra's out there, it's just my oppinion.)
So I'm like going to describe myself, so you all can get a feel of Justice.
So about my BORING COMPLICATED LIFE.
I have brown hair, with blonde in it at the moment. It was natural blonde, then it changed to a dark brown. I didn't like it, so I changed it back to blonde. My roots started showing and I tried taking the hair dye out, but it didn't work, so I just ended up dying it my natural hair color. (Complication!) I have green eyes, that sometimes change to blue when I'm really happy, it also depends on the weather, but they are mostly green. I have an outgoing personality only when I'm comfortable with someone, otherwise I'm very shy. I'm funny, I'm super sensitive. So please no hate guys. I can take "banter" though. I don't know why, I guess that I've grown up with it. My dad and I have a relationship where we do that. So I've been around it my whole life.(: Haha!! I'm smart I guess? I don't know, I don't think I am, but my mom is always like "Oh wow, your so smart!" But then again she's proably just saying that because she's my mom. I've only had one boyfriend in my thirteen years of life. The most we did was hold hands on our bus, and we got dared to hug eachother once. That's it. Nothing else. We lasted a little over two months or something. I am chubby, yeah, I'm not afraid to admit it, at all. I have accepted myself for being chubby and I have cut down my food intake, because I'd have like 3 big meals each day, and have 2 big snacks. Now I eat 3 small meals, and no snacks, because I'm trying to get myself skinny. I have been exersicing lately, and it sucks. A lot. I have three true best friends. I switched over to being homeschooled this year, and I lost so many friends. I had about 20, and now I have maybe 6. Maybe we still are friends though, I haven't tried contacting them, and I also bet there schuldule is busy. But yeah, as you can tell, I am a likeable person at times. I am annoying. Very annoying. I've been told by my best friend that I am annoying, and she was telling the *truth* and I agree with her. I am. Like, on my TOM days, I just want to escape myself because I annoy myself, but I'm kinda stuck. But sometimes, I can be really dumb and stupid. And guess I'm also annoying because sometimes I have really heavy sarcasm moments, I either have a witty comeback, or a sarcasic comment.
I guess I am kinda a party girl. Like, I don't like to be couped up inside my house all day. I feel like I'm just sleepwalking through life. I'm not awake. I feel like I'm not living and I'm just being tied down. I live in the country, so there is nothing to really do out here, no friends or anything. I live 20 minutes away from all towns near me. But if I were in town, I could run around the streets with my friends, and I could do stuff. I could go wild and actually live. The most fun thing you can do out here is either ride bike, or swing really high and do tricks, or I guess play with my cats. Otherwise, my life sucks. Also school, oh where do I get started with school? Well, I'm homeschooled, but I feel like it's weighing me down and keeping me from the good things in life. Like, yeah, I wanna get smart, but really let's be honest.
Why in the fuck, do I need to know algebra?!
Why in the fuck, do I need to know latin?!
Why in the fuck, do I need to know how to draw a renissance portiat. I'M TERRIBLE AT DRAWING!
Why in the fuck, do I need to know geography, and all the hills and shit.
Why in the fuck, do I need to know how sand blows in science?!
WHY????
The only class I like is Spanish. That's it. THAT'S ALL THAT I LIKE, OO AND I ALSO LIKE GYM, AND LUNCH. THAT'S IT!!!!!
I hate everything else. Like, I'm like Niall, I do like smart people, it annoys me when people act dumb like "Oo, this is cute, I think I'll act dumb!" IT'S ANNOYING! Like, with some of my humor, I sometimes act stupid but other times, I try to be as smart as possible. I had a friend who liked a boy, and when she used to sit next to him in class she'd be like "What's 8x7?" And she'd try to act dumb. LIKE BITCH, IT'S EASY, YOUR A 7TH GRADER AND YOU DON'T KNOW?! LIKE BITCH IT'S 56, GO BACK TO MATH CLASS!!!! As you all can tell, I'm not friends with her anymore. Not because of that reason though, she was super controlling!!!
But still, I knew that she knew it, she knows what harder ones equal, she just wanted his attention.
And if you guys could explain to me please:
Why does Niall find it cute when a girl sneezes?
Like wtf? Yes, because blowing mucas out of your nose at less than 90mph is so sexy.
So.... question for you all!!!!! (At the end I will always ask a question, and I will also answer myself, you can comment, OR, just say it in your head. HONESTLY I DON'T CARE IF YOU COMMENT DO WHAT YOU LIKE!!!!)
So.......
Do you think that you could be Mrs. Horan? Or nahhh? Please explain!!!!
My answer:
I do, and I don't.
Like, I have the personality and everything, (at least I think I do, idk) I even have the brown hair, green eyes, the curvy body. BUT..... He likes girls who play guitar, he can't resist it. And I bet you 100% there is a girl JUST LIKE ME in the fandom, but, she can play guitar, and looks a whole lot prettier than me, and I bet she also has a cute sneeze and her first, and middle names, go really well with Horan. Like, my cousin taught me how to play a little bit of guitar, but I kinda forgot some notes. I play clarinet though? Does that count?! And my sneezes are all like "ACHOOOOOOO!!!!!" *building colapses* So yeah. And my first name with Horan? That's a no-go commander.
And lets see, let's compare what he wants, and what I am.
He loves horror movies, and I love horror movies.
He wants a girl with brown hair and green eyes, I have that, but it looks ugly on me. Oh wait everything does. (Yeah, I'm hard on myself, but I have my reasons.)
He likes shy girls, I am shy, but if I get comfortable with you, shit is going down.
He likes a girl who can play guitar, I can play four notes? Does clarinet count? Hehehe I'm squidward.
He wants someone he can have a laugh with, pretty sure I can do that one. Easy.
He wants someone who doesn't take themselves too seriously, I don't think I do. I always get told I need to take things seriously, and I don't. I'm not serious at all. But I guess I can be in certain situations.
He wants a girl who understands his eating habit, oh I completly understand, and who can blame him? Food is amazing<3
He likes it when a girl sneezes, my sneeze is like "BLAHHHH OHMYGOD DID YOU SEE THAT SNOT FLY OUT OF THAT GIRLS NOSE??? OHMYGOD EWWWW!!!!" Not really, but you get my point.
He wants a girl who will talk about serious things at night. I do all the time with my best friends, otherwise what other better time to talk?!
Okay, so he likes hair. And honestly, I do love it when someone plays with my hair, and I just do, it gives me goosebumps! And yeah, I would LOVE to play with Niallers hair do you know how soft it would be? Oh gosh, I can just imagine running my fingers through his hair, oh crap, what is this wet stuff going down my face?
He likes the natural look, well, it's a good thing that I'm always too lazy to put makeup on, I'm terrible at putting it on, and it messes around with my contacts so yeah, I don't like makeup either.
He wants someone who sees him, for just him. Now guys, I'm being COMPLETLY HONEST HERE ON ALL THE QUESTIONS, NO LIES!!!! But, I honestly do forget he's famous. I just think that he's just another guy I follow on twitter, and that I stalk him. But then when he posts something about a new single coming out or the album FOUR, I remember. I remember all of the girls chasing after him. I just remember that I'm just another girl to him, who is hopelessly in love with him. Like, I can't explain my feelings for him. They are just too deep. I really honestly love him though. He is very perfect. Like honestly, he is everything I could want in a guy. But I just have to face the facts, he likes short girls, I'm tall, he likes girls who play guitar, I can't. I'm too young for him. A 9 year difference. It hurts, it honestly does. I could only hope, to meet a guy half the man he is. And I'm American, and he's Irish. He's in a whole new country than I am. And really, how often does he come to boring old Minnesota? Like NEVER. He only goes to the big places, like New York, or Las Vegas.
Wow, it feels so good to get all of that^ off of my shoulders. I don't really have anyone to talk to about One Direction, so that's why I had a rant. And everything. And I don't feel very comfortable talking about my feelings for Niall either.
I have been called fake though, because well, people say I'm just lying about my personality, and that I'm just exactly what Niall wants, but guys, I'm really not lying about my personality. That's just who I am. That's why I don't like to really talk about my personality, because people think I'm just describing Niall's perfect girl, when I'm just descibing myself.
And what does it matter anyways? He'll NEVER think twice about me, even if we do ever meet. I'm just this 13 year old girl. I always wonder, what his girlfriend/fiance/wife will look like. I really don't imagine her as me at all. I see her as older than Niall by a few years. And shorter, with beautiful eyes, and long brown hair.
I've heard so many times, that I'm Niall's ideal girl. Well I'm not. My friend "A" has told me that I am, and I laughed my ass off so hard! I'M NOT AND NEVER WILL BE.
So girls, do you think you are? Please explain why!!!!!
If you read all of this^ God bless your heart and soul. Like halfway through writing this I'm just like "JESUS TAKE THE WHEEEEELLLLLLL!!!!!!"
Hahaha! So what I was planning to be a 11 worded thing. It has turned into an 2,259, and counting. Yep.
ENJOY THE BOOK MY PEEPS!!!!!
(ALSO GUYS! WHO CANT WAIT FOR THE SMG MUSCI VIDEO!!!!!!!!!!! AHMAGAWD! ITS OUT TOMORROWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)