I've completely gone quiet and I can tell. A lot of people have noticed, I'm not crazy at all, people are staring at me and talking about me but I can never figure out what for, everyday Jimin had left a little present placed in the same spot in my room and its just become a routine, I haven't tried to catch him in the act or interfere because frankly I don't want to lose him again
I know I'm so weird I never ever get to see him and I know I always used to push him away when he would try and come back to me but as the days go on I just feel like I'm getting more closer to him everyday, which is very weird because he's done many hurtful things in the past but I just miss him so much
*THROWBACK THOUGHTS*
"Jesus" The million roses were scattered everywhere as I walked into my room and I pick it up to smell it "Jimin you're a gem" I smile remembering how much I miss him
The next few weeks goes past and he's been doing the same thing, no one has said a thing about Jimin's disappearance but everyone seems to question why I've gone quiet, I've always been quiet so I don't really know what much difference it makes
And to top everything off I've been gaining weight due to all the food Jimin leaves and ever since I just eat and eat all in hope it'd make him come back quicker, but one question that's been on my mind is how did he manage to get in and out and how does he know I wouldn't be there, it seemed too planned but I never complained, he gives and I take but when was it gonna end, when was he actually going to stop and face me
I haven't seen him for 56 days, I know its weird I've been counting but IT JUST HELPS
It's nearly been 2 months and I haven't seen a trace of him, I've seen Mr Park here and there but he always fails to mention what I wish for him to bring to "JIMIN" I'm pretty sure he is aware of my fat crush on Jimin and same goes the same way so why doesn't he tell me go all people ?!
I'm sure he knows where his son is, besides he didn't even come to the wedding
And for Jennie I've seen her here and there but she's still been avoiding me, she runs from me when I go near her, well not literally but you get what I mean, She's been hanging around Annie's brother a lot and I really hope nothing bad is happening there, I mean I don't like to jump to conclusion but from the encounters I've had with him so far he doesn't seem like the type of person I feel comfortable around
And as for me I've just been getting close to Mary Anne(Annie for short) this whole time, her brother is still a little weird and I'm convinced all the time he spends with Jennie isn't for free but I need to look out for her either way, I know things are weird between me and Jenny, but she's still my sister and I will always look out for her
Right now I am just sitting in my room doing my homework when the craziest idea popped up into my head 'I need to write him a note back' I quickly shut my text book and grabbed notes from my table. I decided to write the dumbest thing in hope it makes him laugh a little and if he responds it means it's really him
'leave you shirt please, I miss your smell' I stick where he normally puts his sweet notes, this is so dum stupid but its worth a try
I decided I was going to go out with Annie, since she asked me earlier on today and this will give me a chance to wait for his reply
It's a bit scary to the thought this could either go North or South (Good or bad) but I just want to be sure it's Jimin and not just a random stranger playing a sick game on me
but if it is
well I wouldn't care
would i?
I know it's ironic but this is a really good feeling, I'm happy and low-key and I just don't want it to end, I'm getting all the attention I need....for now.
Me, Annie and Jackson decided to tag along to the little cafe down from our school, Jackson claims he came for protection when I know he's just trying to weird me out more
"Let's sit over there" Annie point to a closed of table away from everyone to which we follow her there, as I am walking I hear a familiar voice and I turn around only to bump into the chair and catch my balance "Be careful Y/n" Annie helps me and I look back to search the restaurant swearing I saw Jimin
"This a cute little restaurant" Annie says as we sit down and grab the menus "Where's Jackson?" I look up as I notice that Jackson is no longer here annoying our civil date "I don't know probably smoking with his criminal friends, thing he saw them in on the way cause I sure did" She says looking at the menu in a jokingly manner but I didn't take it as a joke "Criminal friends?"
"Yeah, like his friends that do bad things, I mean they are criminals but they haven't got caught for the things they have done but hey, who am I to judge?" She shrugs and drops the menu paying attention to my facial expression
"He smokes?" I ask pressing her even more "Like hell, Y/n, anyone who's around him would do it too, he's such a bad influence if you know what I mean, I wouldn't be surprised if your friend Jennifer isn't doing all that business now" She eye rolls "Do you think?" "For sure! Trust me my brother is the worst person to be around, I mean he isn't that bad, actually no, no he's really bad" "So you smoke too?" I ask with a frown
"Not me silly, it's just he gets everyone into it and when I say everyone I mean everyone, he does some kind of magic, so stay away when he's doing it" "Oh" I nod and look at the menu again "He has a good heart okay, he may come across as dangerous but it's all in the past now" She tries to soften me as she sees how scared I am
"Has stuff happened?" I ask and she swallows forcing a smile "Enough talk with my brother let us talk about you, tell me about your mans" "Let's not even go there" I roll my eyes and push my menu from me "Oh come on we've been freinds for so long I think I deserve a little insight" "There is no insight because there is no man" "You're lying to me now" "Annie I'm with you 24/7, I think you would've realised if I actually had a man" "Don't think I'm ever gonna forget this" I shake my head whilst smiling as I hear the bells in the door ring and I turn seeing Jackson
"Have you guys ordered yet?" He pulls out a chair smelling of cigarettes "Jack you reek" Annie covers her nose and takes perfume out of her bag giving it to him "Its not me blame it on Jimin, he thinks he can do it all we had to go through the packet before-" "Wait what did you say?" I ask quickly as I could've sworn he just said Jimin's name "What?" He stops talking and side glares me "Blame it on...." I try to him at what he was just talking about but he gives me a deadpan look "shut up" He says in monotone and I'm so surprised how his mood changed to quick
soon a waitress came to take our order and we had dinner that night, which was a long night until I got home, very very late I was too tired to remember anything I just went straight to bed
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think of Jackson from GOT7 in bad boy vibezzz