“But aren't we all, darling?” Jimin added in a soothing tone, as his fingers lightly rubbed concentric circles on the older's thigh. Jungkook's eyes sparkled for this was beyond a couple of words. It was an indirect acceptance of his bad side, thereafter, an indirect acceptance of all of his monstrous activities, and he didn't expect it to feel this good hearing five words coming out from his lover's lovely lips.
“Sure most people are babe, but you aren't one. You are an angel.” Jungkook muttered softly, moving his hand from ruffling Jimin's hair to caressing his left cheek. "You know that I... that I love you, right?"
“Of course,” Jimin said without the slightest hint of hesitation. "Of course I know that darling." Jimin's answer got rewarded with a fast peck on the lips, before Jungkook looked all serious again.
“I'm sorry babe, but.. but there is something highly important about myself that I had never told you before.” Jungkook said his voice two octaves lower as he stared deep into Jimin's eyes, the latter just stared back at him, and didn't seem to react in anyway yet, just as if he was still thinking his words through, before a slightly confused look mixed with realization glossed his darkly chestnut eyes.
“Does it have a relation with what you told me earlier?” Jimin demanded, getting it closely right but Jungkook just made a questioning noise under his breath. He wished that he didn't have to tell him just yet, but it felt as if this was the most fitting time for such declaration. “with you hurting people and not just ordering it?”
“Yes it does baby, it does.” Jungkook confirmed and Jimin's face contorted as if in pain at his words. So there was an important thing he had to tell him about himself, something he assumed wasn't moral at all.
He found it kind of silly that he cared so much about such a thing all things considred, for he never found it hard to get along with Taehyung even though he knew about the bad things he does, and that he belonged to a gang.
He even listens to him speaking about it all and he doesn't remember getting affected by it in anyway, nor having any of those feelings he felt at the simple confession Jungkook still didn't even elaborte.
What did it all mean? Jimin had no idea but he assumed that it maybe is because Taehyung had been crystal clear about everything since the very start, and Jimin found some trust and relief in the brutal honesty, or maybe that Taehyung even though represented a thread to people's safety, he was actually the one assuring Jimin was safe, a weird combination but he liked it the way it was.
Whereas he had been living with Jungkook for more than three years, and yet this was the first time Jungkook decided on telling him. It felt as a stab to the back, for retaining important information from him was just as dishonest as lying to him, and Jimin absolutely hated it. He would have loved to show Jungkook that he accepted him, but accepting him and accepting his dishonesty were immensly different matters.
“Do you have any idea about the gangs ruling the undergrounds of Seoul?” Jungkook asked eying Jimin wih great interest.
Jimin tried his best to look uninterested, for he knew way too much about gangs than a normal person would know because of a certain brown haired man. Yet, he knew he had to say something for looking completely uninformed would appear rather dumb.
“I.. I don't think I know much about that.” Jimin lied swiftly, his tongue reaching to wet his lips, something he frequently did whenever he was nervous, and Jungkook seemed to spot the languid act as he shot him a firm type of look, not threatening, just silently asking him to say what he knew. “Well, nothing much besides that there is two major gangs, Choensa Myo Pa, and... and..”
“And Du Agma Pa,” Jungkook finished for him, an unfathomable expression on his face. Jungkook looked almost proud of himself just saying the name of the said gang and Jimin couldn't understand why.
He connected the name to one of the times Taehyung spoke to him about his rival gang 'Du Agma Pa'. He spoke so lowly of them, saying they were only dumb chaebols who only got involved in crime to gain more money, and that it was the laugh of the century and so many mean things.
Jimin couldn't hold it in his heart to care about it then, for Taehyung despising a rival gang was kind of normal and therefore not even important at all to remember, and maybe this was the reason he forgot the name straight after he heard it.
Yet, he remembered the black hatred, the desire to revenge, the blood thirst, and the burning passion Taehyung posessed to ruin that exact gang it almost flicked a fire in his eyes, a fire which could probably burn everything in its way in a mere split of a second and he remembered almost feeling scared.
Taehyung was strong, and crazy, and he did whatever the fuck he wanted, he could almost swear the boy was a time ticking bomb, but he still loved him. He couldn't understand what exactly he liked about him but he couldn't deny the existence of the feelings either, and it's then when he realized that his mind swept away, forgetting Jungkook's presence entirely to think of another guy and it almost felt as if he was cheating.
“Yes, that one.” Jimin agreed trying to act as if he was only trying to recall the name, he wished Jungkook didn't notice anything off with him lately. He was still scared that he'd anger him somehow, for despite Jungkook being nice, he was also so easily irritatable and his wrath was devestative.
It reminded him that he had to tell Jungkook what he discussed with Matthew, and he planned he'll do so as soon as the conversation about the gangs dissolve. “Why are you asking me about that?”
Jungkook just stared at him for a couple of moments, just as if he was taken off guard by the question but he wasn't. He was actually just thinking about how to phrase his belated confession and nothing which passed his mind seemed to be good enough to reach his lips at all.
Jimin seemed to understand what his silence meant, and that Jungkook was obviously alluding to the fact that he had a relation with one of the two gangs. Yet, it still didn't make sense to him as what was the relationship he had with them. Did Jungkook use hooligans from one of the gangs to do shit for him?
It wasn't such an important thing for him to be hiding at all, for Jimin already knew about it, and the best example was what happened that same day at Gwanak-gu warehouse.
Jimin just never asked who did Jungkook hire or from where, but it was kind of obvious anyways. Or maybe Jungkook himself was a part of one of the two gangs? Yet, it also didn't make sense for he knew Jungkook as the palms of his hands, and thereafter, he knew for sure that the older would never even listen to, much less work for anyone in the world.
“I'm a gangster Jimin.” Jungkook finally confessed, shortly surprised by the lack of reaction he reveived from Jimin. It seemed that the younger wasn't surprised at all by the news, rather just gazing at him intensely with curiosity in the depth of his almond eyes.
It wasn't such a big news for he was shocked the first time when knowing Taehyung belonged to a gang, and it prevented him from getting shocked again when Jungkook turned uut to be the same. Maybe it was true, he was a magnet to this same type of people for he seemed to find them everywhere he went.
“Do you work for Cheonsa Myo Pa? And how in hell you work for a higher authority? I must say that's very unbelievable.” Jimin muttered shaking his head in incrudility. The idea of Jungkook being the boss of Taehyung utterly amusing in his eyes. He thought of the way Taehyung would react if he heard that, and he had no doubt that the latter would leave the gang without a second thought.
“I work for nobody babe, I'm the boss, the dictator, the king of the chessboard. It's me who rules everything.” Jungkook replied wih a smile tugging at his lips, and Jimin's eyes widened at his words. Jungkook was the boss? No wonder he heard the guards adress him as Master Jeon his entire life, and yet he never catched up on anything, a fact that left a sour taste in his mouth, and he felt rather dumb. “Chonsa Myo Pa's boss?”
“How is Cheonsa Myo Pa even an empire while it doesn't even control 20% of districts? It's a fairly new gang, mine is as old as Seoul itself.” Jungkook said in a rather disgusted fashion, undoubtedly exagerting.
Yet Jimin felt the ryhm of his heart exceed to a surely unhealthy level, as the relization hit him hard in the guts, and he felt his hand clamming in sweat. The person Taehyung hated the most was his own boyfriend, and he felt like fainting at the thought.
He thought in a haste that he had to take this secret with him to the grave, that he had to ensure Taehyung never ever figures out about it, or else it'll be hell breaking lose.
“Du Agma Pa is my empire Jimin, yours too.”
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