He clutched tightly into the thing in his hands as he slowly came into a stop before an apartment, his eyes staring up at it with a warm smile before walking inside the building with a deep breath
The blond knocked gently against the door, the seconds feeling like hours before the door opened slowly to the apartment, out coming the person he was meant to be facing before him today
"Jimin? What are you doing here"
Jungkook asked confused, shocked at seeing Jimin standing at his doorway this early in the morning. He was covered in layers of clothes,
a white paper clutched in his hands that were covered in warm gloves that looked to familiar
Jimin let his gaze fall on the ground, head hung low as the words kept playing around in his mind, afraid of letting them leave his tounge just yet
"Tae wanted you to have this"
He almost whispered as his scarf coved his mouth, coming out like a mumble as he reached out his hand to give Jungkook the letter in his hand who took it, his eyes looking confused at the paper as his lips had a smile on them from the mention of the blue haired of his
"What's this?"
He asked Jimin, eyes trying to meet his as he kept avoiding eye contact with the Raven who's voice was still raspy from just waking up
"Jungkook"
The blond started, his eyes shutting as he didn't know how to let the words out, mind coming back to the memory once again as he kept breathing in to calm the nerves in his body
Jungkook stayed silent as he waited for the anxious boy to talk as he kept opening his mouth but no words seemed to leave
"Tae-Taehyung he"
"What about tae? Is he okay?"
Jungkook told, voice filled now with concern at the way Jimin was talking. Jimins heart broke at the others comment, now making it harder to let the last words he had to say out
"Taehyung passed away.."
Jimin finnaly managed to say out, the words breaking him in a million pieces again as he still hasn't come to terms with accepting his best friends death
He looked up from the ground after the silent was filling the room. He couldn't see anything in the others expression, it was almost like he had froze on the spot. Letter almost slipping from his hand as he stayed freezed by the door
The atmosphere felt heavy as the words kept repeating themselves in the ravens mind
"Jungkoo-"
"why are you lying, he's okay. Tae is okay. Is he back home now? Then I'm going to visit him, I need to go before I miss the train"
Jungkook rambled, his voice was shaky. It seemed hard to form words as he kept rambling to himself that he needed to go to the train station before he missed the train
Wanting to go back home, home to Taehyung
Before Jimin could open his mouth to stop him Jungkook was already running out of his apartment, his jacket left home as he clutched the paper in his hand. Mumbling that he's going to miss the train
He kept running in the cold, nothing keeping him warm but the memory of Taehyung in his arms. He didn't stop running, breath hitched as he kept moving to the train station
A voice in his head he kept pushing back of Jimins words just now. The more he heard them the more he had fastened his steps, the wind blowing against his face as he kept running
He stopped, steps stumbled as the sound of the train leaving before he could get in was left in the air. He fell on his knees, not minding the pain of the grounds impact against his knees as he catched his breath
He couldn't feel the tears running down his cold face, landing on the ground under him as he clutched his fists together
"No.. No, Tae no, you idiot you're okay. You're alright"
He repeated, his voice shaky as he bended over, sobbing as his clutched fist kept hitting the ground. Not caring about the blood leaving his knuckles
"Look tae, look my knuckles are bleeding again. Can you treat them? I-I want you to treat them"
He whispered, his tears never stopping leaving his hurting eyes, the sky blurry as he kept his face down
"I believe in your star stories, p-please baby I believe in them now"
A broken cry left his lips as he pleaded on the ground, the letter in his hand crumbled because he clutched his fist so hard
He slowly reached out with his shaky hand for the paper, opening it slowly as the tears kept falling on the letter. His eyes blurry from all the tears as he wiped them to see the words written from the blue haired, his blue haired
To my cigarette boy
Hi, gosh I honestly don't know how to start this because I keep crying every time I try. I didn't want you to read this, I really never wanted you to ever lay your hands on a letter like this
I remember the first time I saw you I thought you were really mean and an idiot for not believing in my Patrik star story (which I still won't forget)
But when I talked to you I felt like.. I felt like your the only person I have looked for my whole life. It felt nice. Ever since I met you I have never wanted anything more than to feel your touch and warmth
I was so happy
I was so happy that I didn't want to go, I want to stay I want to keep my promise and stay with you forever
I want to hold your hands again, I want to wipe your tears right now, I want to kiss you and I want to read you stories
But most of all I want to say I love you, i want to be able to say these words everyday. I wish I could say these for you everyday because I really do
I really love you so much that it hurts. It hurts so much because I don't want to go Jungkook, believe me I want to stay so much and I'm so scared. Will you tell me that it's okay?
Will you tell me that everything will be alright?
I want to hear that so bad Kook, because your words are the only ones I believe
I'm so sorry, I'm sorry for leaving you like this. I wish I didn't hurt you like this because I can't manage to see you hurt. I would do anything for you to not be hurt right now
I love you
I love you like I would never love anyone else
I forgive you for not believing that stars look like Patrick star
But do you believe I'm a star now?
I want you to look at the stars whenever you miss me kook, because I promise I will wave back, yeah?
I will wave so high that you will be able to see it. I want to see you again, I want to see you so bad. That's all I want, would that be an okay wish?
Thank you Jungkook
Thank you for making me the happiest. Let's meet again okay? Let's meets in camp again
I love you
Sincerely your stupid blue haired boy who loves a stupid cigarette boy
The tears wouldn't stop running down his face as the letter had became wet, his hands crumbling it in his hands as he held it tightly against his broken heart
"You idiot, I love you so much. I-it hurts"
He sobbed, body shaking as he couldn't stop the tears that kept flowing down his red face. The memory of the boy playing over and over in his head, wanting nothing more than to hold him close until nothing would be able to take him away from him
"I-I didn't even take you t-to the dreamy place you wanted to go to"
He kept repeating, remembering the time the boy who made his smile grow everyday ask him if he could take him to that dreamy place they talked about. He wanted to be able to take him there, one last time he wished to take him there
But time never listened to them
"Don't leave me, please bun.. I can't leave you"
PS: Thank you for being my dreamy place
END
Wow, can't believe this story is over. First I want to say I love you all so much that words can't describe<33you mean the moon to me and you guys always make my day even though I always ruin yours with these sad chapters
I can't explain how thankful I am for you and for reading this book. It was fun writing this and seeing you guys follow along on the ride, love u tons<33
Now second of all I'm so sorry for this ending, I know the iconic line "life isn't always happy endings" won't make it an apology for this ending. I hope my love for you will be enough for you to forgive me❤️
I will see you guys when I make another story who I promise will have a happy ending:)
Thanks for this journey my loves