𝗝𝗲𝗹𝗮𝗻𝗶 🧞♀️
me & patience started to hang out more , we went to eachother houses & we went to places
The more I hung out with her the more i started to like her
I think she felt the same way
melanie has a problem with it , but who gives two fucks ?
not me , the fuck ?
I haven't told anyone that I liked girls & I'm kinda scared to , because of what the ones close to me will think
it was late in the afternoon , & melanie was about to go to work
patience was coming over today
I heard someone knock on my window & I seen it was patience
I opened the window and she came in
"hey mamas"she says and i kiss her slowly
"i missed you"i say pulling away
"girl , its only been a day plus we be facetiming"she says & i start laughing
"shut up" i say pecking her lips
i heard a knock on my door
"jelani , can i talk to you ?"Melanie asks me
"I'll be back" i mouthed to patience & she nodded her head as i left the room
my room was like right by the kitchen so i can hear everything in my room
"yeah ?"i asked her as i entered in the kitchen
"after the incident that happened about a month ago , you stopped talking to me"she says
"I know ,and you've been busy hanging with your other friends so-" i was saying before she cut me off
"because you've been out there hanging with that fucking faggot!"she says raising her voice
"Didn't i tell your stupid ass to stop talking shit , what's your problem ?"i asked her slamming my hand on the table
"you know she likes girls , right?"she asks me
"and ?"i asked her
"i fucking hate that shit"she says
"whats wrong with gay people?"i ask her
"its just not right , the same sex shouldn't be together"she says and i shake my head
"you sound like my mama"i say
"so if i liked girls , what would you do?"i asked her
"leave"she says
"even after all we've been through , all the good moments , you just gon leave that just cause i like girls"i say
"do you like girls jelani?"she asks me & i hesitate
"um"i say and she gave me a suspicious look
"if you are , people won't look at you the same & you know your mama will disown you" she tells me & i freeze up
"I'm not , you know this"i say into a mumble
"okay then"she says getting her stuff
"you know the routine"she says before leaving & i walk back in the room
"What was that?"patience asks me with anger in her voice & pain in her eyes
"what was i suppose to do?"i asked tearing up
"tell the truth , jelani!"she yells
"if they find out , nothing won't ever be the same" i say as tears start falling from my eyes
"your scared of being judged , how do you think I feel , when people judge me just cause I like girls"she says as tears start forming in her eyes
"huh! , jelani ? , you're not alone here"she tells me
"I know" I say sniffling
"maybe this is a mistake"patience says
"what do you mean?" I asked her as she start getting ready to leave
"us , we not gonna work"she says and I shake my head
"your just gonna give up ?"I asked her and she walks past me
"Patience !"i yell going after her
she walked out getting into her car two houses down
It was raining outside too & my hair was getting messed the fuck up
she drove off and left me there in the rain
I kept walking in the rain and cried
"FUCK!"I yelled