Beads of sweat ran down from my forehead as i try my best to act cool and natural . It might seem easy when your the one looking at it but that thought will backfire you once your in the position .
It was almost a normal day for me coming to an end but I was called to the alphas office for the papers i need to be transfered tomorrow at the silver chain pack . For some reason , it doesn't make me sad . I know im the weakest and it isn't a surprise for the other students . The alpha never told me that i was the student being transfered but somehow it got to me that i was .
I make my way to the dull-looking hall , until i reached the alphas office . Tall brown doors greeted me as i knock .
"Come in" i assume the alpha said with no emotion . I stepped a foot in being welcomed by a sanitizing scent .Right infront of me is the alpha looking dull as ever sitting on his ever so lovely chair . I bow before I walked forward as i sit on one of the chairs infront of his black desk .
SILENCE . Thats the only word that described what was going on . And ofcourse being the crazy person i am , i spoke . Stupidly .
" So , you called me ? For ? " i ask trying to look innocent . He glared at me as he sat straight and started to search for something on his drawers.
" We both know why i called you . Fae , your the student that is going to be exchange to the silver chain pack . You just didnt show that you had the abilty to be in my pack . " He said dryly without sparing me a glance . And this i tell you , is the worst alpha ive ever had met . Its not like i met evry alpha of this kingdom .
Moments later , he put a document ontop of his desk , assuming its my tranfer profile .
" Your ride will be here tomorrow morning . Dont be late . Pack your things tonight . Goodbye Fae . " He said . And with that , i rushed out of his office, not giving him a glance . I walk towards my dorm .
Truth be told , i dont want to leave . Sure , i hate the alpha and the other students here but somehow , i want to stay . I dont know why but , theres this feeling that i was meant to be here . But if it's what they want , sure .
I came to halt infront of my room and went inside . Preparing my bag , i put out everything that i possess in the room . I'm kind of a loner here so , i dont have a friend or a room mate .
I fold every clothing that i have and neatly placed it in my bag . I put my luggage down beside my bed and as i fall to ontop of my bed , i bring up my hands on my face . Blocking the light off my eyes .
All of a sudden, my face began to feel hot . I open my eyes and lifted my hands . I look at them and feel it burning for some reason . I sat right up because of the pain caused by my hand . My hand felt so much pain. It began shaking .
I didnt know what was going on
I began freaking out . My hands began to sizzle . My breathing slowed down as i stood up . My vision was blury as i started to walk clumsily to my wall mirror . My blury eyes looked up and saw that my body was glowing with red color . I took a deep breath and as i let it out , i fell to the ground . My head bumping on the floor and my eyes started closing . With the pain not leaving , it made it worse . My eyes gave up and my lids became heavier at the moment .
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My eyes shot open as i heard a squeaky noise becoming louder and louder . I quickly stood up as ive been greeted by my reflection cause by the mirror . Recalling my incident last night , I questioned myself of what happend .
Putting my thoughts aside , the door barged open and revieled a midle-aged man with a navy blue uniform . He scanned the room as his dark brown eyes met my blue ones .
" Goodmorning . Im here to take ..." He stopped as he looked at a peice of scrunched paper .
" Elienor Fae ahriana Whyllah. Assuming that is you ? " he said with a hopeful tone . I nodded in response as he smiled.
" Im a wolf guard at silver chain pack . Our alpha was expecting you about an hour from now . And i suggest you get ready . " He said bluntly .
" Yeah sure , here's my transfer profile by the way . " I said while handing him the document . He smiled and grabbed it from my hands . I went pass him and into my bathroom .
After doing my usual routine . I brushed my hair and put some cologne on my skin . I reached my left side of my neck and felt it burn . I stopped doing what i was doing and looked at the mirror to see a scar .
"How did this.." I mumble as i wasnt able to finish my sentence. Rubbing the scar , it hurt .
Ignoring the thing , i went out to find my luggage gone . I shrugged it off and went straight to the exit .
The sun welcomed me outside as i try to hide from it . I am not a morning person . I walked to a parked car that had my luggage in it and the man i saw earlier standing beside the opened door . I walked to it in human speed and carefully climbed in the car .
I put on my headphones on as the car started . I look back at the school campus one last time . Memories dance in my mind . I grew up in that place . I know i wasnt good enough , i get that . but the alpha , i grew up with . He was actually special to me . But when he claimed the title alpha , everything we had ? Was gone . Eventually he found his mate and everything we had was like wind . It past away .
I got over that . And if i dare to find my mate , ill brag about him too .
The view of the school campus was gone , inch by inch . I close my eyes to lessen the pain that i was experiencing .
I started playing music while we passed the forest . Tall trees and grassy medows came into view while i bluntly look at them . I felt my phone vibrate as i stared at a pop up saying it was nearly drained . I stopped the music and placed the phone in my pocket . I glanced at the window to find an interesting view .
"May i say so that you have a fairly long name " The man suddenly said while i snap my head into his direction. Seeing that he smiled at me at the mirror
"Yeah . I dont even know where it came from. They said that when i was left at the doorstep of blue moon school , they found this card attached to the basket that i was in that says : Please take care of her , her name is elienor fae ahriana whyllah ." i said without looking at him . Truth was , that isnt the only words that was scribbled on a note. i cant tell him all , i barely know him . I dont even know his name and giving so many facts about him .
He didnt bother to say another word and i was thankful for it . I wasnt in the mood to tell a story of how i grew up without anyone and without love to guide me with . It'll hurt even more if i say that wanted to find my parents . I know that theyre still alive , i can feel it . All i really wanted was for them to look for me , for them to make me feel important to someone , even just this once . Im not a threat so why send me away ? I dont get get how sending me away is even an option even at the darkest time . The saddest thing about everything for me is , im expecting somethings that are proved that will never come true .
Love isn't a word for me , it isnt in my dictionary . It doesnt have a meaning because i havent understand how it feels to actually be loved by someone . What if , i find my mate and actually feel this innocence inside of me ? A foreign feeling emerging inside of me . I'm new to all these . I may look like an expirienced girl , physically . But emotionally , im just a ten year-old girl .
I wasnt aware , but a warm liquid i felt on my cheecks . Ill addmit that ive cried myself so many times to sleep just to make the pain come to me again . The only reason that i do that is that i blame myself for what i am . But the thing is , i never recalled being mean to someone at all .
I turned my head to face the window and saw that we were parking . Time passed by when your thinking about what would make you happy . I wipe the tear stains away until the engine went off . I close my eyes one more time . Thinking to myself , you can do this , you're Fae Whyllah . The girl who survived 17 years without love .
I open my eyes and see that the door is already open . I let out a breath of frustration before i step a foot out into a concrete floor . My shoes rub on it as i turn around to get my bags . Right infront of me is 3 tall buildings . My eyes got teary again of the thought of the school i grew up in . this is it . My new life is awaiting me . All i need is to forget about the past and hold on tight to the future .
I dont care if they think that i am the weakest . I can be the strongest if i desired to be . i can finally say that i am starting all over again .