Ryas pov
It is now July
Melo and I have gotten closer like at lot we hang out all the time we have sleepovers and melo has gotten a lot more touchy like every time where together he always has to have his body touching mine it could be just his finger touching my arm or whatever but he has to be touching me when we're together if he's not touching me he likes to annoy everyone that's with us and put them in a bad mood because he's in one or when I tell him not to touch me he gets mad and doesn't talk the rest of the time I'm with him
Basically acts like a little boy when he doesn't get his way
But today where moving me into my UCLA dorm
I'm in the same dorm complex as jaden I'm two dorms down from hers
My mom and I are packing all my stuff while angel is in my bathroom packing my stiff in there
3 hours later
*trigger warning*
Don't read it you don't like to read about rape,or dugs
All of us have finished moving my stuff
We came home about 30 minutes ago and All I've been doing is laying on my bed in my feelings
right now I'm listening to from time by drake ft Jhene aiko
And all I could think about is my childhood
Flashback
"Daddy could we go get something to eat!" I said
"No!" My dad yelled
"But daddy I haven't eaten since yesterday morning" I said with tears in my eye
"I don't care rya, now listen closely two nice men are going to come into your bedroom at night and your going to play with them okay"my dad said
"Ooo daddy can they play with my barbies with me!" I said
"Yes baby they can just ask them"my dad said
"Okay yay I'm going to get my Barbies ready okay daddy!" I said running up the stairs into my room
Time skip 5 hours later
10:28pm
I was laying in bed when my dad walked in
"Rya when the men get here be nice okay and stay still, don't be scared, and let them do it okay cuz if you don't mama and daddy won't get the white sugar and you know we need it or we're going to die and we don't want daddy and mama to die huh" my dad said looking right in my eyes
"No I'll be good daddy so you can get your white sugar, I don't want you to die" I said pouting
"I won't die if your good to those men and listen to them okay" my dad said
"Okay daddy" I said looking at the direction of the door
"There here do everything I just told you" my dad said walking out of my room
4 minutes later I hear steps coming closer towards my room and soon two tall muscular men in black t-shirts and black pants step inside my room
"Hi I'm rya do you guys wanna play with my barbies" I said holding them up
"We can play with your dolls later but for right now let's play another game?" One of them said
"Okay what game should we play?" I said putting my barbies down
"The rules are you have to lay down on your bed and we tickle you but you have to be quiet or your dad and mom are in trouble" the taller on said
"Okay! That sound fun but how I'm I supposed to be quiet if your tickling me that's impossible silly!" I said giggling
"Let's start" he said
I laying on my bed waiting for them to tickle me when I feel the taking off my clothes
"Hey your supposed to tickle me!" I said
"But it's funnier if you have no clothes on because you can feel it more" one of them said
"Oh ok I get it"I said not knowing what they were doing
Soon I feel them keep on touching my spots where my grandma said no one should touch me there unless I let them
"Hey my grandma said nobody should touch me there" I said
"It's alright it will all be over soon just take this" he said handing me a glass that had water
I chugged it because I haven't drank anything since 8 in the morning
They soon started taking off there pants and licking me from my neck down
"Stooop" was all I said before everything turned black
The next day I woke up sore and naked
I looked around and see my dad
"Daddy what happened?" I said
"It was a early birthday present" my dad said
"But it didn't feel good I don't like my present" I said
"Rya your going to be 5 you needed to grow up so we got you that did you like it?" He said
"No I didn't like it and daddy my birthday is in December and it's February?"I said confused
"That's why it's a early present" he said handing me clothes
I was only four when I was first touched inappropriately and it happened two more times and everyone they would want to play the same game but I told them I didn't like that game but they forced me to keep playing
when I grew older I realized that they weren't playing a game with me
And I promised myself to never let anyone take advantage of me the way they did
I was 7 when I first saw someone die in front of me and 10 when I first killed someone
I never meant to kill anybody but they made me do it and said if I didn't Natalia (the woman that took her in aka her fake mom) would die and so I had to
The night my parents left me they took me to a beach and told me to stay where I was because someone is going to take me somewhere safer then where we lived and that they would come back for me
"Rya baby stay here they are going to come and take you somewhere safe from here and me and your dad will come get you"Hennessy my biological mom said
"But mommy I want to stay with you and daddy" I said crying
"RYA I DONT CARE, your going to stay here until they come and pick you up do you understand?" My mom yelled
"Yes mom" I said with tears in my eyes
"Don't call me mom you don't deserve to call me mom"she said
"Yes ma'am"I said
"honey their coming"I heard my dad say
"Stay here don't go anywhere" my dad said
"Okay" i said
After they left I didn't want to go with the people that were going to pick me up so I ran to where I saw the lights of all the games and the store sighs
That when I found a pretty dark skin lady with green eyes
"Hey sweetheart where are your parents" she asked me
"Um they left me" i said looking down
"Okay well my name is Natalie what about you?" She said with a big smile
"My name is Mariah but everyone calls me rya and I'm 4 years old but my birthday is December 15" I said to Natalie
"Well I'm 21 years old and my birthday is in September 6, that means your birthday is in a month wow" she said smiling
"Want to go get ice cream?" She asked
"Yess please!" I said hopping up and down
After that day Natalie took me to her two bedroom apartment and told me if I wanted to stay with her and to never go outside because it was dangerous out there
Most of my childhood was in what everyone likes to call the ghetto Natalie couldn't afford to move anywhere else so we got stuck there until we saved up enough money to get out, it isn't bad like everyone thinks they are like family and I got to hang out with the other kids, there was only a couple people that were bad,one being king and his group but he liked Natalie so he was nice to me and always took care of us when Natalie couldn't afford to pay the rent, Natalie always thanked him and told him to take his money back but he always put it in her room before she woke up, I got in trouble for this because Natalie found out that I was telling him we couldn't afford the rent and that I heard her crying about not having enough money
We never got out of there until we moved to Ohio when I was 11 but I moved near spire this year
Before Geneva Ohio I lived in Cleveland Ohio it ain't that far from Geneva
And sometimes we go back and visit in California to spend time with Natalie's family who became my family the second I meet them on my fifth birthday
One year When we went to visit them we went back to Natalie's old apartment because her cousin was renting it now and it was Christmas and there was a knock at the door when Natalie opened it there was a baby in a box with a letter
She took out the letter and read it
Dear Natalie I know you've taken care of rya and I'm sorry to put another baby on you but it happened by accident and I didn't want to kill it so I thought giving it to you was best
name it whatever you want it's a boy just don't ever come looking for me or John we don't want anything to do with rya or the baby unless you have money
-Hennessy
That day I found out about angel Natalie ended up naming him angel because he was her angel that fell from the sky and into her arms
Natalie always wanted kids but when she was 18 she found out she couldn't have Any kids so she always says we were her miracle kids even though we weren't her real kids she always made sure we were okay angel doesn't know that Natalie isn't our real mom but I'm ok with him thinking Natalie is our mom
Sometimes I wish Natalie was our real mom
I started calling her mom when I was five a little after my party and she bursted out crying saying this is what god made her for
And that she loved me with all her heart
And after that it was just me and her and later on angel
Ever since I left them I never trust anyone else except for Natalie and angel at school I keep to myself, I have friends it's just that I don't tell them much just the usual things like my favorite color and basic stuff like that
Marvin's room was now playing through my speakers as I felt hot tears coming out of the corner of my eyes remembering everything that happened
Then something I never thought of came to mind
"Wow I'm a crackbaby" I laughed to myself