i'm the type of person whom if something is wrong and get asked "are you okay" i will completely blow up.
i'm the type of person whom if i get angry i cry, which made me avoid any kind of arguments.
i'm the type of person who needs a getaway, in the form of a person i can tell all my rants without being judged, or a shoulder to cry on.
i'm the type of person who puts too much trust in another once i let them in, and i did that with him, which is something i never should've did.
and apparently i'm the type of person who comes with too much baggage that drives my boyfriends to cheat on me with pretty airheads
i put too much in him, which is normal as we were together for years, but like he said, i come with "too much baggage" that he just couldn't "keep giving me a shoulder to cry on when he doesn't even care".
he ruined me, maybe an exaggeration that i believe, but i missed too many occasions, parties, only so i wouldn't bump into him. him with his hand around her.
maybe this moping around phase will end, but i don't know when. i just know it's not today.