⋆Justin's POV⋆
Well, we're all back at moms place. It's 4 AM and I heard a little crash outside.
I get up and walk to the living room. I see a light coming from the kitchen so I walk in.
Mom had a knife in her hand.
"MOM! STOP! PLEASE DONT!" I shouted.
That wasn't a smart move.
I approached her slowly.
She put the knife against her neck.
"Put down the knife." I said calmly.
She was crying, so much.
"Mommy!" Jazmyn and Jaxon yelled.
"Shh" I shushed them. "Go back to bed"
Damn, isn't it really hard for little kids to see their mom like this? it's gonna scar them so bad.
"But mommy!" Jazmyn said.
"It's okay. It's okay. Go back to bed. I'll be there in a bit"
"Okay"
They walked back.
"Justin, stop" mom stuttered.
"No! mom, you stop"
She pushed the knife harder against her neck.
"Don't try to stop me" she murmured.
"M-mom. P-please" I said weakly.
She shook her head, walking back slowly.
"Why would you do this at 4AM!"
"Because I didn't think you would wake up!"
"Mom, please. I'm begging you, please stop."
"Why won't you just let me do this?" she said in a shaky voice.
"Because I need you"
"You never needed me. You have dad. No one needs me. They leave me all the time. Everything is hard enough. 3 kids. A house. Little money. No effort."
"We all need you. Please stop."
"No. you go back to bed. I don't want you to see this."
"If you do this, how am I gonna tell Jazzy and Jaxon? their not even 10, they're not gonna understand what's going on and they're gonna just cry and I can't handle all this pressure. Please. For us?"
"You should be able to handle all of this because you are 16 now."
"No I don't! I'm not mature! I still fight at school! I cuss about stupid things and I never, learn, to, forgive." I said slowly towards the end.
"So you do realize?"
"Y-yeah."
"Justin, everybody makes mistakes. But everybody doesn't realize it. Part- most of the reason why I'm doing this, is because of Jeremy. What he did, hurt me so bad. I still cry at night. I feel so much pain and this is what happens when a man doesn't treat a lady right."
"So this is all dads fault?"
"Mainly. But, what I'm trying to say is, even if I don't like Ariana the best... treat her right. Don't make her upset, if you do, cheer her up. Just make her happy because thinking suicidal, is the worse feeling."
"So you're gonna stop?"
"Maybe"
"Can that 'maybe' be a yes?" I said putting my hand out.
She put the knife in my hand.
"Thank you mom" I said in a shaky voice, hugging her.
I put the knife in the sink and went to Jazzy and Jaxon.
"Hey guys" I whispered.
"What happened?" they asked.
"Um... mommy uh... she-"
"-mommy's okay" she budded in.
Thank god, I didn't know how to tell them.
"Oh okay. Goodnight mommy!" Jazmyn said.
"Goodnight Jazzy. Goodnight Jaxon." Mom said, blowing a kiss.
I went back into my room and tried to sleep. But I really couldn't. Everything is still scaring me right now.
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"Time to wake up" mom said.
"Already?" I groaned.
"Yup. It's 7:00"
"I didn't even sleep"
"Sorry. But you can't miss school"
"Okay"
I got up and got ready. I feel like shit. I hate how you can't sleep at the night but when it's time to get up you feel sleepy? like what the hell?
"I'm leaving" I said to mom when I was ready.
"You're not having breakfast?" Mom asked.
"Not hungry"
She sighed. "Okay. You better not be sent home today"
"Yeah I know"
"Be good"
"I know"
"Okay, bye sweetie"
"Bye"
I left the door and began walking to school.
I have to do this for mom. I can't let her down and get her all 'depressed' again. Being nice to everyone? I might I well just not talk forever.
Not saying it's a challenge, it's just that everyone hates me so why would I try?
This is gonna be the toughest thing ever.
I stepped on each crack between the sidewalks. Like every kid does when they are little. Trying to take one step and reach the line? yeah, I do that all the time.
When I was at school, everyone was giving me dirty looks.
I deserve it.
I took my phone out and saw another stupid status update.
How creative can she get this time?
I hope Ariana dies of cancer.
What the hell?
I looked at the comments... 37 comments... from different people.
"How rude"
"That's so mean"
"Oh my god"
"What a jerk"
"Wow Justin. don't you know even the smallest bit of manners?"
So from me loving Ariana, to wanting her to die of cancer.
Okay, that makes sense.
I saw Ariana and she just swiftly walk by me, looking sad.
Damn.
"Ariana" I called.
She kept walking.
I chased after her and when I caught up, I put my hand on her shoulder and she turned fast to get my hand off.
"What do you want!?" she spat.
"I'm sorry, but once again, I didn't write it."
"Yeah, I've heard enough of that"
"But it's true. I'm sorry okay?"
"Why are you saying sorry? what happened to calling me a bitch and hating me. Ignoring me when I want to talk to you, and saying shit about me."
"I'm sorry"
"You're late. Very late."
"There's a lot going on"
"Stop making up excuses. I've had enough" she stated.
She walked away and everyone was staring at me.
Ignore them.
I went straight to class and when I sat down beside this girl, she got up and moved to the back.
Basically the 8 seats surrounding me were empty.
What is it? second grade when people had 'cooties'?
Ms. Carter, the new-ish teacher walked in and wrote the date on the board.
"Okay! good morning class- why are the seats empty over there?"
"Who wants to sit near that criminal" someone said, throwing a piece of wrinkled paper at me.
"Hey, hey, hey, don't say things like that. He's not a criminal"
"Then why did he go to jail?" Jenna said like she knew everything.
Ms. Carter sighed and continued on with class.
"You all finished your geography homework right?" she said, rummaging through her bag for a Chapstick.
No one answered.
She looked up, "you didn't finish your homework?" she asked.
"I did" someone said.
"Okay, give me your homework."
Everyone that finished their homework handed it in.
"Everyone stand up. If I called your name you can sit down. Danielle, John, Tessa, Peter, Macy, Justin, Janice, Frank, and Lacy. everyone else, you are staying after school to finish your homework."
Everyone groaned.
"Too bad"
*beep* "Justin from 11F, please come to the office"
Ugh, what now?
I got up from my chair and walked to the office.
I walked in seeing the principle looking pissed.
I cleared my throat. "Yes?" I spoke.
"What do you think you are doing telling people to die of cancer on social media?" he spat.
Oh. My. God.
"The truth is, ask Emily that question" I said.
"Don't blame people. This is your Facebook we are talking about, not Emily's"
"Wha- but she did do it!"
"I am calling your parents. This is violating the code of conduct and you will have consequences"
"What? please don't call my mom."
"Why not?"
"Because you'll pull her from work!"
"Well you should have thought twice"
"We aren't rich ass people like you! my mom needs to make money for the house and all that stuff!"
"Justin, I'm calling them"
Shit.
Mom specifically told me to not get sent home! holy crap I literally just let her down when I said I wasn't.
Who even told on me anyways?
"Um... who told you this?" I asked.
"That's only for me to know"
"But it's my buisness."
"It may be but I have the right not to tell you"
"And I have the right to know, so tell me."
"Would you like your suspension to extend to a week?"
"Suspension? for how long!?"
"A day. I'm only being nice."
I rolled my eyes.
"Oh, two days actually" he said.
"WHA-"
"-should have thought twice"
How many times is Emily and Jenna gonna do this to me?
They are so desperate to get me in trouble, why?
--
Mom walked in looking tired and disappointed.
I gulped a big chunk of air.
"What did you do this time?" she asked in a disappointed tone.
"Nothing" I murmured.
"He told someone on Facebook to die of cancer" the principle said.
Mom looked at me.
"Get in the car" she spat.
I got up and walked to the parking lot.
"I can't believe you!" she said angrily.
"I'm sorry!" I said, getting in the car.
"I specifically told you not to get sent home today."
"Let me talk"
"Okay."
"I didn't do it! this stupid new principal always tells me not to blame people but it's not true! I didn't write that! this girl hacked my Facebook and said so many gross things!"
"The principle is right, don't blame people." She said, starting the car.
I just sat back. I'm not going to talk back. It's already hard enough right now.
"I'm sorry for pulling you out of work" I murmured.
"You better be sorry! I've done this way to many times."
"I know, and I'm so sorry"
She just kept driving.
"By the way, on Wednesday I'm having lunch with your father. You better not misbehave"
"Ew. I thought you- never mind"
"What?"
"Nothing"
"I'm serious"
"I thought you didn't like dad..."
"It's just lunch."
"Okay... What am I gonna have for lunch tomorrow?"
"Why do you care?"
"Because I like food"
"Make your own lunch or go buy it."
"So I'm gonna be all lonely at home?"
"Yes. I'll be at work."
I let out a sigh.
"Oh and, I'm taking your phone and game system away for the week"
"What!? but I need my phone... how else will I contact people?"
"With a home phone"
"What if I'm out?"
"Fine. I'm taking your phone away for the 2 days you're suspended and your game system for 2 weeks."
"Fine."
I can live with that.
No I can't.
--
I threw myself on my bed and went on my phone (Mom didn't take it yet).
I quickly messaged Jenna.
Me: why the hell would you tell on me!?
Jenna: shut up! I'm in class.
Me: no really?
Jenna: I told on you because you are such a jerk. You're not even a gentleman.
Me: damn. When are you people gonna let it go? Why are girls so protective over each other?
Jenna: because...
"JUSTIN! PHONE!" mom yelled.
Shit.
"O-OKAY!" I shouted back.
Me: just tell her I'm sorry
After texting Jenna that, I gave my phone to mom.
I've been suspended way to much.
I think my student record folder is full by now. I've got suspended so many times. I can't remember them all but I think I got suspended twice in elementary school for some reasons and 3 times in middle school for getting into fights..
Damn this is like my seventh time getting suspended.