Y'all heard what happened. Should i explain? I don't think is a good idea.
You kept texting him no matter what. Seeing what goes around makes you feel overthink; whether with the situation or with Abin. It's definitely breaks him more than we all ever imagine.
10:05 a.m.
You texting BeMyEye
(you): abin
(you): abin kamu dimana
(you): bales aku
(you): abin please
(you): tell me you're ok
(you): please reply me asap
BeMyEye: /read/
13:25 p.m.
(you): abin bales
(you): jangan dibaca aja
(you): abin pls i know you're there
(you): pls tell me where you at
(you): this isn't funny anymore
BeMyEye: /read/
17:30 p.m.
(you): abin!
(you): i don't care you against the world
(you): aku gak peduli apa kata orang
(you): aku gak peduli apa yang mereka pikir tentang kamu
(you): aku tau kamu gimana
(you): and i need to know that you're ok
(you): pls break the silence
(you): abin aku kerumah kamu gak ada
(you): aku ke studio juga kamu gak di sana
(you): abin pls...
(you): stay with me no matter what
(you): aku pulang ya
(you): if you need me im home
(you): aku sayang abin
BeMyEye: /read/
19:46 p.m.
Someone knocking your apartement door.
You're exactly remember that you're not ordering any kind of food.
(you): /open the door/
Abin: /suddenly hugs you/
(you): /cry a river/
(you): kamu kemana aja sih?
(you): aku khawatir.
Abin: hey.
Abin: /smile/
Abin: jangan nagis ah, orang aku gak apa-apa.
Abin: see? im ok.
(you): /elap mata/
(you): udah makan?
Abin: /geleng-geleng/
(you): yaudah ayuk makan dulu.
(you): aku buatin nasi goreng ya.
Abin: asik.
After dinner, you and Abin seating on the couch.
Abin lay down on your hips.
(you): /usap kepala Abin/
Abin: /kiss your hand/
Abin: makasih ya.
(you): buat?
Abin: stay with me.
(you): gak usah makasih.
(you): udah kewajiban aku juga.
Abin: /start crying/
Abin: this is so hard.
(you): /bangun/
(you): hey.
(you): /peluk Abin/
Abin: /masih nangis/
Abin: semuanya berat banget rasanya.
Abin: maafin aku.
(you): ssst.
(you): its ok.
(you): gapapa.
(you): kamu gak salah.
(you): stop blaming yourself for something you never did.
Abin: but i did wrong.
Abin: i shouldn't do that.
Abin: yang nanggung kesalahanku bukan cuma aku.
Abin: kamu, mama, anak-anak.
Abin: aku udah malu-maluin kalian semua.
(you): no.
(you): what you did is a good job.
(you): and you did excellent.
Abin: /keep crying/
(you): its ok to cry.
Abin: thank you.
Abin: for always be by my side.
Abin: aku janji gak akan ngecewain siapapun lagi.
Abin: aku nginep ya.
Abin: gak kuat buat ketemu mama sama hanbyul.
Abin: gak tega liat mereka nangis dan kecewa.
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dear Abin, everything will be ok. you never lose anyone of us cos we stay, we never leave you alone. we will aways be by your side. smile, Abin. you're the light in the dark.