"i don't want nobody but you"
chenle's pov
i think i'm in love with jisung.
i've been pushing these feelings away for a while now, because i just don't know what to do about them. he's my best friend, i've known him since we were kids! what if my stupid emotions ruin our friendship? i don't know what i would do without him.
but i don't think i can just avoid them anymore.
lately his smile causes my heart to flutter, small touches have butterflies somersaulting in my stomach, and his eyes seem to pierce through my soul. my heart rate spikes whenever he gets near, and yesterday when our hands intertwined beneath his desk i thought i would pass out.
i've never felt this way towards him before. i used to sit on his lap without thinking twice, arms wrapped around his neck, fingers running through his hair. the touch felt natural, felt safe. but now the interactions send sparks of electricity through my body, the energy coursing through my veins.
when renjun exposed me to all the chinese students at our school yesterday, i realized just how bad it had gotten.
jaemin and jeno had caught on pretty early, as expected of the lovebirds in our group. jaemin caught me staring at jisung once, and told me that i looked like i was looking at the stars. i had brushed him off, but now i think he was right. jisung's the prettiest constellation out there. mark and haechan were next to realize, when my face had been especially flushed while resting on jisung's chest during movie night. but renjun? he's oblivious. he didn't notice xiaojun making moves on him for 4 months. 4. MONTHS. i literally had to tell him that xiaojun had a crush on him, and he had the nerve to be surprised. so the fact that he noticed my feelings for jisung shows that my emotions are practically written on a sign over my head.
so i've come to a conclusion.
i'm whipped.
i'm whipped for park jisung.
and i don't know what the fuck to do.