Chapter 71
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Jimin
So I've been lying in my bed
Jimin
And as you know thoughts wander when you're lying in your bed trying to sleep
Yoongi
What is it?
Jimin
If we were to... you know
Yoongi
Am I talking to a child right now?
Jimin
If we were to fuck
Jimin
Who'd top?
Yoongi
That is a good question
Jimin
I mean apparently from what Jessie said you have a bigger dick than me
Jimin
And you're taller
Jimin
Which according to very trustworthy websites in gay means you'd top
Yoongi
Very trustworthy
Yoongi
Those are stereotypes but go ahead
Jimin
Now leaving stereotypes aside
Jimin
Who would actually top?
Jimin
I mean you have decided that you prefer topping when you're with guys
Jimin
And I've only been with girls to begin with
Jimin
So neither of us has bottomed so far
Jimin
What do we do?
Yoongi
Just... wait how it turns out?
Yoongi
Honestly I wouldn't spend too much time worrying
Yoongi
We'll find a way that works
Jimin
If shit happens between us
Jimin
Like touchy feely shit
Jimin
And I don't know how long it will take because it's still so weird that you're a guy
Jimin
But if we get to that point
Jimin
I might be willing to try to bottom
Jimin
No promises though
Jimin
I have yet to watch gay porn and I'm highly uncomfortable with the thought
Jimin
But I might be willing to try
Yoongi
Seriously?
Yoongi
I'm honestly really surprised
Yoongi
And sure take your time
Yoongi
Wow
Yoongi
I did not expect that tbh
Yoongi
You have my respect
Yoongi
You've grown so much since we started chatting
Yoongi
And seriously don't put pressure on yourself because of it
Yoongi
If you decide you don't wanna do it it's totally okay
Jimin
I know
Jimin
I know that you won't force me
Yoongi
Where did that suddenly come from?
Yoongi
Not that it's a bad thing
Yoongi
Just really unexpected
Jimin
I don't know
Jimin
I feel like I'm still clinging onto those classic toxic masculinity traits somehow
Jimin
And I try not to
Jimin
But I keep going back to it instead of getting comfortable
Jimin
You're the only one around whom I don't end up doing that shit
Jimin
And I feel like it might help
Jimin
Because it's one of these things that kind of make me want to panic
Yoongi
I'm not sure about that reasoning ._.
Yoongi
That you panic about it shouldn't be a reason for you to try it
Jimin
It's more about getting over stuff like that
Jimin
To let go of the feeling that doing things like bottoming has anything to do with me not being a guy
Jimin
Or reduces me to something less masculine
Jimin
No idea how to properly describe it though
Yoongi
I mean that's good but shouldn't you start of some other way?
Yoongi
Not heavy shit like that right away?
Jimin
I mean I already am
Jimin
Dating a guy, cuddling and shit are all things I would have shat myself over in the past
Yoongi
I'm laughing
Yoongi
You're pretty chill honestly
Yoongi
Or at least seem to be around me?
Yoongi
I really don't think you have much to work on anymore
Jimin
You sure?
Jimin
Because I still end up feeling pretty weird when ppl see us and stuff like that
Jimin
I mean I'm okay with it
Jimin
But I spend way too much time thinking about what they might think
Yoongi
That's pretty normal
Yoongi
Caring about what people think
Yoongi
That has nothing to do with toxic masculinity
Jimin
But you're so chill about it every time
Jimin
I wish I could be more like you when it comes to this
Yoongi
Of course I care too
Yoongi
I'm not as chill as you think
Yoongi
I get anxious when we're holding hands in public too
Yoongi
I'm just better at hiding it
Yoongi
And I had no idea that it bothers you
Yoongi
Honestly if it does you can just tell me
Yoongi
We can stop or reduce it
Yoongi
There's stuff you don't have to do in public
Yoongi
And that's really totally okay
Yoongi
I mean like kissing and holding hands
Yoongi
Other public shit doesn't stand for discussion yet ;p
Jimin
But I want to
Jimin
No no sexual stuff
Jimin
I just feel weird about it at times
Jimin
The normal stuff
Jimin
When I suddenly think about it
Jimin
I don't know
Jimin
I am not good at explaining
Yoongi
Overthinking is okay though
Yoongi
It's good to question everything we do at times
Yoongi
I'm too tired for topics like this right now though
Yoongi
Anyways just be chill about it
Yoongi
It's okay if we take it slow
Yoongi
It's okay if we take it fast
Yoongi
And it's totally okay if you end up thinking about everything
Yoongi
And it's okay to question it
Yoongi
Or not feel comfortable with it
Yoongi
That's normal
Yoongi
And you can always talk to me about it
Yoongi
I won't judge
Jimin
Thanks
Jimin
I've been feeling a bit weird lately if I'm honest
Jimin
But I wasn't sure whether to tell you
Jimin
Because I really want this to work
Jimin
I just end up having my doubts too
Yoongi
That's totally okay
Yoongi
And come on we're friends (yeah I know that's not the official title anymore)
Yoongi
You can tell me everything
Jimin
Friends pfffff
Jimin
We're dating
Jimin
You're more than a friend now
Jimin
And I will try to be open
Jimin
Sorry if I end up not telling you something though
Jimin
It's not because I want to keep secrets
Jimin
It's just that it can be hard to talk about stuff like that especially when said person is affected by it
Yoongi
Come on
Yoongi
Just tell me
Yoongi
That makes it funny usually
Yoongi
Like how shy you're at times around me
Yoongi
Omg it would be so funny if I would make you shy or something
Yoongi
And you'd tell me honestly
Yoongi
Jokes aside tho
Yoongi
Just be open with me
Yoongi
It's easy
Jimin
NOT FOR ME
Yoongi
It's just me
Jimin
Yeah it's you
Jimin
The guy with the ridiculously pretty ex who apparently was super nice too
Jimin
Who also did porn with girls with probably unrealistically perfect bodies
Jimin
And plans on producing music in the future
Jimin
Yeah nothing to shit myself over
Jimin
No expectations
Jimin
I'm okay
Yoongi
Awwww
Yoongi
This is kind of cute
Yoongi
And chill
Yoongi
I'm not as amazing as you think I am
Yoongi
Although I'm flattered
Yoongi
I didn't expect you to think of me like that tbh
Yoongi
But honestly you think that's something to worry about?
Yoongi
You can totally keep up with everyone
Yoongi
You have an amazing body and you know it... you have to know it
Yoongi
A sexy/attractive/cute face
Yoongi
Your character is great
Yoongi
I swear
Yoongi
I feel super comfortable around you
Yoongi
And honestly if one of us plays in a different league than the other it's you with money
Yoongi
Me:
Uhm hey I'm doing alright right now
You:
sO i JuSt GoT tHiS nEw fErRaRi
Jimin
Hey who cares about money
Yoongi
Literally everyone
Jimin
Fair enough
Jimin
Well I don't care
Jimin
You're the best
Yoongi
You too
Yoongi
Now are we gonna keep complimenting each other?
Yoongi
Or are you just gonna accept that there's no reason to feel scared because I'm apparently so much more mature than you._.
Yoongi
Maybe we should talk about something else tho
Yoongi
I'm really too tired for this type of talk rn
Jimin
I mean I like the compliments
Jimin
I accept that fact that you're not superior I guess?
Jimin
But let's talk about... uhm
Jimin
I don't know
Jimin
Oh right
Jimin
Movies
Jimin
Have we talked about Iron man before
Jimin
I'm highkey obsessed with Tony Stark
Yoongi
He's cool
Yoongi
He's an asshole
Yoongi
The type of asshole you just end up liking
Yoongi
The third movie was amazing
Yoongi
I love how they work with PTSD
Jimin
They do?
Jimin
I forgot
Yoongi
._.
Yoongi
That's literally all the third movie was about
Jimin
Really?
Jimin
...
Jimin
We should watch it together
Jimin
I'll come over and we can watch it now~
Yoongi
Don't you dare
Yoongi
Jimin
Yoongi
We made the deal that today is my free day
Yoongi
We don't live together, please accept giving me some peace and quiet every once in a while too
Yoongi
I really need it
Jimin
:(
Jimin
I'm saaaad
Jimin
You don't want me
Yoongi
Jimin I want to have you around and I love hanging out with you
Yoongi
But 24/7 Jimin is too much for me to handle
Yoongi
I'm an introvert
Yoongi
Loner
Yoongi
I need my precious alone time
Jimin
I'm okay
Jimin
I'm not crying
Jimin
;---;
Yoongi
Cheer up
Yoongi
Jimin
You can't buy my happiness with cats
Yoongi
Jimin
Nevermind maybe you can
Jimin
I'm still sad tho
Yoongi
Cheer up
Yoongi
You're officially invited to sleep over tomorrow okay?
Jimin
Okay deal
Jimin
I can take that
Yoongi
You're so easy
Jimin
So ironman 3?
Yoongi
Ironman 3
Jimin
I'm looking forward to it!!!!
Jimin
I'll let you have your alone time now
Jimin
I'm here if you wanna talk tho
Yoongi
How long are planning on staying awake._.
Jimin
Good question
Jimin
We'll see
Yoongi
Good night Jimin
Jimin
Gn<3
A/N
Just on a side note... the topic of Jimin being a little overbearing sometimes is something they have talked about a bunch of times even if it's not written out.
Jimin knows Yoongi needs some time alone. He's just also really clingy and gets whiny when Yoongi tells him the time has come.
Yoongi is okay with that though as long as Jimin respects his boundaries.
I'll warn you guys btw when there's a smut chapter although that's still in the future.
Love ya'll<3
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