the boy from the library//andley ddlb

i think i need help

i'm really sorry but if anyone actually sees this can they tell me if intentionally eating about 800 calories or less would be taking it far enough to be considered anorexia, because i haven't been eating normally for god knows how long and at first it was just kinda me not eating a lot, but over a while it became intentional to the point were i am actually counting calories now. on top of that my depression is getting worse and my anxiety is terrible and i think i might be borderline suicidal and i don't know what to do because there's so much i want to do in life that i won't get to do if i kill myself and i know that even if i didn't have anything i wanted to do in life i still wouldn't have the guts to kill my self. but what if it gets worse and i actually do finally have the guts to do it and i do it and i'm gone, what do i do then. i hope no one thinks i do this shit for attention because this fucking sucks ass and i wouldn't wish it upon anyone.