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Chapter Thirty-Eight – Shawn
I would wear her down eventually. It was taking some time but she was starting to come around to me, at least she admitted she did indeed have feelings for me. At least I knew that and it wasn't just me being an idiot trying to go after someone who can't stand me.
I had spent my free time over with her and Lalexia and slowly the poor thing was getting better. Lex finally got to the point where she could go to school and stay a whole day, I waited to make sure she could go a couple days full time before I decided I was taking Mari on a date and she would have to deal with it.
"Thank you for everything." Mari told me after she came back to her place after dropping Lex off at school.
"Of course, but now it's time you make it up to me." I went over to her and wrapped my arms around her and I was happy that she didn't tense; she just leaned back into me.
"Oh god, what do you want?" she groaned and I lightly kissed her neck making her breath hitch before I kissed up to the shell of her ear making her let out a low moan.
"You have to go on a date with me." I told her and she tensed but I held her tight
"Shawn." She complained and I smiled
"No getting out of it honey, I want to take you out and I'm not taking no for an answer." I informed her and she turned to face me but I didn't let go so her body was pressed flush to mine and she gave me a small smile.
"I know; you're so stubborn." She sighed and I leaned down to kiss her and she closed her eyes and wrapped her arms around me to kiss me back. She was so damn intoxicating, I wanted her, I wanted all of her.
"I am when I see something I want, and I want you so bad." I felt her body's reaction to me as I kissed her neck softly. I liked her so much and this week just made that grow; I wanted to be with her but I don't think she's ready to allow that yet.
She doesn't trust people and I understand that. I still haven't told her all my secrets, some big ones actually, but I was hoping to get there.
"For sex." She said trying to distance herself from me, physically and emotionally.
"Don't fucking go there Mari, do you think I just spend over a week here with you and Lex because I wanted to have sex with you. No, I'm here because I care about you both so stop pushing me away. You have feelings for me, go out with me." I kissed her neck as I spoke because I knew I had an effect on her.
"What if it goes wrong?" she asked and I lightly sucked on her neck making her let out a low moan as I ran my hands under her shirt and across her stomach.
"What if it doesn't." I countered. I promised nothing, but I couldn't walk away from her. I felt way too much, more than I should and probably more than I would be willing to admit. She was nothing like any other woman I've ever met before.
I've never met a woman who stood up to me, who was feisty and opinionated and damn she was attractive. I loved her hips and her breasts and her slight tummy. She hated her body, it changed a lot from being a mom but I think it made her a lot sexier.
"You're so frustrating." She groaned and turned back to face me again and she peered up at me and then wrapped her arms around me and she initiated the kiss this time and I held her tighter to me.
"Mari, this isn't what I planned on today." I groaned as she bit down on my shoulder. I put my hands on her hips and held her at arms-length to stop her. It wasn't that I didn't want her because fucking hell, I did. It was so hard to tell her no right now, so fucking difficult. I guess it shouldn't be surprising, seductive and sexy was part of her job description. She was good at what she did because she was near irresistible to men; she knew how to work what she had.
"And what did you have planned to do to, I mean with me?" she smirked at me and I just closed my eyes and looked to the ceiling, please let me find strength, please! I took a deep breath and opened my eyes
"Get your ass upstairs and change into something warmer than shorts and a t-shirt and we're going out." I told her and nudged her towards her room and couldn't help but give her ass a playful smack which she glared at me before heading to her room.
She came out ten minutes later in jeans and a long sleeve shirt with a scarf wrapped around her neck, it was late fall, early winter now. It was time for the other men in my company to come home soon, but I wasn't really ready to think about that yet.
I loved that it took her ten minutes to get ready and she barley had any make up on. I guess spending years with way too much make up on made you not really want to wear it anymore.
"Oh thank god you have more clothes on." I said I don't know what I would have done if she gave her next attempt at seducing me because I for sure would have caved, I almost did with the way she kissed me and suggested sex.
"You act like you have no self-control." She brushed up against me and whispered in my ear.
I grabbed her arm and put my hands on her hips so I could put her on the table and I stepped between her parted thighs.
"That because I don't kitty. I'd love you naked and sweaty and moaning and panting and screaming underneath me right now, I love that I make you feel how no other man has." I invaded her personal space
"It's sex, which is something I happen to master in Shawn. I've had a lot of it so what makes you so special?" She smirked but it didn't hurt my feelings nor my pride.
"Because last week you, my little minx, dragged me to the ground so you fuck me harder. Our little sleep overs and the obvious fact that I'm not paying you so sleep with me, you're doing it because you want to." She pressed her lips to mine and wrapped her legs around me.
I kissed her harder and I pushed her back onto the table and got on it to hover over her. She was so fucking hard to resist, I was stubborn and so was she, I was trying to set my mind on taking her out and she had set hers on sex, one of us would have to cave.
She pressed her hips up against mine and I groaned as I pushed back and her nails dug into my back. I grabbed her wrists and pinned them down by her head.
For fucks sake we were acting like horny teenagers with no self-control.
"No sex. I'm not having sex with you now or anytime today. We are going out and picking up Lex and watching How To Train Your Dragon again tonight after dinner." I said and she let her head fall back.
"You pick now to find some self-control?" she groaned and I smiled at her, her eyes were darkened with lust as she looked up and I had to fight not to look at her large and amazing breasts as her chest rose and fell rapidly.
"Mari, I like you and I want to actually take you out and spend time with you without us being naked or without an adorable little girl always there. I want time with you, alone."
"Fine. We'll go out, but this whole no sex thing tonight, is it really necessary?" she asked and I liked that she was desperately wanting to sleep with me, it may take a little time but eventually I'll make her that way, with our clothes on.
"Yes, because not hearing those moans you make and how you scream for more is killing me and I need you at my place for that." I didn't like that she held herself back; I wanted her to show me exactly how she felt.
"This weekend, Lex is going to Marla's to spend the weekend with Eva and Todd." She told me "She goes every other weekend now." She finished and I was going to use this to my advantage.
"This weekend, only if we go right now and we don't have sex until then, and you have to let me pay for groceries when I'm there for dinner." She frowned
"You're always over for dinner lately." She pointed out and I couldn't hold back the slight smirk.
"Exactly. I can't have you paying for me to eat and since you won't actually let me pay you to cook for me this is the best that I can accomplish." I said and she sighed
"Fine, only when you're eating." She finally caved. We were still lying on the table and I had let her wrists go and was running my hand up and down the outside of her thigh and this position wasn't uncomfortable, it was intimate and I liked it.
"Good, now let's go grab lunch." I told her and helped her up and before I could change my mind I grabbed her hand and brought her outside, in public, away from a bedroom, not that it would stop me in the slightest.
"Where at?" she asked and she came to a halt when we came to my motorcycle but i didn't answer
I took her down to this little diner that was near the beach, which was pretty empty since it was cold outside.
"This is cute." She said and I smiled at her, this place was kind of a test, I've gone on dates with girls who expected a whole hell of a lot more than a simple beach diner. They wanted expensive and some ate next to nothing and I loved that Mari wasn't afraid to eat when she was hungry and hated me spending money on her.
"It's kind of a hidden place of mine." It was farther up the beach where more people didn't go.
"What's good here?" she opened her menu and I just watched her "What?" she asked and I smirked
"The shrimp is the best, in my opinion." I told her and she sighed
"Lex is."
"Not here." I finished for her, I knew Lalexia couldn't eat it but Mari liked it and this was our date, she could eat whatever she wanted
"True." She looked thoughtfully at the menu when a waitress came over and brought us water and asked if we needed anything.
"Any appetizers?" Our waitress asked and I didn't miss the way she eyed Mari. Usually I attracted desperate female attention and I've had a couple of them send dirty looks at my dates in the past, but that wasn't what this was. This waitress was looking at Mari like she would eat her up right here.
"Can we get jalapeño poppers to start?" Mari smiled at her and she nodded but the waitresses eyes glanced down to the dip of her shirt before writing it down.
"Of course." The waitress said, Lola was the name on her tag. She left and I couldn't help but chuckle.
"So what's your favorite?" Mari asked me and I thought about it
"The shrimp pasta." I said and she smiled
"Good, because I want shrimp and steak so that means I can steal a bite of that, or a few." She added shyly "I know, I'm fat." She huffed and I rolled my eyes
"You're not fat honey." The endearment came out of nowhere and she looked at me curiously.
We've been doing this dance for almost three weeks now, we were dating but not, we were going through the motions of a relationship but we weren't actually in one. We spent time together and despite me telling myself not to keep getting attached, I already was.
I didn't know if I was ready for it though. It was already a big step to feel serious with a girl but if I moved forward I would have to be a father figure as well and that though terrified me. I didn't know the first thing about that.
We ordered our food and the waitress flirted with her and then left us to eat.
It was a nice date, but I thought she deserved more. After lunch I grabbed her hand and we walked down on the pier. Personally, this was my favorite time of year and this was one of my favorite places. I loved being here with her, sharing this with her.
"I'd like to take you out to dinner Friday night after you drop off Lex, a nice dinner." I told her and she sighed
"I'm not one for that kind of thing." She told me as she leaned away from me, our hands pulling as we walked and then she would come back to my side to do it again, it was cute.
"I know but I would really like to be more with you Mari." I told her and I pulled her to me and stopped so she had to face me. I grabbed her other hand and she look up at me torn.
"I still have a client, Shawn. And I know you well enough to know that it bothers you and that when I sleep with him, you'll be angry and jealous." She did have me there, a few weeks ago I wouldn't have minded but now, now I didn't want to share.
"Of course I'll be jealous because I want you to be mine, I don't want to share you, I just want you to be with me but I'm not going to hate you. How long until you drop him?" I asked her and she shrugged
"I don't know, we've became friends over the years. I would have to see if he would be okay if Marla took over." I liked that, he was her last one, I wanted him gone.
"How long is he here?" I asked
"Two weeks." She informed me
"Well I guess then I'll have to get by without you for two weeks and order take out, and after he leaves we can see how things go." I wasn't going to promise her anything. It bothered me and I couldn't be around her when she was with him, it would feel wrong.
"You won't like it." she said and I shrugged
"I can live if it's the last time, It's not a secret who you are and I'm not going to hold it against you." maybe two weeks apart would do us good, it would show feelings that were there or we would lose interest.
"He'll be here in about four weeks."
"Fine, just." I put my cold hand on her cool cheek I didn't know what I really wanted to say except I was truly falling for her.
She wasn't perfect and it's what I liked most about her, she didn't try to hid things, she didn't lie to me, she was upfront about herself. Sure we all had secrets but that wasn't a big deal. I liked her because she was another tortured soul and she was different and feisty.
"Shut up." She said and she threw her arms around me and kissed me.
Over the weeks with her I've really stared to see I'm so much less angry than I was, I don't smoke because I'm not stressed, I don't drink because she doesn't. I take better care of myself and sure as hell eat better.
She was the girl I never thought I would ever find.
The one who made me want to settle down and be a better person. I cursed a lot less because of Lex and I let them rely on me, taking that responsibility.
I'm not ready for marriage and being a father or anything but I could do boyfriend and being Lex's friend. For me that was a big step in what I would hope to be the right direction.
We spent time out at the end of the dock until we got too cold to stay out there and we went back to her place for her to make hot chocolate and we curled up on the couch watching normal movies until it was time to go and pick up Lalexia, and this time she let me come with her. She wasn't going to dance because she was still a little under the weather so I took her to the couch and gave her he medicine Mari wanted and I suckered her into watching 'How To Train Your Dragon' while Mari cooked dinner.
She would pop in every now and then and she gave me that all knowing look so I didn't have to actually admit I was the one who wanted to watch it, this movie is very addicting and I think I'm going to have to buy it.