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𝐵𝓎 𝑜𝓃𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻
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Waking up this morning I felt restless,
Jimin was nowhere to be found.
My whole body was aching and full
of purple marks from last night, I couldn't say how much
I hated this decision but I tried calling Jimin.
The dial tone was making me rethink my choices
until he actually picked up.
''Jungkook''
He said without any emotion.
''Jimin... Uh, wh-where are you?''
I stuttered out, remembering everything that happened just by hearing his voice.
''I'm.. with a lady friend, it doesn't matter''
It seems as if he was feeling rushed to answer, his breathing was short and ragged.
It made my mind go insane.
Is Jimin is embracing someone else?..
''I see... well, take care of... yourself''
Jimin didn't answer back, there was a long pause
then the phone call ended right there.
That's when my loneliness began to form itself,
my depression consumed me for the past 4 days and it kept
getting worse the more I hoped for Jimin to come home but,
realizing that the apartment is empty... just like the day before
and the day before that.
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College was getting unbearable, my classmates kept asking me
to go out and revisit that club but I denied their offer.
I couldn't stop skipping courses on purpose
to get away from everyone, especially Min-Seo who keeps
talking about my stepbrother, reminding me of my mistakes.
I felt the urge... the urge to relive that one night.
I couldn't stop calling out his name nor could I stop
the feeling of being so weak.
''Jimin...''
I repeatedly whispered in the empty apartment,
my urge grew bigger and bigger the more I moved
and called out his name.
Within seconds, the urge was gone and I was sitting there
on my bed, feeling messy.
''I'm the lowest''
I thought to myself.
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