The last goodbye.

January 1st, 2018

My name is Ryan Goodman. I'm 14, and in the 8th grade. I live in Springfield,
Illinois. I've been through a hell of a lot. I was diagnosed with depression at age 8 when my mom left and my dad and I moved back to Tennessee. Then, at age 11, I was diagnosed with Anxiety and ADHD. My father put me up for adoption around age 13 after i was sent to my second mental facility. I ended up being adopted by a really nice but overprotective family. When i started attending the school here, most people would refer to me as a freak. I didn't have many friends other then my best friend Joshua Freeman. Oh, and I guess I should tell you, I wasn't born a male. I was born a female named Riley. But, as it turns out, I am in fact a male. I was diagnosed with dysphoria when I was 12. I start Testosterone in a few months, once they finalize the order. I have a boyfriend aswell, his name is Caleb. While I have a lot of mental issues, for some reason, Caleb deals with me. Caleb isn't gay, or he wasn't anyway. We've been together for almost 2 years. He was with me before I made my transition. And he decided that it didn't matter what my gender was, he'd be there and stay with me regardless because he loves me. If i'm being honest, I've always had a thing for Joshua. Not a huge thing, I love Caleb, but I've always like Joshua. I'm honestly so thankful that I have him around. Joshua just understands me in ways nobody else has ever been able to do. it's fascinating honestly. Anyway, my brother is calling me for dinner, so i'll have to fill you in more later.