Disconnected

Last date

We've been dreading this very day since we first started touring. The day we have to separate for SIX WHOLE MONTHS. For 6 whole months there won't be any Calum cuddles, or new memories, just the three of us, Lauren, Vanessa and I. Plus Australia. I think it's odd how Australia is the home of 5sos and America is the home of TNV. But that's not the weird part. The weird part is we are leaving 5sos to tour Australia, and they are leaving us for America. Today is our last night on the bus. I hold mikey for hours. In silence with the occasional "I'm gonna miss you" Lauren is siting on the couch next to Vanessa all snuggled up with calum and ash watching their favorite movie with popcorn and blankets. Vanessa and Luke lay across each other in the top bunks talking and reminiscing about all the incredible moments of the "Tell me about it" tour. We all have our ways of saying goodbye but I wish we never had too. I love all the boys and the girls. So much some days I wish we were all in the same band. I keep telling myself "it's only 6 months" but nothing's making me feel better. For now I just forget about it and hold mikey even tighter. We wake up at 6:33am in the same place we were all laying last night. I roll over and get up. Start packing my bags and for a second I almost change my mind about going on separate tours. But Lauren reassures me that we wanted this for a reason. Vanessa tells me that we have the opportunity we've always wanted. I love them to the moon and back a trillion times. Sisters, literally siblings by heart.