Today, I have so much to do. Since Xavier is becoming Alpha today, I must prepare the food and clean until it is spotless.
Although they don't want me to, I have to to go to ceremony. Everyone must be there to honor their new alpha. I tried to argue along with Micah, but that got me a swift smack and an order from Marcus that everyone must be there. The smallest of children to the worthless runts. His words. Not mine.
I get up at 5:00 in the morning and change quickly into long brown skirt and a long sleeved dirty white shirt. It was probably the nicest clothes I owned. I put my hair in a ponytail and go to start breakfast. I've decided to make some pancakes, sausages, and eggs and some fruit. As the sausages are cooking, I put the plates and cups down and go to make some orange juice. I quickly make the food and then start to chop up fruit.
I finished putting food on the plates as pack members started coming in.
"Hey bitch. Where the hell is my food?" Zach, a mean pack member asks with a smirk. He was my personal favorite to annoy. When I embarrassed him, it was always easy to tell since his cheeks would turn bright red.
"Up your ass, dick." I respond before smiling and returning to work. I can see the red move across his face, and unfortunately, his eyes get that evil look in them.
I take a deep breath as Zach comes up to me and pulls my hair, hard. I gasp and pull away before kicking him in the balls. I put my hand to my head and laugh at his expression.
I see Micah glaring at me. I gulp and run into the kitchen. I eat what's left which isn't much. A pancake and a few pieces of fruit. I chug a glass of water before cleaning the mess the pack left.
I use the rest of the day to clean the house until it's spotless and then go take a shower in the small bathroom upstairs before grabbing the dress I was given for the ceremony. I got the only dress they had left.
I love it. It's a light green and goes down to almost my knees with lace near the bottom. The sleeves came down to my elbows and I put on my only good shoes. White flats.
I brush my wavy hair and then look at my reflection. I actually look somewhat good. My hair is a bit poofy and the dress doesn't exactly fit, but compared to my usual clothes, it felt nice to wear something like this.
I walk downstairs and see everyone else dressed. All the girls have beautiful, elegant dresses. The men all look dashing. I see Micah and Steven talking to each other and I feel a small pain in my heart. My brothers and I used to have the best time. We always would laugh and play games, tell funny stories and they could talk to me about anything. We used to be best friends. Now, all I get is hatred. Cruel words and evil glances.
The old beta comes out and says they are ready. Micah walks out first as he is going to be beta. Xavier and Micah are best friends apparently. Don't know how I missed that, but I guess I have been occupied by other activities like, you know, being abused.
Everyone walks out and I'm the last one out. As I glance around I see Michelle, probably the meanest bitch I have ever met. She has a short black dress and her blonde hair that reaches her shoulders is curled to perfection. She has tall heels and walks like she owns the place. I hate her and she's an idiot, but she looks so beautiful.
I look down at my feet as I walk.
The ceremony begins. I can't see much or hear much as I'm pushed to the back and everyone is towering over me.
I don't mind that I can't hear much. I take the time to relax and observe the pack members around me. Although I know I deserve a glance at my new alpha, I know that nobody really cares so no point in fighting it. Finally I hear a shout and everyone around me cheers.
Everyone soon everyone goes to the party afterwards. I get pushed around as people move and I shove back saying "Move it!"
I walk towards the pack house and I hear a whimper in my head.
What the hell?
"It's me, your wolf."
My wolf? "Where the hell have you been??" I scream back in my head.
I'm so concentrated on my wolf I don't look where I'm going before I bump into a wall. A wall with arms that grabbed me before I could fall and sent tingles through my body.
I look up and gasp.
"Mate!" my wolf exclaims. Oh, this bitch.
His beautiful blue-grey eyes widen as he realizes who I am. I smile brightly when he tightens his grip. I found him. I found him!
But my smile soon fades when he looks at me in a way I am used to being looked at. He looks at me with disgust and anger. He turns around and then pushes me up against a wall away from everyone else in a dark corner. He looks over his shoulder to make sure that no one saw us.
As I look deeper into his eyes, I feel this great sense of power radiating off of him. I realize it's my new Alpha. Great! He can take me away from all this pain. He'll make sure no one hurts me.
"I never thought this would happen. Everyone is so mean to me, but since you're my mate you can-"
"Shut up! I'm not your mate." he growls.
I hear my wolf whimper. "What? No you're my mate. Don't you feel that?" I say, bringing my hands to his face.
"You think I would actually stay with you? I was hoping my mate would be beautiful and smart and worth it. Not someone who can't control their anger and kills their own parents. You're an evil bitch who deserves to rot in hell," he says in an enraged tone. He moves my hands from his face.
I stare at him, trying to catch my breath while tears fall down my face. I can't help it. I had never have I felt such pain, not since my parents died. Even then, I didn't have my wolf's pain to feel along with my own. It feels like my heart is shattering into a million pieces. I let out a sob before looking back up at him. "No. No you don't mean that. You're supposed to love me and-and save me from those horrible people. I didn't kill my parents! That was an accident. It was rogues! I swear! I swear it was rogues. They wanted to kill me and my parents saved me. I was- I was outside! Please..please don't do this." If he rejects me, I don't know what I'd do. I'd not only have to stay in this hell hole with these terrible people, but I wouldn't have my love. I wouldn't have my mate. My gorgeous mate. He can't reject me.
His eyes are so beautiful and he has a lot of muscle. He has high cheek bones and towers over me since he's a foot taller. He's so strong. He smells amazing. Like the forest and rain. I love it. But the anger in his eyes frighten me and makes my wolf whimper. I don't want him to be mad at me. I don't think I can handle the pain of my mate rejecting me.
"I, Xavier Black, Alpha of the Blood Night pack, reject you, Lucy Mason, as my mate and future Luna." He says it so quickly, without hesitation.
I hear my wolf cry in agony and I feel my heart break more. I can't respond. I feel more tears coming and loud sobs escape me.
"But without you, without your protection, I'll be treated like this forever. Everyone will still hate me and you-please just please don't..."
"Shut up!" He pushed me against the wall, I think harsher than he intended based on his grimace on his face when I hit the wall. He lets me go and I fall to the floor. I look up at him and he has a pained expression but it's replaced with anger and disgust and he turns around and walks out.
I curl up on the floor and sob harder.
This is literally hell. I don't think I've ever felt so much pain. My tears can't stop flowing. Getting enough oxygen feels impossible. Not only did he reject me, he pushed me. I never thought my own mate would hurt me.
I hear other people coming closer so I get up and run to the lake. I come here any time I'm super upset since no one usually comes here. I sit down on the edge, getting my dress all dirty. I don't care. I don't care about anything. I can't feel anything, except pain.
After about an hour, I feel this horrible, burning pain in my heart. I hear my wolf whimpering loudly and howl in pain. I scream when the pain becomes unbearable. It feels as though I'm on fire.
"What's happening?" I ask my wolf.
"Xavier" she whimpers. "He is with another girl. He is having sex with another girl." I cry harder and lay on the floor until finally the pain is gone. I take deep breaths to calm myself down.
I finally stop crying after hours. I look up at the full moon and hear the other wolves howl. I just sit there until around 3 a.m. Finally, I head upstairs to my room and go to sleep, but not before my wolf lets out a long mournful cry in my head.
Authors Note: Damn, 13 year old me was a good writer, this was so sad.