...

This feeling is killing me

This pain is overwhelming

This pressure .... I cant handel it anymore

I know I have to fight but I cant

My body is exhausted and my mind is drowning in self hate ..

I hate myself

Ihate every inch of my body

I hate hearing how my heart pounds

I hate waking up every morning knowing that I have to fight against my will

I just want a break ...

I feel like drowning but I only fall deeper and deeper and it never stops....

I don't want to disappoint people...

I hate that it still happens..

I just want it all to stop....

I feel like I am trapped... and there is no way out

I don't know what to do anymore...

I feel like there is no other option left..

but I will fail....like I do every time

I cant do anything right

I just want to

...

die