#ILWTG38 Chapter 38
Yago asked me if it's okay for me to go to his hotel room because he had medicine kit there and he wanted to treat the scratches I got from Millie. Nang banggitin niya iyon ay doon lang ako napa-tingin sa mga galos sa braso ko. That bitch! Kinuha na nga iyong pera ko, kinalmot pa ako! 'Di ko talaga akalain na pupulutin niya isa-isa iyong mga pera. I'd always known that Millie valued her pride... She must've been in a whole lot of trouble for her to throw her dignity and pick up the money.
Sandaling nawala si Yago para kuhanin iyong sinasabi niyang medicine kit. I quickly called someone before I looked around the hotel room. I looked around for any sign of women being in here... but so far, wala akong nakita. I wanted to be mature in this relationship. If he had been with someone while we were apart, I'd be fine with it. I'd be hurt, but it wasn't his fault. I didn't want to let my emotions rule over me. I wanted to talk things out with him. I didn't want to waste years again.
Sandali pa akong naghintay pero hindi na ako naka-tiis. I stood up and began to look for him. I saw him in the CR, trying to look for the damned medicine kit in the drawer.
"Yago," I called his name.
"Sandali lang," sabi niya. "Wala yata dito. Magrerequest na lang ako sa baba."
Mabilis siyang pumunta palapit sa telepono. I heard him requesting for cotton, alcohol, and other stuff that I couldn't understand because I was too drawn into staring at his face. This jerk... I was still so madly attracted. That face. That jaw. That nose. That... that fucking lips.
God, no more waiting.
I quickly walked towards him and bridged the space that fucking separated us. Yago looked at me with his forehead creased, but I didn't give him the chance to question me because I quickly grabbed his face and kissed him on the lips.
"Rory," he said in between kisses. I couldn't help myself! It's like he got me so fucking addicted and then one day, he just disappeared! "I thought we'd talk," he continued as I began to unbuckle his belt.
"Later," I replied against his lips as I successfully got off his belt. I began unbutton his pants. "God, I missed you."
I looked him in the eyes. He was looking at me.
"Don't you want this?" I asked him because he wasn't undressing me like he used to. Dati, mas nauuna pa akong mahubaran kaysa sa kanya. This just... this felt different.
"Of course I want this. I just thought we'd talk."
"We'd have lots of time for talking later, Yago."
He continued to look at me, seemingly still unsure of what he'd do next. So, I did what has to be done. I pushed him on the bed and sat on him.
"Don't make me beg," I said as I hovered above him. "I might just."
I saw him gulping. And breathing. Deeply.
"Okay," he said before he quickly changed our position with him on top of me. Suddenly, I couldn't breathe again. He was kissing me, not letting go of my lips for any more second. Mabilis kong naramdaman ang paghawak niya sa bawat parte ng katawan ko. I could feel him caressing my arm, his hands going inside my shirt. I could feel him pushing my bra upwards and his fingers pinching my nipples.
God.
Why did we fucking break up?!
Yago let go of my lips and quickly tugged my shirt upwards. Nang matanggal niya iyong pang-itaas ko, mabilis niyang itinapon iyon. I grabbed a handful of his hair when I felt his mouth on my breasts. Shit, Yago! Fuck you for starving me for years!
"Oh, my god," I breathed.
My breathing hitched even higher when I felt his hand in between my legs. I bit my lip so hard when I felt him push my underwear to the side and trace me using his fingers.
"Ever since I met you, it's only been you," he said as I felt his fingers inside me, his eyes only on me.
Palalim nang palalim an paghinga ko.
Mabilis akong kumapit sa balikat niya habang naka-tingin sa mga mata niya.
"Shit," I cursed when I felt him fastening his pace. Pahigpit nang pahigpit ang pagkakahawak ko sa balikat niya. I could feel it. Shit. I fucking missed this. Fuck Millie!
Yago made me feel the rush that I tasted rust inside my mouth. I saw him watching me as he brought me so fucking high that I could barely breath. Nakita ko kung paano siyang naka-tingin sa akin, sa bawat paggalaw ng dibdib ko, sa bawat paggalaw ng mga mata ko.
Humihingal ako nang itulak ko siya paalis sa ibabaw ko. His eyes were questioning, in panic. But I just wanted to get on top of him.
"Ysmael Agosto," I said as I straddled him.
He didn't answer, but his eyes were on me.
Only on me.
"I love you," I continued. "Let's never break up again."
His lips parted.
His jaw clenched.
His eyes darkened.
He quickly switched our positions once again until I was under him once more. I felt him parting my legs and his hand positioning my leg around his waist.
Our eyes were on each other as I felt him going inside me. Our lips were parted as we watched each other's expression.
"I love you," I mouthed as I felt him all inside me.
Yago buried his head on the nook of my neck as I felt him thrusting. He kept on whispering 'I love you' inside my ear. I didn't know where to focus my attention. I could feel all of him inside me... and I could hear his words in my ear. I felt like I would explode any second from now. I felt like I'd been deprived of happiness for a long time and now, it's here again.
I could feel it again.
Because he's here.
He didn't stop.
He kept on thrusting until I felt like my whole system would explode from all the things that he was making me feel at once. I felt his finger flick and I felt like my whole world exploded.
"Oh god, Yago," I moaned when he did that.
Agad na nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang mapagtanto ko kung ano ang nasabi ko. Agad ding na-realize iyon ni Yago dahil nanlaki ang mga mata niya habang naka-tingin siya sa akin. That fucking phrase! I managed to avoid saying that for the longest time! But I just missed him so much! I got too overwhelmed that I lost control!
Ugh!
"Shit!" I shouted. Agad akong napa-takip ng mukha. "Oh, my god," I said. "Nakaka-hiya!"
I couldn't move. My hands were covering my face from the embarrassment. I vowed to my past self that I'd never say that phrase because I refused to be one of Yago's girls from before! But one fucking flick of his finger and I ate all my words!
"One thing off my bucket list," he said.
I took a peek between my fingers and stared at him. I could see sweat sliding from his forehead down to his face. Beads of sweat dropping from the tip of his hair.
"Next one's 'Destroy me, Yago.'"
I frowned. "You fucking wish."
He laughed. "We'll see."
"I'd fucking die first."
"Oh god, Yago," he whispered in my ears. Napa-takip na naman ako ng mukha sa sobrang hiya! I felt him biting my chin as I covered my face from the shame of eating my words. It was his fault! That fucking flick of his finger! Palagi akong nabibiktima niyan!
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I was famished when we finished.
I called in sick because there's no way that I could go to work after everything that we did. I was pretty sure it's okay for me to skip work because as far as I could remember, I almost never skip work because work has been my life for the past years. I just wanted to take a break. Be with Yago. All day. If possible.
"Room service?" he asked.
I was naked under the cover while Yago's in his boxers. Tinatamad akong bumangon. I really just wanna be a bum all day with him. We deserve this. After every-fucking-thing.
"Ano'ng nasa menu?" I asked.
Yago read the menu but I found nothing that I wanted to eat. In the end, we settled with ordering pizza and a bucket of chicken wings. Like before.
"Ano'ng ginagawa mo nung nasa Cali ka?" I asked while we're passively watching a documentary on Netflix. We both wanted to talk, but we're just afraid of the silence. It's just... it's just a little bit different from before. Silence didn't use to feel like this... but now, it kinda bothered me. But it's okay. It would just take adjusting. We'd be okay.
"Reviewed for a while then took the BAR there," he said.
His arm was draped over my shoulders and I wrapped my arms around his waist. I rested my head against his chest and listened to the steady beating of his heart. I missed this. I missed us. I hope we never break apart again.
"Jax said you're doing well in your work."
"Pinagchichismisan niyo na naman ako?"
He laughed. "He's just updating me. He told me you're the favorite now."
I shrugged. "Sakto lang."
He kissed the top of my head. "I'm so proud of you."
Hinigpitan ko ang yakap sa kanya. "It's because of you. I wouldn't be here if you didn't do that stupid shit before," I said against his chest. "Never do that again, okay? I'd break your face kapag umalis ka ulit ng walang paalam."
I felt him nodding. "I promise."
We talked for the next minutes. I asked him about his work. He asked me about mine and about Papa. It felt like the years apart has been bridged. I felt the years apart didn't happen. California did him good. He'd worked with a lot of interesting people; even saw his crush, Scarlett Johansson in one event!
Yago went down when the lobby called para sabihin na nandun na iyong delivery guy para sa inorder namin na pizza. Nang bumaba siya, nagtext lang ako kay Indie na iforward sa email ko iyong mga kailangan kong basahin. I wanted to spend the whole day with Yago, but there's still this nagging voice inside my head that's telling me to go to work.
Nang sinubukan ko na intindihin iyong pinapanood sana namin, biglang tumawag sa akin si Mr. Wong, isa sa mga naging clients ko before.
"I sent six of my men."
"Thank you, Mr. Wong," I said. "But don't do anything."
"I know. Just stand outside her house."
"Yes, yes," I replied. "I don't want any trouble. I just want to send a message—"
Napa-tigil ako sa pagsasalita nang makita ko si Yago na may dala na dalawang box ng pizza, isang bucket ng chicken wings, at isang bote ng soda. His forehead creased.
"What was that?" he asked.
I looked at him.
I promised him honesty.
"That..." I said as I helped him put the boxes on the table. "That was one of my clients," I continued, but he only stared at me. "I just asked for help."
"Millie?"
I nodded. "No violence," I clarified. "I just wanted Millie to know that I wasn't kidding when I said that I'd really hunt her down kapag may ginawa siya."
Looking back, I was thankful for everything that happened... If I confronted Millie years ago, all threats would have been empty. Dahil wala akong pangalan. Wala akong koneksyon. I was just... me. But the years that happened shaped me into who I am today. The bitch who refused to be frightened by her.
"Okay," he said. "I'll support you with whatever you want."
I looked at him. "I don't want that," I replied. "I want you to call out on my shits. I want you to tell me when I'm wrong. I want you to guide me when I'm losing sight on the right path," I continued as I cupped his face with my hands. "Yago, I don't want you to be scared of me, okay? I want you and whoever you are now. I'd accept it, no questions asked. Just be normal around me, okay?"
He was staring into my eyes. I counted the seconds before a small smile appeared on his face.
"Okay," he replied.
I smiled and planted a kiss on his lips. "Good," I said. "Let's eat. I'm starving," I continued before I pulled him down with me on the sofa. Naka-patong ang mga binti ko sa hita niya habang nanonood kami ng thriller movie. Sinusubuan niya ako ng pizza habang tahimik akong nanonood. He wiped the side of my lips with tissue and accidentally punched his arm nang magulat ako.
This... this is what I missed.