(A/N); this gem popped up in my recommendations today, and inspired me to write this tid bit.
I think the lyrics resonate perfectly from the POV of a certain someone, wouldn't you agree?~
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It had felt like forever since the last time I had saw (y/n) In person. I had tried so hard to remain cool about this situation, but it was proving more and more difficult as the days pass me by.
'This is killing me... I want to see her again! Nothing in the world, not even donuts, could compare to how happy she makes me! B-but, I can't just simply forget what had happened, either... Would my presence just make things more difficult?... Should I just talk this out with her?...' I pondered deeply to myself, so much so I didn't realize that someone had entered my room.
"Big brother?... You look like you haven't slept in days!" I heard the voice of Pudding speak to me, as I blinked in surprise at seeing her.
"Oh... hello, Pudding. As of late, I just do not find it in myself to sleep as soundly..." I admitted, as she went to frown at me. "It is about (y/n), isn't it?" She questioned, as I went to simply nod; lying about the situation would get me nowhere.
"I know far too much exactly how you feel, big brother. There is no worse feeling in the world than not being able to be with the one you love." She sighed, before going to plop on my bed, and sit next to me.
"...Did you really love that Vinsmoke boy?" I questioned her, as she went to nod. "Yes, I did... I know I shouldn't of, and I fought against it all the way, but I just couldn't help but fall for someone as kind as him." She smiled softly, as if recalling some fond memory, before frowning. "B-but... things are different now.." She whispered, going to huddle herself, as I went to give her a comforting hug.
"Yes.... this was quite the unfortunate situation..." I murmured, as she nodded in agreement, before going to bite her lip. "B-but it's not fair, K-katakuri... after living my entire life with everyone around me judging me and making me feel like some weird freak of nature... the only man who made me feel beautiful, like I am not less than, had to be him, the very one I just couldn't have..." She muttered out, her eyes on the verge of tears, as what she was saying hit too close to home for me. I didn't really understand it before, but now... I know exactly how she feels about that whole situation.
"I wish there was something I could do about it, but as it stands now, it's for the best if he stays away from you. We don't need mama getting more mad than she already is." I pointed out to her, as she nodded softly. "Yeah, I understand..." She then turned her head towards me, her eyes now holding a firm gaze on me.
"However, how it ended for me, does not have to be how it ends for you, Katakuri! The odds are in your favor, so you have to go for it, and keep fighting!" She told me passionately, as I was taken a bit aback by that, before going to hang my head a tad.
"I thank you for the encouragement, but after what (y/n) told me... I don't really know what to do next." I murmured, as she continued to look at me sternly. "You have to keep loving her! You have to keep showing her that you and her are meant to be! You must never stop trying to prove yourself to her, because if you stop, someone else might try to whisk her away when you aren't looking!" She told me, as I took her words heavily into consideration. Just the thought of some other man whisking (y/n) away while we were apart made me sick.
"Listen to your heart, Katakuri, don't ignore what it tells you! You are the right guy for her, and there is no better time than now to keep showing her that you are, until she feels confident enough to give you an affirmative answer!" Pudding voiced loud and clear to me, as I went to nod at her words.
"Y-yes, I can't stop now! I have to see her again!" I uttered out, as Pudding nodded at me, before going to try and attempt to shove me off the bed. "Then what are you waiting for? Go see her now, you donut-loving sweet commander!" She smiled brightly to me, as I went to get up, and practically run to where Brulee stayed.
"B-brulee, I want to get on board the Strawhat's ship, now!" I told her, as she smiled brightly at me in response. "That's my big brother!" She chirped, before going to lead me away to one specific mirror in general. "Go get her!" She cheered, as I nodded enthusiastically, before going to jump in.
(Your POV)
"Answer the question, Hawkins." I told the blond as seriously as I could muster, as his face couldn't of shown any more how much of a damn he doesn't give.
"Why do you want an answer to such a ridiculous question? It's pointless information." He mumbled to me, as I tried to keep my stern face.
"Because I have the right to know! You will tell me, or I will cut your beautiful locks off in your sleep, Rapunzel!" I threatened, as he didn't as so much flinch at my threat.
"If it will get you to finally leave me alone, then I will tell you... " He sighed, as he went to shuffle his cards.
"...Yes, the dolls could, in theory, perform this 'Duloc' song you keep asking me about."
"YES! Then please make them do it!"
"No."
"W-why not?"
"Do I look like the type to indulge in such childish fancies?"
"Kinda!"
"What?"
"I mean, you are a literal straw man! How could you not mess around with a power like that? One day you can be a scarecrow, another day a puppeteer!"
Hawkins was looking mildly annoyed by my words, despite how content the dolls looked at me. "Well, if you won't make them, can I play around with them?" I asked with a tilt of the head, as he went to shake his head at me. "How many times do I have to tell you? They are not toys; they are voodoo dolls." He sighed exasperatedly, as said voodoo dolls went to zoom wonkily towards me, and snuggle my hands, as he glared slightly at them.
"And how many times do I have to tell you all? Stop reacting to her!" He frowned deeply, as the dolls didn't seem to listen this time, instead going to climb into my arms, and look up at me. "I think the little cuties want to hang out with fun (y/n), and not boring Hawkins!" I giggled, as Hawkins practically rolled his ruby eyes to the back of his head at my words. "I do not care anymore; do with them what you will. I will allow you to 'play' with them for 10 minutes." He told me, as I nodded, before going to hug the cute little things, who went to hug me back.
'You may pull the devil-may-care act convincingly, Hawkins, but you are not fooling me!' I smirked smugly, feeling quite satisfied with myself at having cracked the code to this man, as he seemed completely uninterested in me now, going to simply pay heed to his beloved cards.
Just by taking my eyes off of them briefly, the 10 little snookers went to crawl all over me, one going to lay atop my head, another on my chest, two on my shoulders, two on my arms, two on my legs, one on my back, and the last one going to plop itself on my face.
"H-hey, I can't see!" I whined, since this one in particular blocked my vision quite a bit, as Hawkins went to give me what seemed like a small, sinister smirk from the corner of my eye; if you blinked once you'd miss it.
"I-I saw that, you jerk! Don't think you're slick!" I pouted, as the one on my face then went to plop itself on my mouth, so I couldn't speak.
"Silence is a beautiful thing..." Hawkins murmured, as he proceeded to view his cards in a rhythmic manner, as I simply glared at him in response. Despite my slight irritation, however, I could of sworn I saw a ghost of a smile make it's way across his pale face. I could of just been imagining it, however...
Luckily for me, this particular doll finally went to settle with just hanging onto my cheek, which I was more than content with, until I remembered something, which caused me to bust out laughing, and Hawkins to look at me like I lost my mind.
'O-oh my g-god, I look like Vergo right now!' I cracked up, as I held my belly a bit, trying to catch my breath, before I heard a voice I didn't expect to hear call to me.
"(Y/n)?..." It said softly, as I instantly went to stop laughing at hearing it.
"K-katakuri?!" I questioned, as Hawkins didn't even bother to look up at him, despite how intensely the magenta head was glaring at the blond.
"You seem to be having a lot of fun with this man..." He murmured, as I rose a brow at his tone.
"Well, yeah, though I'd say it's more his dolls that I am having fun with than him. Hawkins is more boring than an old man, but his dolls are really cute!" I giggled, as I went to point to them, to show them to Katakuri, as I saw Hawkins' face not even change a bit at my words.
"I see..." Katakuri mumbled, going to look to the floor for a bit, as I went to feel a bit awkward about this sudden silence; time to change things a bit.
"C'mon guys, let's perform the song! I will be the vocals, you be the dancers, okay?" I chirped to the dolls on me, as they seemed to agree to that, before they all went to gather on the table before me, as I started to sing the silly song that they danced enthusiastically to. When the song ended, I couldn't help but go and hug them all.
"This is tooo sweet!" I then went to turn my head towards Hawkins. "Are you sure I can't keep them?" "Yes, and as a matter of fact, your time is up." He informed me, before calling the voodoo dolls back to him, as they went to disappear into his flesh, which made me pout at that.
"Aw, boohoo!" I frowned, before going to look up at Katakuri. "Well, that was cool, right?" I questioned him with a grin, as he went to nod at me. "Yeah, you have a very lovely voice. In fact, it sounded really cute when it was high pitched like that." He giggled to me, as I went to blush madly in response.
"T-thanks... what did you think of my singing, Hawkins?" I questioned the blond, who didn't look at me, his eyes now deeply concentrated on his cards. "It was... something." He murmured, as I frowned at that, before shrugging; at least he didn't give me the Simon Cowell treatment.
"Anyways, was fun bugging you, Hawkins. C'mon, Katakuri, I have a feeling we need to talk." I told the tall male, before waving bye towards Hawkins, and leaving his room with Katakuri in tow.
"Look, Katakuri-" "(Y/n), I-"
At seeing how we both started at the same time, I went to cough awkwardly. "You can go first." I told Katakuri, as he blushed in embarrassment. "Alright..." He then took a deep breath. "(Y/n), look, you were right... I was rushing things. I just got so caught up in everything, that I thought what I was doing was right." He told me, his gaze on me soft, as I went to give him a small smile. "I am glad you see it that way. I was afraid that maybe I came across as rude-" "No, not at all!" "O-okay, that's good!"
We then went to just stare at each other awkwardly, which caused me to cough again. "So... are we cool?" "Of course!... Can we forget that little incident ever happened, and perhaps start anew in a way?..." "Of course, Katakuri."
The awkward silence then returned swiftly, which caused me to conjure up an idea. "How about we start anew like this?" I tilted my head to him, going to give him a bright grin, before I used my ink to lift me up, so that we were now eye-to-eye.
...
I then went to give him a gentle kiss on the cheek, which caused him to freeze in place, his eyes going as wide as saucers, as I heard his breath hitch in surprise at my action.
"You were always the one giving me affection, and I never reciprocated. I hope this one kiss could make up for that." I giggled, as it took him a few seconds to respond. "U-uh, yeah! T-that was nice, hee hee..." He chuckled, looking as happy as somebody who won the lottery.
I then went to guide myself back down, before lending out a hand to him. "C'mon tiger, we need to tell the others of your return." I informed him, as he went to nod at that, still giggling in happiness, as I went to lead him away.
"Duloc is.. Duloc is... Duloc is a perffeccttt plaaaceee..." A voice sung along quietly to himself, as he finished his tarot reading for the day, as a voice from the other side of the door seemed to be murmuring something in response to that. "Hawkins, was that you?...." It questioned, as Hawkins went to flinch a bit at hearing the voice. "What do you mean?" He simply asked in response, as the voice murmured again. "Never mind, thought I just heard something..."