A/N: I'm not using 'you' but 'I to make it easier. Pretend this all is your p.o.v. okay...
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Happy, sad, angry.... I guess you have heard that. It is the definition of feeling. It also in everyone life. It is common.... just like my feeling. Wether you like it or not. The feeling always come. I hate to say this but why I must be living... When I like this....
You probably doesn't know. So, let me tell you. My name is ______. I'm not a normal girl like you. I'm just some how 'special'. I born with a pair of blind eyes. I can't see the colour of the world. I don't know how beautiful world are. I don't even know myself look like.
I was walking home with my walking stick after going to my secret garden. It located away from other. I don't think people go there because I can't hear any sound of people. Suddenly, I feel I bump into a hard thing. I fell down with my walking stick. I search for it when,
"OMO your head is bleeding. May I help you?"Someone said. I don't know it's a boy or a girl but by sound I think its a boy. I can't see the face anyway, It's a boy...
"I'm okay"I said and pick my walking stick. I started walking without even caring about the person just now.
"Hmm... judging by the way you walk... Are you blind?"He said in an annoying voice. I heard his footstep. He keep following me.
'Are you blind?' The question keep playing in my mind. Am I blind?.....
"..........."I just keep silence. I feel a liquid enter my mouth. The liquid has a funny taste.
"Mianhae for asking... but your head is bleeding and now the blood in your mouth" He said and touch my jaw.
"Ouch"I groaned in pain. I didn't know he is so muscular.
"Let me bring you to the doctor."He said.
"You don't have to"I said and walk away.
"But can I be friend with you"He yelled.
In every person in this world. Why must me? I continue walking with my stick. I don't think he's following me now. I sighed.... I'm now searching for my house. I think I couldn't find it because my head ache so much. I think I'm gonna faint anytime...
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"Hey, you're awake?"Someone said.
I search for my walking stick.
"Its okay. Your walking stick is safe with me"The person said kindly. I feel the person caressing my hair.
"Who are you?"I asked.
"I'm Lee Jonghyun. I'm the one who saw your head bleeding and begging you to go to the doctor."He said while giggling.
"Can you please bring me home. I don't like hospital smell"I said.
"Are you sure? Are you fine now?"He asked.
"I'm okay"I said calmly.
"Wait there. I will carried you"He said. I feel being lift and carried. At that time I feel like I'm safe. My blush spread instantly from the bottom of my neck up to my cheeks.
"Jonghyun-ssi...."I said.
"Ne?"
"Bring me home..."I said.
"Where's your home?"He asked.
" '123' the number of my home."I said. I heard that from my beloved family.
"Okay..."He said. I don't know where he going but I think I must trust him at this momment. He stop...
"Where are we Jonghyun-ssi?"I asked.
"Infront your huge house. I mean mansion.."He said and I heard the gate opening. Before I could say anything,
"So, tell me about yourself. How do you live in this huge mansion without anybody in this house? Where's your family?"He asked while walking. It is a bit weird question because no one ever ask me that. He release me and put me somewhere comfy.
"...... I live here alone when I was still 10 years old. My family has been busy for along time. They come home only 1 month every year. They sometime didn't celebrate my birthday. I feel forgotten..... but it's okay. I understand them. I'm big now."I said. It was the truth. I'm really alone. This 'Jonghyun' guy seems nice.
"I didn't mean to ask"He said.
"It's okay. Afterall, you didn't know."I said sweetly.
"... so, can i be your friend"He said.
"Of course you can. But why?"I asked.
"Because we're same"He said.
"Same?? What do you mean"
"I'm also alone. My mother died at my 6th age. My father is gone away with a new woman and now I'm alone."He said. I pity him for not having a family. I felt a water drop on my hand.
"Jonghyun-ssi are you crying?"
"........"He just kept silence. I think he really does. My hand move toward his face, searcing for the tear from his eyes. I rub the tears away with my finger.
"Don't cry. You're not handsome when you are crying"I said. I didn't know what I'm saying. I can't see his face but I know his face is angelic like his attitude and I wish I am too.
"Thanks.."He said...
"Lets fully introduce ourself. My name is _______."I said. I haven't introduce myself.
"Since I already told you my name, you can call me informally."He said.
"Arasso... jonghyunnie"I giggled. We became closer just in a matter of time.
"Yah my name is Jonghyun not Jonghyunnie"He pretend mad. I think he's pouting right now. But I can't see it.
"Come on... we still have time. What about going to my secret garden"I said offering him to go to my secret garden.
"Jinjja?"
"Ne"I said.
I get up and search my walking stick with my hand.
"Here"He said.
"Gomawo"
I move my walking stick everywhere. I start walking and touch every edge of thing to confirm where am I. Since I can't see anything that's the best way I can do. I step my foot when I feel it is safe.
"Let me help you."Jonghyun said to me.
"You don't have to"I said.
"You keep telling me that. Just shut your mouth and start to hear me this time"He put his hand around my shoulder and start to move me slowly. I just trust him.
"So, where are the secret garden?"
"Let me find it"I said and move my walking stick.
The secret garden is just between two post. I search ths post with my walking stick.
"Found it"I said and start entering the entrance of the secret garden.
"Whoah... It's beautiful"He gasp.
"It surely does"
I already familiar with this place. So, without using walking stick I already know. I took a seat.
Jonghyun are busy doing (?) I don't know....
"Jonghyunnie where are you?"
"I'm right beside you _______-ah"
"Oh really, I don't know that"I said.
"Lets play truth or truth"He said. Truth or truth?
"Arasso but truth or truth is just same. Why you won't say truth or dare??"
"Because I want to know truth than dare."
"Okay"
"So, who first?"
"Of course you jonghyunnie"I said and giggled.
"So, what did you want to ask me?"
"Are you enjoy being friend with me?"
"Obviously yes"He said.
"What do you want to ask me, jonghyunnie"I said, Smiling happily.
"Hmmm...... If you got eyes.... What the first thing you want to see, ______-ah"
"If I got eyes... You'll be the one I see first because you're the one that close to me, Jonghyunnie"
"Let wish...."
"Arasso"
I wish Jonghyun and I will be togther forever...
Too much talking between me and him. I didn't even know how much time we spend with each other. I will not forget this day forever.
"Jonghyunnie.. can I lend my head on your chest??"
"Of course..."
I search for him. But... I feel his hand put my head on his chest slowly.
"Jonghyunnie... can I stay little longer"
"As you wish _______-ah..."
"Jonghyunnie..."
"Nae?"
"Nothing.... I just want to hear your voice.. Will you answer me if I call you?"
"I will, _________-ah... let me kiss your forehead"
"Of course you can, but why?"
"I just want to kiss your forehead because probably I will not able to do that again.."
I felt my forehead kissed by his soft lip... It's really soft...
"Jonghyunnie...." Suddenly I heard a sound like phone ringing. It probably Jonghyun. I heard him talking with someone. I just heard something like. "I'll be there in any minute with her", "I'm sure", "Arasso", "Anyeong...".
"Who's that Jonghyunnie?" I said.
"It's the doctor. He's informing something to me, as well for you. It is a good news"
"What?"
"There's a donor from someone. The person want to donor his eyes to you."
"Really? So, I can see you Jonghyunnie"
"Maybe..."
I smile full of happiness. If I have eyes I can see Jonghyun...
"Come on.. lets go to the hospital"He said.
"Arasso"
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No sound of him. I just heart something hit the ground..
"Jonghyunnie.... are you there"I said and drop my walking stick..
"I-I'm f-f-fine..." I feel his hand grab mine. He lead me to the hospital..
"So, this is miss ________. Miss _______ I'm the doctor."The doctor said. I just nodded my head. Jonghyun let my hand go. The doctor lead me to the..... I don't know...
"T-t-take c-care.."I heard Jonghyun said.
"Arasso..."
"Miss __________.. Please enter the operation room."
I enter the operation room supported by the walking stick. The next thing I know is.... I had an operation. The doctor round the bandange around my eyes. He said that its need one week to open the bandage.
All one week had passed, no sign of Jonghyun visiting me. I think he forgot me because I'm different. Or, he find a new friend to hang with. The doctor slowly open the bandage. He gave a mirror. It took me awhile to see properly. I stare at the mirror like I'm just a new person.. I can see the world now.
I blink my eyes twice, still not believe that I can see the world now. Staying at the hospital is really hateful thing.
The hospital release me after 3 days. I went my home safely without using my walking stick again.
I search Jonghyun everywhere.. I only know his name but not face. And... the only thing I know is Jonghyun surname is Lee..
I walk on the street, finding Jonghyun. It is at night, everyone is walking near the street, making the crowd. I ask everyone about Jonghyun. But none of them know. Is Jonghyun just my imagination... Is he just one of my dream.... Maybe....
Suddenly, I remember something.... The doctor... He must know where's Jonghyun... I run to the hospital Immediately. Jonghyunnie.... wait for me--
"He's not here..." said the doctor while his eyes are full of sadness. I don't know why... but I think there's something that make the doctor sad. Is his wife died? Or-
"Thanks..."
I walk out to the hospital and went to my secret garden. Sitting alone, playing alone, smiling alone, all I did is alone. I miss him.... Just when I first saw him... I already know he's the one... but by he's leaving so suddenly, it make me like..... broken..
My eyes are feeling heavy and heavier. I dozed under the tree..
"Bye bye ________-ah... Saranghaeyo...."
One years later....
"Appa, can I go for a walk?" I said looking at Appa for permission.
"You can"
I wear my sneaker and went to my usual place. Where I can feel peace.. where I can remember Jonghyun.
I arrive at the secret garden and entering it. As always, no one here.. I sat on the bench under a tree and close my eyes. Dark... quiet.. that's what I feel when I close my eyes. But I can feel peaceful around me.
"________-ah..." I heard someone said... Jonghyun??
"Jonghyunnie.. Where are you?" I open my eyes and look around. Only chirping bird singing with its own melody.
Jonghyun..... I remember how first met.... it's so meaningful. And how he left me without any news... I hate him for leaving me. He's a bastard. and a jerk....
I look up at the sky, wanting to forget that thing between me and Jonghyun..
I feel something sticking on the tree. I try to look up.. it was a sticky note. The sticky note was wet and about to ripped off. I took the sticky note.... It's hard to read because only a few word, I can spell some of them already gone by the wet.
I bring the sticky not, wondering how I can read it... I think this sticky note had been sticking on the tree for a long time. Oh yeah.., I just could ask the doctor about this... Maybe he knew what's writing on the sticky note.
I get up and start running to the hospital again. Just to ask the doctor about this sticky note...
"I think I know this.... Mr. Jonghyun left me a letter. I think it was for you..." said the doctor.
"Just tell me where is him?"
"The answer is in the letter... Here"Said the doctor while taking out something from his big pocket. As he said just now, he lend me the letter. Maybe, Jonghyun go away from me and really afraid to tell me the truth. He's not a gentleman. A gentleman never leave they lady alone. (?) What am I doing... About manner? ?
I pick the letter and took a nearest seat. I open the fold and, revealed a piece of an A4 paper. Word by word written in it, I read it slowly.... While my tears are falling from my eyes.....
This was written on it..
'Anyeong... ________-ah. How's life without me? Is it difficult. Don't worry.. I'm not going anywhere. I'm just leave you alone to somewhere that we will be together forever.. Did you see me when you have got your eyes? Sorry for not being there. I'll forever beside you. Wether, it's in your heart or not. Don't ask me where I go. Arasso. I'm fine......'
'Okay.. okay... I will tell you.. Take care of yourself... I'm now are part of you... You don't know the meaning??.... I have a lung cancer.. The doctor said my life is not longer anymore. So, I'm giving you my eyes. It's not like I'm giving you my eyes because of that... I'm giving you my eyes because I want to be part of you. I love you.. from the first sight, You always smile when you sad. You always act strong when you are about to fall. You always act like you're not alone but the truth is you are. From that day I saw you, I always peek on my window only to see you from far. And when that day come... I feel like I'm flying. But the doctor inform me that day about the lung cancer. Saranghae ________-ah. Neomaneul Saranghae'
Jonghyun.....
"Nado, saranghae... I will take care of myself. I will take care of my eyes. For you....." I said, my cloth soak from my tear. I realise... I was wrong about him.... He's the first and last... He's the one... No one else will replace him in my heart. Cause he is he. He's special..
"________-ah anyeong." I heard that voice again.. it's Jonghyun....
"Jonghyun-oppa where are you?"
-The end-
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Hey everybody. This is my update before school exam. Really miss it.
Is it sad? Sorry... it is not sad. I'm really suck at doing sad thing. Happy 3.6k. :) ~~~
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