Thunderclouds - LSD ft Sia, Diplo, Labrinth
NICOLE
The door burst open and Seth came stumbling in looking like a lost puppy he held his keys in one hand and he's jacket in the other, he's pupil's were dilated indicating that he was high and when he saw me he grinned and slurred "Nicole..." and I knew his return will turn my life upside down.
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I stood there frozen in shock as Seth came over to me with wide arms going to wrap his arms around me and I could instantly smell the alcohol took over my senses with another scent that smelled like cigarettes he squeezed me hard into him before pulling away just as his mother came running out of their living area, immediately she saw his state she burst into tears.
"we've only been here for three days Seth, you promised you'll try" she said sobbing into her hands as she slid down the wall, I rushed to her even though I had no idea why she was crying.
"I'm sorry you had to see this Nicole please just help Seth to his room I need to have a word with you and please be careful with him only god knows what he took this time" she said quietly and it gradually started to make sense, I just hope this is not what I think it is.
I walked over to a giggling Seth "Nicole I mi..s..sed you" he said still giggling, I took him by his hand and gently led him up the stairs practically dragging him up the steps and boy was he heavy
when we finally made it to the room Seth was still going on and on about how much he missed me and how hot and cute I had gotten and believe me i was as red as a god damn tomato
"I want you cherry" he suddenly said holding on to me tightly refusing to let go even after he laid down in bed
I moved to remove his hands but he just held on tighter refusing to let go of me, I tried for some minutes then finally gave up and sat beside him
"you look even better up close" he suddenly breathed out "I missed holding you like this" he said again and next thing I know my back was on the bed and he was hovering over me with lustful eyes boring into mine and then he started leaning in closer and when he lips almost touched mine his head went to the crook of my neck and he slumped against me crushing me with his weight
I don't know if I'm relieved or disappointed, I tried to push him off me so I could go to his mom but he didn't even move a muscle, after a few minutes I heard his soft snores
"you've got to be kidding me, who the hell falls asleep on a person half their size!?!" I said angrily as I used all my strength to push him off me, I probably broke a bone or two but I made it out alive
I walked into his bathroom and fixed myself up before going downstairs to meet his mum, I had a lot of questions that needed sincere answers
"there you are I was scared something had happened to you, come and sit I have a lot to tell you" she said gesturing to the sit in front of her which I did
"where do I start from?" she asked looking down "how about the beginning" I said softly so as not to scare her to tears since she looked like she would break any moment
"well when we moved to Cali Seth was the same, withdrawn and moody and we just decided to watch him for a year to see if he would get better if not we would have sent him to therapy, but one year was apparently too much.
At the end of the year he started going out often and coming home drunk or not coming at all but I just wrote it off as teenage parties besides we were not always home so we couldn't really say that he was gone every other night but that all changed when early February on your birthday to be precise he came home high on god knows what calling your name like he could literally see you and screaming happy birthday at the top of his lungs like a mad man, fortunately Connor wasn't at home so he knew nothing of it, it went on for months but I didn't tell Connor cause I didn't want to send him to rehab but then it was getting worse when summer began and I knew I couldn't keep it to myself anymore and told Connor about it, he called Seth out on it and threatened to disown him but to my surprise he confessed that he's addicted already and that he needs help but Connor said sending him to rehab would damage his reputation and give his rivals an opportunity to blackmail him then I suggested we come here since he always wanted to see you I felt you could help him" she said in one breath and sighed as if a burden was lifted off her shoulders as she stared at me expectantly
"he's addicted!?!" was all I could get out as I soaked in all she said "he has to go to rehab I mean what could I possibly do, addiction isn't a small case anything can happen anytime with an addict" I said tears rushing to my eyes, I couldn't believe my goofy cuddly best friend was a drug addict "is it drug addiction" I asked praying and hoping she says no "he said he just took anything that made him feel good but mostly heroin or sometimes indian hemp" she said tears running down her eyes "how long?" I asked "two months" she replied
"he's fresh, we can still help him" I said comforting her "I checked online the effects of heroin and what I saw horrible its highly addictive Nicole I'm scared what if we can't help him?" she asked sobbing "we can and we will, I'll be here with both of you everyday" I said stroking her back as she cried
"I'll stay with him tonight seeing as he may not wake up till tomorrow just get some rest since he's willing we'll all talk about it when he's sober" I said standing up to go to room
As I walked to his room all I could think about was the fact that he was addicted, I couldn't understand and some part of me couldn't believe it, what could have made a person as sweet and kind as Seth turn to drugs for numbing his pain? Had his sisters death changed him that much? Was it that much of a burden to him? Why wasn't I there for him? We all just left him to deal with his shit himself.
When I got to his room and opened the door he was still sleeping so I lay down beside him and watched him sleep, at one point my hands found it's way into his hair and I began stroking his head and he seemed to enjoy it because he leaned in, so I continued and when I gently pulled he groaned and pulled me closer to him so his head was now resting on my breast in a very sexual way but I didn't mind, in this position I just thought every thing through and I asked my self what if we can't help him, the thought was enough to make me cry myself to sleep
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When I woke up the bed was empty and I panicked and literarily ran down the stairs screaming Seth's name and praying he hasn't gone back to wherever he came from yesterday and believe me I was shocked when I saw him in the kitchen eating the whole goddamn fridge, was this some kind of side effect or was he also addicted to food
"are you frozen or stupid" Seth's husky voice asked me as he raised a perfect eyebrow, he had never spoken to me in such a rude way before, he always pampered me when we were still BFF's, is this another side effect?
'well if you don't say something soon he will think you're a creep too' my subconscious said to me "good morning" I blurted out the first thing that came to me and luckily for me it wasn't something embarrassing
"good morning to you too, first things first why were you in my bed when I woke up, I swear I was this close to throwing you out the window" he said pinching his thumb and index finger together to emphasis his point and I swear the seriousness on his face and in his voice scared the shit out of me
"I'm sorry" I said in quiet voice and looked anywhere but him because the last thing I want is this 6'2 hung over guy strangling me
"are you scared of me" he asked now standing in front of me "N..no" I said looking at my suddenly super interesting feet when I felt a warm finger on my cheek, Seth trailed his fingers down my face to the crook of my neck "then look at me" he said in a softer voice and I did as he said
he looked soo different now that I study him, he has a scar on his left eye brow that wasn't there before, he also has piercings on his right eye brow, lip, ear and when he talked I noticed one metal on his tongue, he also had tattoo's on his right sleeve, his back up to his neck and they disappear into his sweat pants
"that's better" he said looking down at me with a smirk on his face "did I do anything to you yesterday?" he asked nonchalantly "apart from crushing me with your weight and holding me like a priced possession, nope" I said hoping to lighten the mood but he just stared at me emotionlessly "you should go home" he said dragging me to the door
"wait please I need to talk to you" I begged but he just held my wrist tighter and kept on dragging me to the door "Seth please you're hurting me" I choked out trying hard not to let tears slip, believe me his grip is as hard as fuck and I was surprised that he didn't still release me, it was like he couldn't hear me, I never knew him to be this violent.
"Seth let go of her, can't you see you're hurting her" his mother's voice rang out from the top of the stairs causing him to stop and release my hand and some would expect him to be apologetic at least but all I could see on his face was anger and soo much hate that I began to wonder what my crime could be.
"what is she doing here?" he asked his mum "she's here to help Seth if you want to get over this thing you have to stop pushing those willing to help away" she said
"I don't need her help mom, I agreed to try but it has nothing to do with her she has to stay out of this it's none of her business" he said and left
"I think I should go, he doesn't look like he wants me here and I don't want to come in between you not at a time like this" I said and attempted to leave
"no matter what you do don't give up on him please he needs you more than you think" she told me, I nodded "bye I'll come around when I can, thanks for telling me and trusting me" I said and walked to my car wondering what I could have done for Seth to hate me so much.