Avalana Hamilton
I am done with book shopping then I decided to go to his office cause I'm bored and I know it's almost the time to go home. Maybe I can visit him cause I always do that every time I'm bored at home. He always get confuse every time I pay a visit, he always said that I distract him somehow but I don't care I just want to visit my husband.
I open his office door and like always he's sitting on his chair looking so serious as hell. His blue eyes look up at me once I got in, I know what is he going to say in a second,
"What the hell are you doing here?" He said.
He always asked that every time I step into his office and somehow I love to see him getting annoyed by my appearance,
"Just want to visit you, plus maybe I thought I can pick you up from work," I said before taking a seat on the couch in the middle of his room.
"Ok," he said before continue to do his work.
We stay in a silent,
His room is full of silent, I keep looking at the clock on the wall while looking around. It is still look the same every time I get here, I mean doesn't he get bored spending most of the time here in a very quite place like this.
"Babe," he called.
"Yes," I said.
"Where did you go today?" He asked me.
His hand is still writing on the paper while his eyes are also stick with it.
"Mall? Book store? Why?" I asked him.
"Hospital?" He asked me.
"No I didn't," I said.
"Did you say that you wanna get back to work?" He asked me.
"Oh yeah, that," I said.
"Umm I haven't talk about it with your mom," I said.
He silently nodded.
The door suddenly being opened by Agatha who brings a plate of chocolate cake and a tea. I actually requested it cause I'm hungry and need something to eat. She puts the cake on the table right in front of me then she walks out, I thank her before she closed the door.
I bring the cake into his desk then taking a seat right in front of him. I watch him doing his job with those smart ass brain. His eyes are staring at the paper then to his laptop, I wonder what is he up to.
"Stop staring at me like that," he said while I'm eating on my cake.
I lick the spoon then smile,
"Like what," I asked him.
"Forget it," he said before tap on the enter button.
"Done," he said.
He clean the paper then close the laptop,
"You're done?" I asked him.
"Yes," he said.
He got up from his seat, he walk into where I am sitting then grab my hand to make me get up from the chair.
His hand are on my waist before his lips touch against mine,
"I'm so tired," he said.
"Let's go home," he said.
"But I haven't finished this," I said while holding on a plate of chocolate cake.
"Okay, just finish it,"
"I'll wait for you," he said before taking a step away from me.
He walks back into his table to clean up his desk while I'm walking into the couch. The room is full of silent so all I can hear is the tap of my heels on the marble floor.
The lights on the room suddenly off, the room is almost black out, then it goes on and black out again. The blackout suddenly brings me into my old memories about the plane accidents a few years ago,
I remember how the lights were turning on and off, and the plane was going down, the crew were all panicked and I was the only passenger there. I try to open my eyes but I cannot, this memory is eating me alive. The voice of the flight attendant telling me to jump feels so real.
My breath is getting heavier while the memories that I tried so hard to buried coming to my vision again. The lights on the room are still unstable where it turn on for a second then black out the next second.
I was standing on my heels until I feel my legs feel shaky, I reach the closest couch in front of me then hold on to it.
"Lana..?" Apollo called me.
"Hey, hey, hey wow, wow," I saw Apollo ran into me before I feel like I cannot stand.
His arm suddenly wrapped around mine, taking the plate away from my hand then put it away. My breathing is bad, I started to cry, and I feel like I cannot stand for a moment.
"Hey," Apollo said.
My legs are shaking my body is handling Apollo's body to stand. I really cannot control my breath, the black out scares me a lot. The unstable lights just accidentally brought me back to my old memories.
"Lana, take a deep breath," he said.
"I'm here," he said.
His hand is stroking my hair, All I do is leaning onto his body with my chin rest against his shoulder. He kisses my head while whispering that he's there,
I cry, but I cannot make a noise.
My breathing is unstable until he makes us sit on the couch, he pulls me close. He slowly brushes my shoulder without saying any words.
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We finally got back home, an hour after my sudden panic attack. I thought it was gone but I was wrong. The trauma is still there and it can happen any time and anywhere. Somehow I feel sad about it, how can I be a doctor if I cannot control my own panic attack.
I drowned myself in a warm water in the bathtub. Hoping it'll help me a bit relax, the smell of the roses soap that I poured helps me feel a lot better. I've been inside of this bathtub almost an hour and I've spend it with thinking, how can it happened?
I got up from the bathtub then wrapped the robe around my body, before walking out of the bathroom. The cool sensation inside of our bedroom greet me, making my eyes travel around the room to found him sitting on the couch that facing the glass wall on our room.
He's holding a cup of wine while still wearing the same clothes. His tie is already loosen up and his sleeves are being folded. I sit on the couch next to him before leaning closer to him, his arm automatically slipped around my shoulder.
I close my eyes while feeling his gentle touch, his body feels warm and he smells so manly. He planted a kiss on the top of my head before sipping on his wine.
"I'm sorry," I said to him.
"Why sorry?" He asked me.
"It's not anyone's fault," he said before slowly stroking my hair.
He drinks his wine before put in on the table next to the couch,
"You took a quite long time at the bathroom," he said.
"You smells like roses," he said.
"Can we sleep with our lights on tonight?" I asked him then he slowly nodded.
"Anything for you," he said.
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It is almost midnight and I'm still awake, and he is still reading a book next to me while my stares are blank. He notice that I've been like this for a few hours, he suddenly close the book then put it away. He moves closer before putting his arm against my stomach,
"Babe you okay?" He asked me.
"No," I said before letting out a breath.
"The memories are coming back," I said.
"I don't wanna dream about it," I said.
"I cannot sleep," I said.
"It's midnight you should try," he said then he moves closer.
"To sleep," he said.
His face slowly nuzzles into my neck, his wet lips trail a kiss on my neck onto my jaw. His body moves closer, while his lips are kissing against my skin.
His right hand is on my neck, I can feel his thumb is slowly brushing my skin. He stops before looking at me on the eyes, he looks at me with a carrying and love before his lips started to kiss me. His lips are kissing me slowly until he rest his forehead on mine, his eyes are finally looking down at mine. Our forehead and noses touch, his stares are pure and full of love.
I feel his hand went down from my neck down to my chest, then to the end of my shirt.
He pulls his lips away from mine, his eyes finally open then it looks into mine.
"You don't need to think about it too much," He said in a low tone.
"It isn't your fault," he said.
"But I hate myself for that," I said.
"Don't blame it all on you," his low voice said.
"I am scared," I said while our faces are so close to one another.
"I know," he said.
I feel his hand slowly slip on my pants making its way into my panties, I grab on his hand stopping him from touching me.
His lips crack into a smile before his eyes looking down at my hand which trying to stop him. He leans closer to kiss my lips that makes me loosing my grip on his hand,
" You need a little distraction," he smirks before I can feel his finger slip on my private part.
I take a breath in surprise for what he's doing for me, he brought me into my highest imagination. His eyes are silently watching me while his hand is working on giving me pleasure. My breathing is shaky while my mouth cannot say any word.
"Forget it," his low voice said against my ear.
"Apollo," I said with a shaky voice with my eyes close.
"What do you want?" He asked me.
"You," I said.
"Say it," he said.
"I want you,"
He kissed my lips before crawling on top of me,
I actually feel guilty and not so comfortable writing this but some of you really want them to experience things.
So I did this because of you guys hahahaha