*Dylan's POV*
I wake up in my bed, I thought I was on the washroom floor. Did someone move me? Oh no did Johnnie see my cuts? I look down at my arm and it's bandaged up. I'm thinking Johnnie did this cause I'm sure Bryan would tell Angelina and Angelina doesn't know how to bandage things so I think Johnnie did
I get up with a big headache, I wonder downstairs "Johnnie" I say once I sit next to him on the couch
"what?" he ask
I could already tell he's mad at me "did you um-
"yea I did" he cut me off
"I'm-
"sorry, yea you should be" he cuts me off once again
"can you please not be mad at me?" I ask
"why? I wanted you to talk to me, not just go and cut yourself. What am I for if you can't just talk to me. I hate that, when you just go do something no one wants you to do. Dylan you need to understand that what your doing to yourself isn't a good thing, there's other ways to relieve pain, when you do that your causing more trouble for yourself. Why don't you understand that I love you and you can come to me if you really need to talk?" he ask
"I just get umm. I get to nervous and I can't say anything right" I say
"I'd understand what your trying to say though" he says
"I'm sorry" I look down
Johnnie signs and looks down at his phone
I get back up and go back upstairs to my room, after about a minute johnnie comes and site next to me "I'm sorry" he says
"shut up" I turn and look at the wall
"shut up? Don't say that to me" he says
"be quiet" I say
Why am I mad? Johnnie was only trying to help, I guess we can all say I get ticked up easily by stupid things "why are you being mean?" Johnnie ask
"you were first to me" I say. I sit up and look at him
"no I was not" he says
"yes you were, don't lie" I say
"what the fuck Dylan? I'm not, I was trying to help you! But your deciding to be a bitch" he says
Did he just call me a bitch? "get out asshole!" I tell him
"no" he says
I try to push him a bit "stop" he says
"fine asshole I'll get out" I say
"no I'll get out" he gets up
When I want to do something he wants to do it. He leaves the room by slamming my door. "don't slam my door!" I yell at him
"fuck off! I already did!" he yells back
He's the bitch, I hear a light knock at my door. I get up and open it "what?" I ask, there's no one here. I look down at see Liam. I bend down to get to see him more better "I'm sorry I didn't mean to say what" I say
I try to teach him saying what when someone ask for you is rude, I try to teach him to say yes or yea "it's okay mommy" he says
"what do you need Liam?" I fake smile
"what does fuck off mean?" he ask
"did you hear daddy say that?" I ask. Liam nods his head "it's a bad word don't say it hun"
"it's bad?" Liam ask
"yes don't say it okay... So do you want to do anything today?" I ask
"I want to play with daddy and you" he says
Ugh that means I have to be nice to Johnnie and be next to him "anything for you Liam" I smile
"come on mommy" he jumps up in my arms
I stand up and carry him downstairs, my arm kinda hurts carrying him. Once we get downstairs he sees Johnnie "dad!" Liam smiles "come here!" Liam adds
Johnnie gets up and comes to me. We don't make eye contact at all but he takes Liam out of my arms "yes Liam?" Johnnie ask Liam
"I want to play with you and mommy" he says
Johnnie looks at me with cold eyes then he looks back to Liam with a smile "what do you want to play?" Johnnie ask Liam
"cars" Liam says
"okay go get some of them" Johnnie smiles and sets Liam on the floor. Liam walks upstairs to his room to pick out some of his toys
Me and johnnies eyes meet again. Well of he isn't gonna say sorry then I will have to cause I just want to kiss his face right now
"I'm sorry" we both say at once. That was weird. I kinda smile, at least he was also going to say sorry
"Dylan I'm sorry" he tells me "I didn't mean to call you a bitch. You aren't one I was just being mean and grumpy" he adds
"it wasn't your fault, I deserved to be called that" I sigh "you aren't a asshole and I'm sorry can you please forgive me?" I ask
"how about we both forgive each other since we both did something?" Johnnie ask
I smile and nod. He steps closer to me and hugs me "Johnnie I really am sorry I called you that name" I tell him again
"it's fine really" he says
I kiss his cheek and look at him. He doesn't really look all that Happy like he use to look. Johnnie sighs. I see his eyes start to well up with tears. "Johnnie do you want to talk or something?" I ask
"no I'm fine" he says
Sure he is, I always said that and I always wasn't "are you sure your okay?" I ask
"yes I'm okay" he says
I hate to see Johnnie like this. He seems really sad. "just tell me" I say
"no I'm fine" he says. A tear slides down his cheek and he pulls from our hug. He walks away from me to go sit on the couch
"Johnnie" I say. I go and sit right next to him. "there's something obviously wrong, will yo please tell me so I can help?" I ask
"Dylan" he says
"yea?" I ask
"please stop asking me that question. I'm fine okay, I'm just fine" he tells me
Every time something is going wrong with me Johnnie makes me tell him so I'm gonna make him tell me. "Johnnie you will tell me what's wrong" I tell him sternly.
He looks at me like I said that like I was his mother. "please Johnnie. I know there's something wrong" I say
Before I could even ask Johnnie more questions, Liam comes down stairs with arm full of his little toy cars. Me and Johnnie smile at him.
We both sit on the floor with Liam and do whatever he says "mommy" Liam looks up at me
"yea?" I ask
"I love you" he tells me
I giggle "I love you" I tell him back with a smile
"hey how about me?" Johnnie ask
Liam giggles "you to daddy" Liam tells him
Liam looks very much like johnnie it's unbelievable. Th dinky thing he has of me if that one dimple. I believe he's gonna attack a few girls cause Johnnie surely are attracted me and the people that follow him on twitter
Unless Liam would be gay and like having the guys be attracted to him, which I'd totally be fine if Liam was gay, I'd support him
Anyways I got off topic
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Liam just went with Angelina and Bryan to Kate's place so now me and johnnie are alone
I look at Johnnie "please don't ask me what is wrong again" Johnnie says
"Johnnie please tell me" I beg
"no" he says
I look at my fingers "please?" I say again. You now how he says I'm stubborn we'll no he more stubborn then I me. I look back at him and pout just a little
He looks away from my face. "I'm sorry it's just something I don't want to talk about" he says
"why not? I tell you everything. I even tell you the things that girls should not even talk about" I say
"we'll I'm not a female" he says
I'm not even gonna start with him. "I know... Then if your not gonna tell me then will you talk to Angelina?" I ask
"no" he says
"Bryan?" I ask
"maybe" he says
"would you have him tell me since you aren't gonna do it yourself?" I ask
"maybe" he says again
Johnnie is so sensitive, if you were just a friend with him you wouldn't figure out that he is. But that's what I also like about him. That he'd sometimes tell me how he's feeling
"please just tell me Johnnie" I beg once more
"no" he says
"I'll be your best friend" I say
"we already are. We can be both dating and best friends" he says
"okay if were dating and we're best friends then please tell me what's wrong. I'd listen to you and I'd never make fun of you and you already know that. I'm being serious with you Johnnie so I want you to tell me" I tell him
He sighs "I don't feel good" he says
Is he telling me why he's sad or is he just telling me that he doesn't feel good "like how?" I ask
"I have a headache" he says. Okay so he's just tell me he doesn't feel good
"probably from me?" I ask
"I don't know" he says. He closes his eyes and wraps his arms around me, He leans his head on my shoulder
Well I guess I'm gonna talk to him later "I love you" I say
"I love you Dylan" he tells me back. He kisses my jawline
~later~
"Johnnie" i say
Me and Johnnie are just sitting outside in the grass. His head is on my lap
"yea?" he ask
"can you tell me why you were upset earlier?" I ask
"no everything is fine now" he sighs
"but what happened earlier?" I ask
"I don't want to talk about it" he says
"please. You always make me talk to you when I don't want to so you have to talk to me" I say
"I just kinda feel like our relationship is getting boring" he says
"why do you feel that?" I ask
"because we always talk about things that aren't happy and that's getting kinda old" he says
"I'm sorry" I say
"don't be sorry, it's just something you have to talk about it but in This case it's almost everyday" he says
"let's talk about something else then. I promise you I will try and make you happy" I tell him
"but I wouldn't unless you are also happy" he says
"I'll make myself happy to" I say
"how?" he ask
"I don't know but I'll find a way" I say
He looks up at me and smiles "your so beautiful" he touches my cheek
I blush "thanks johnnie. Your so handsome" I tell him back.
He quickly kisses me and lays back down "why so quick?" I ask
"I'm lazy" he says
I giggle and bend down to kiss him myself, our lips touch and he begins to smile. It's hard to kiss him when he starts to smile so I pull away "stop smiling Mr lazy" I giggle
"sorry I can't help it" he says
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