**Derek p.o.v**
I will find her. it will now become my life goal. I picked up a smoke and lit it. The nicotine tasted so good. I had just started smoking. it tasted good. I needed this I was so stressed because of that girl. she was the love of my life and she just slipped out of my grasp. she didn't know this side of me, she only knew me as a monster. I wanted to show her this side but I always got so stressed. I will find that bitch. She will be back with me even if it's the last thing I do. When I get her back I'll treat her different, I'll try and show her this side of me. I need her back. She's the fucking love of my life. She can't leave this easily.