#23
*Note- Justin Bieber & Ariana Grande*
I was finally beat. I was here for 5 hours already, putting together my album. I plopped on the couch of the studio and scrolled through my phone. I noticed a text from him. I couldn't help but blush as I read the text.
Justin: hey beautiful. u sound amazing.
How did he kno-. My thoughts were cut off when I felt myself being lifted from the couch. I automatically knew who it was. I laughed and hit his back with my fist. "Justin! Put me down!" I yelled, but kept the smile on my face. "Justin..." I heard her voice and the smile completely vanished. I felt my feet finally back on the floor and looked back to see Selena.
I gave her a small smile. "Hey Sel." I leaned in for a hug and she smiled, hugging me back. I pulled back. "I had no idea you guys were coming..." I turned to Justin and widen my eyes. He pursed his lips together.
You see, there's been this... thing going on. Justin and Selena have been on and off and on and off. The whole thing just gives me headaches to be honest. And Scooter, his manager and mine, introduced us 7 months ago. Hell of a 7 months. And every time they are off, he comes to me.
We would go out on dates or we would watch movies at each others houses. Touching and kissing was always involved. But when he would go back with Selena, he acted completely normal. As if what happened with us was just a regular, casual thing. They were off yesterday... Seems like Justin failed to mention to me that they were back on.
"Well this is a surprise." I said, struggling to keep the smile on my face. Justin looked down to his feet then back up to me. "I knew you were in the studio and, Selena... suggested to invite you to dinner." He said. I looked over at Selena and she nodded, smiling. "Why not? You guys are like best friends. And we've never really hung out. I thought it would be fun." She smiled and held Justin closer to her.
My heart ached.
"I-I don't know. I'm just really busy." I said, looking down. "Oh come on, it's just a little break." Selena said. I was not looking forward to having dinner with a guy I've completely fallen for and his girlfriend. It was completely awkward but Selena had no idea, so it wasn't for her. But I had a feeling I had no choice. I had no way out of this dinner. I let out a sigh and looked back up at the 'lovely' couple. "Okay."
...
We sat in the car on our way to a Italian restaurant when my phone dinged. I unlocked it, seeing a text.
Justin: I'm so sorry... I was going to tell you. :/
I shook my head and looked up to see him looking at me, which was really weird because he was sitting right next to me so our faces were incredibly close to each other once I looked up at him. I turned back to my phone to text back.
It's not like I didn't see it coming. Typical. </3
I shoved my phone back in my purse, not wanting to talk about it anymore. We finally reached the restaurant and there was a few paps there. Great. We climbed out of the car and immediately, the flashes of the camera stung my eyes. I tried covering my face but the lights were too powerful for my big eyes. I felt an arm around my shoulder and the flashes were almost gone. I looked up to see Justin, leading me inside, completely shielding me from the blinding lights.
As soon as we reached inside, I blinked a couple times before regaining myself. I looked over at Justin. "I know how you get... the lights bother your eyes a lot." He said. I gave him a small, sincere smile. "Thank you." I said and he nodded his head, flashing me a smile back.
We got inside of the restaurant which was cozy and dim lighted. Justin and Selena sat across from me as the waiter set down our menus. The waiter was beyond gorgeous and I couldn't help but blush as he caught me staring. He smiled, making my heart speed up. "Any drinks you would like to start off with?" He asked, removing the pad from one of his pockets.
"I'll have a sprite and she'll have an iced tea." Justin said, speaking for him and Selena. He nodded and wrote it down then, shot his eyes towards me. "And you?" He asked, a smirk appearing on his face. I blushed noticeably and smiled. "Lemonade." I said. He nodded before jotting it down. "I'll have that right out for you guys." He said, walking about but not before shooting me a wink.
I look at my lap and smiled. "Oh my gosh, he was so hitting on you." Selena spoke up. I looked up at her and chuckled. "Nah... He was just being nice. He is very... attractive though." I admitted. Then I noticed Justin tighten his jaw and faintly shake his head as if in disbelief. I rolled my eyes, shaking it off. He had no right to get mad. He had Selena.
After a few minutes, he came back with drinks and took our orders. I brightened up. He set down our drinks. "Thank you...." I left a pause so he can fill in the rest by saying his name. "Andrew." He said, nodding. "Andrew..." I bit the inside of my cheek. "And, anything for you beautiful Ariana." he said, walking away.
"Oh my gosh, he knows my name..." I said. "Well... You are a celebrity." Selena said. I scoffed. "I know, It's so weird saying that." I smiled. I saw my phone brighten up and I grabbed it, texting back some people that had texted me. I sighed, locking my phone and looking back up to see Justin and Selena in their own world.
Whispering to each other and giving little kisses. I held back all the tears that were ready to burst out. Gosh this was fucking torture. I bit my lip so it wouldn't quiver. Lord get me out of here before I burst out in tears. Without thinking, I got up and threw my sweater back on, catching Justin's attention. "W-Where are you going?" He asked, all of a sudden 'concerned' about me.
I shook my head. "I need to go home. It's an emergency." I said, pushing my chair in. "But the food hasn't even gotten here." Selena spoke up. I shook my head and walked away from them. I've never really seen Justin and Selena so intimate. I've never hung out with Justin and Selena. Only Justin. And it all just became too much for me.
As soon as I got out of there, tears rolled down my cheeks. Unfortunately, there were still paps there. I tried my best to hide my tears from the cameras but it was really no use. "ARIANA! ARE YOU AND JUSTIN BEST FRIENDS?" One shouted. "ARE YOU SLEEPING WITH JUSTIN?!" I cried harder. I wanted to be completely out of this mess. I felt a hand tug on my arm as they turned me around. I was face to face with Justin.
"Ariana, what's wrong?" He said. Then suddenly, it all became too much. The flashing lights, Justin, the secrets, my feelings... I cracked. I pushed Justin away and the cameras went crazier. "Whoa, hey, what did I do?" He asked concerned as I kept walking to the car. I shook my head and opened the door, climbing in. I looked at Justin before completely shutting it. "Everything..." I whispered and shut the door in his face and I was off.
Tears came leaking down my face. I should've never went to that stupid ass restaurant. I should've stayed at the studio and just put all my emotions into the music. I was restless now from the crying which quickly gave me a headache. Why did I ever do this to myself?
...
After taking a 30 minute bath, I felt more relaxed. But everything was still clinging to the back of my head. My phone flashed. Yet another text message from Justin. That makes 42 test messages, 15 missed calls and 5 voice mails. Why couldn't he get that I just wanted him to leave me alone? I wanted to be alone. I didn't want anyone's company right now.
I laid in bed and scrolled through twitter and tweeting back a few fans until one tweet captivated me.
"justinbieber: please talk to me. i care too much about you."
I sighed and starting writing a tweet before posting it.
"arianagrande: I don't know what to feel anymore </3"
Then all my emotions came back. I felt the tears coming but I held them back. It was only 9pm but I just yearned for sleep. I wanted to wake up and have all of this be fake but I had to face reality. Justin loves Selena, not me. I'm nothing.
...
After 2 hours of trying to fall asleep, I gave up. There was way too much on my mind that I just couldn't sleep off. It was all to much for me, everything.
I reached for my phone and my texts/missed calls doubled. I groaned and put my phone back down. Why can't he just see I want to be alone? That's all I really wanted. I sighed and rubbed my face in frustration, when I heard the sound of my front door. I moved my hands away from my face and hesitated. I got up cautiously and started walking out of my room.
I let myself move slowly down the steps until I was face to face with the front door. I reached out for the handle and slowly opened it. Justin eyes immediately caught mine. "Ari, I've been texting and calling you nonstop..." He spoke with a weak voice. Looking at him just weakened my heart even more. I was in love with this kid and I don't even think he knew it.
"Justin.. I just want to be alone... Please..." I was slowly shutting my door but he caught it and opened it again, stepping inside and closing the door behind him. I sighed and turned to look at him. "What happened? I thought you were having a good time at dinner?" He asked. "Are you fucking serious?" I spit out. Did he really just ask that?
His face expression turned into shock. I shook my head in disbelief. "Shouldn't you be with Selena right now? Why the hell are you worrying so much about me?" I continued. "Because I care about you." He confessed. I rolled my eyes. "Justin, just get the hell out!" I said, a little louder then the tone of voice I had before. "Can you just tell me what the fuck I did wrong for you to be yelling at me and ignoring me?!" He yelled back.
Then, I exploded. "Because Justin! I feel like I'm nothing! You treat me like nothing! The only times you've treated me like something is when you and Selena break up! You use me for a shoulder to lean on and you get close to me and we spend time together and you make me feel like something I can't even describe! And then you go ahead and leap to Selena any chance you fucking get! Like I didn't matter and I'm just a fucking hoe. I never stop thinking about you and you treat me like complete shit and I'm done with it. I'm done with Selena. I'm done with this. I'm done with US and I'm done with YOU." I yelled. All the anger and sadness poured out of me.
Justin looked away, not knowing what to say. He sat down on the couch and looked away from me. I gulped, waiting for him to say something, anything. "The first time I ever went to you after me and Selena broke up..." He paused, still looking away from me. "It was meant to be a friendly thing. I just thought you could help me. But then... we kissed. And then after that, I starting falling for you." His eyes then met mine. I just stared at him. "What?..." I asked, speechless.
He stood up and slowly walked back over to me. "The only reason Selena and I kept breaking up was because I couldn't stop thinking about you. And the only reason I kept getting back with her was because I didn't know what I wanted. Selena and I have known each other for 5 years. I couldn't believe or understand how I could feel what I felt for her once, for you. It's like every day I fall more out of love with her and in with you. I was blind sided by it all. I didn't want to loose her or you. But after you walked out of that restaurant tonight and the way you looked at me as if you had a hatred for me... It hit me so hard. It hit me that if I lost you, then I would loose the most important thing in my life. And you ignoring me just made me feel even worse. I couldn't stop calling or texting you. I had to see you because... I love you Ariana. And I really, really do not want to loose you." He finished, as his eyes stared into mine.
I felt tears form at the rim of my eyes and he pulled me into an embrace. "Don't cry... Please don't cry." He said, his voice cracking a bit. "I love you too Justin... Never let me go." I whispered softly. His grip tightened as he held me against him. "Wouldn't dream of it..." He whispered back. We slowly pulled apart and stared into each others eyes. I smiled a bit and ran my fingers through his hair as his thumb caressed my cheek.
"Selena and I are over. This time for good. Now... I can finally have you, officially." He smiled. I scrunched my nose. "And who said I wanted you?" I said, teasing him. "Shut up and kiss me Ari..." He replied. I giggled and leaned in. My lips gently moved against his as my heart started beating violently in my chest. Never would I have thought that he would finally be mine.