I was that girl who hears the same words over and over again in her mind....
I was that girl that no one ever actually knew that she could do it! ....
I was that girl,who sits alone hunted by the same words in the same mean way "there is no way you can arrive,it's too hard for you" or "you?ha!what a dream!stupid." I knew that I shouldn't listen to all of them...They told me I couldn't and that's why I did. The past?it's gone
The future is bright waiting for you to shine.
Pull up your sleeves,work hard,build your future,let the past go, Spread your wings and fly. I was the architect of my own destruction but I knew I shouldn't give up.You will never know how I really felt until you fall in your own hole trying to escape from your fears .Of course my goal was never to be famous, my goal was always to achieve my dreams...and that's what I did. It all started in my first year of highschool where dramatic people were popular , where smart people were nerds and where athletic people were the class clowns .I was walking and shaking from head to toe, my hands were sweaty and my body was on fire, all eyes were on me .This was a special day and I wanted to give a good impression, so I let my light brown hair down, naturally falling on my shoulders and added a little makeup to complete the look. I was wearing a light pink skirt with a white crop top and a converse. Everything was perfect till i saw a big sporty guy stealing food from a small kid. I wanted to step in but i couldn't , i didn't know how. Was I scared ? shy ? Or affraid?
I was still staring at that guy, unconscious of where i was going, when i bumped into a girl. She pushed me away and suddenly started yelling at me:
-Just because you're new dosen't mean you can bump into people and ruin their perfect clothes like that ! Or maybe you're just jealous aren't you ?
-I am sor..
-Looking at you makes me feel like i want to cry !
Look at these shoes ! Where did you find them in the trashcan...?!
And what kind of hair brush do you use ? Why are you staring at me?!
OMG is there something wrong with my shiny blond hair?
-no they look perfec..
-Great! now out of my way!
After i got rid of this girl i got my essentials and attented english class .
I started looking around searching for a place to sit. The class was full, after a few seconds i found a place at the end of the classroom in the corner next to a big window .The teacher finally entered the classroom. I was puzzeled, looking weirdly at everyone around me. All the noise has disappeared!
"Ok everyone!hope it was a long relaxing summer for all of you, Now you are all here to study and succed! We have a new girl in town and i want you all To be nice to her, she's from chicago and travelled all the way to New York city . Sunshine Harries come here please".
I was walking , terrifited to mess up , to fall down , to look weird ...I tried,but I couldn't.I was trembling all the way to the board.I though I would never arrive, the road looked so far away that I thought I couldn't make it.. I have finally arrived , facing all the students in front of me. I was wondering what was the impression I was giving. Silence all around me . The teacher told me to go ahead and talk about me. I couldn't...I was paralysed.
Everybody was staring . I just whispered some silly words : I am here to achieve my dreams. Thats all. But these tiny little words I guess meant a lot to all these people around me .They were shocked.I didn't know if what I said affected positively or negatively my image..but this is me and this is what I meant. After thanking me for coming to present myself, I quickly run back to my place..I was thinking about what I said "I am here to achieve my dreams" ..but..what dreams?I don't know.