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past year I've been feeling a lot down lately due to everything that has been happening around me. feeling anxious, scared and depressed most of the time, trying to find happiness from somewhere else.
but I've realised that no body ever promised me that happiness so who am I to ask for it. things sometimes don't go the way you think they might or you want them to; but that's just how life worksr.
you go through ups and downs and try to stand up for yourself but something comes along the way and knocks things down again.
sometimes I used to feel sad for no reason and I used to hate myself for that, but it wasn't in my control; no matter how much I tried to distract myself, id come down the same pathway ready to go through it again. maybe I was so sad for so long that my mind was used to the fact of being disturbed once in a while.