Poetry

Chains

I remember a time when all was sweet
Like candy from the store
Or fresh ice cream
Now the skies have darkened
And time has changed
I feel trapped in your wicked game
Everyday you raise your expectations for me
Saying "you can do better"
"Those Bs could be As"
But when will you see I'm not like you?
How many years will I have to scream?
How many till you realize the truth?
The love we had has become torture
Having chained to a game of tug of war
A game I am losing
Your controlling nature and hypocritical ways
Destroying my own image in my own view
Just so you feel superior
I just want freedom and nothing else
I want to be happy
Yet you put me in a jail cell
A cell I am afraid to escape from
What made you hate me?
What made you a sadist for my suffering?
I beg and plead for you to set me free
Not only am I your toy I am your slave
Wishing that times would change
You punish me for your mistakes
Telling me I can endure more
But I can't!
You push me so hard my mental state drains
You have me pleading for death
I wish for death to come and save me
I want to be freed from the chains
The chains that drag me back to you
I live under your roof
But it doesn't feel like a roof
It feels like a prison
A prison we built and I became the prisoner
You constantly tell me what I'm not
I don't have depression
I don't have anxiety
But I do and you won't listen
I am broken and you aren't doing anything
At this rate I just want to shatter
Shatter just to be away from you