Namjoon was exhausted, he didn't get any sleep after Jimin left. He could only think of how hurt the boy must be now, he knows he would be hurt as well. All he wanted to do was hold the boy and tell him how sorry he was for calling him childish and that he does want to be with him.
A loud ring came from his bedside table, his phone vibrating. Namjoon picks it up and answers not checking the caller ID.
"Where is Jimin!" A woman yells from the other end, and Mrs. Park sounded furious. Namjoon thought that Jimin would've gone home but he didn't.
"He didn't go home?" Was all he could ask, he didn't want to speak of their fight, especially not to Jimin's mother of all people.
"W-wait, so you don't know where he is?" The line stayed silent for a few seconds, "what time did he leave your house?"
Namjoon was hesitant, he didn't want to say the boy left at ungodly hours in the morning, but he couldn't stop himself from speaking, "I remember waking up to a door closing and I looked outside and he got into someone's car," Namjoon bit his lip. Namjoon heard cursing from the other side before the line went dead. Namjoon messed up again. He should've stayed quiet, he should've said Jimin must've left when he was asleep.
He was worried though, he wanted Jimin to be safe and so far he's been failing at playing the part of the night in shiny armor. Namjoon groaned and looked at his chair in the corner of his room, Jimin's clothes still sat there neatly folded. His heart ached, how could he be so careless? Namjoon wanted to be with the boy but his actions kept showing otherwise. Namjoon hated the fact that he left with that guy from the coffee shop. How close were the two? Namjoon couldn't help but feel jealous of the blue-haired man.
He felt pathetic, if only he wasn't scared of coming out. He wished he never built this lie to this point, he knew a time like this would come eventually. Today was a school day so he hoped Jimin would be going to school so he could catch him and speak to him properly. Maybe a secret relationship wouldn't be all that bad? They could be more open once Jimin graduated, Namjoon planned to move into the city eventually. Maybe they could move in together? Namjoon shook his head. They might not even end up together, let alone live with each other!
Namjoon let out a frustrated yell, "why are you so stupid!" He smacked his head against his kitchen counter. There was a light knock on the door, Namjoon rushed over immediately and opened it, hoping it was Jimin. Sadly it wasn't.
To Namjoon's surprise it was the blue-haired boy that picked up Jimin last night, "I came for Jimin's clothes also to return yours" The man spoke in a bored tone, a hint of annoyance as he handed over Namjoon's sweats and shirt.
Namjoon still knew nothing of the man who picked up Jimin last night, like hell he was giving him his clothes without at least learning this guy's name, "who are you?" Namjoon asked as he took his clothes back.
The man chuckled "Didn't I tell you in the cafe it was none of your business?" He sighed and looked away, "I'm Yoongi, Jimin's friend," He looked back at Namjoon, "now can I please have his clothes? He kind of needs them"
Namjoon swallowed thickly, just friends? The way they interacted didn't seem like just friends, "Is he with you?" Namjoon asked stupidly. Yoongi smirked.
"What's it to you?" Namjoon felt annoyance ticking inside him, he just wanted to know where Jimin was and this Yoongi guy was not making it easy. "You know that's a dumb question I dropped him off at school already. Look, dude," Yoongi ran a hand through his blue locks and sighed, "Can I just have his fucking clothes? I don't have all day, I have a job to get to" Namjoon was taken back by Yoongi's annoyed tone, he stepped to the side and let Yoongi into his house closing the door behind him. Namjoon rushed upstairs and grabbed Jimin's clothes quickly running back down almost tripping.
"Here, all his clothes are there" Namjoon handed the clothes over to Yoongi, noticing Yoongi taking out his brown hoodie and handing it back to him.
"He told me to leave the hoodie, I'm assuming it's yours?"
Namjoon looked at the hoodie, his heart dropping. Did Jimin want nothing to do with him? "Y-yeah that's mine, thank you" Yoongi just gave an awkward, small nod and let himself out. Namjoon didn't know what to think, did he piss off Jimin so much that he didn't want his hoodie? He needed to clear this up, he couldn't help but feel that if he wanted to be with Jimin he had to be straightforward with the boy.
Namjoon decided that once Jimin was out of school for the day he would go and pick him up. He needed to clear this whole situation up. Was he scared? Most definitely. Was he ready to have a whole secret relationship with Jimin that could quite possibly blow up in their faces? Yes.
Namjoon was ready to put everything he had on the line now and see where this would lead to.
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The day passed slowly, Namjoon had nerves twisting around his stomach, his heart was ready to jump out of his chest. He had been rehearsing what he wanted to say to Jimin all day. This was Namjoon's last chance to redeem himself. He was panicking. He went over to the closest dollar store and picked up cheap flowers, he felt like a high schooler again confessing to his crush. Namjoon had his whole house ready and a whole plan to get Jimin to forgive him.
Namjoon waited outside of the school, he had his sunglasses on 'hiding' his identity, he leaned against his car waiting for Jimin. Parked in front of him was that Yoongi guy. Namjoons nerves reached their peak when he spotted the blonde walking out of the school and talking to his friend Jungkook. Jimin looked sad, he looked as if he wasn't paying attention to the then and now. He was out of it.
Jimin looked up and stopped in his tracks, his heart pounded and he was pretty sure Namjoon could hear it. The blonde said goodbye to Jungkook and looked to the ground walking slowly over to the older. "What are you doing here?" Jimin's voice was quiet and soft.
Namjoon let out a breathe he didn't even know he had been holding, "I need to talk to you, please" the older begged.
"Namjoon-"
Namjoon took off his glasses and looked at Jimin with pleading eyes, "Please." Jimin let out a defeated sigh and made his way to Yoongi's car, speaking to the man before throwing his bag into his car and closing the door, walking back to Namjoon. Yoongi stayed and watched the interaction between the two for a bit before leaving. Namjoon quickly opened the door for the blonde, allowing him to get into the passenger seat, Jimin thanked him with a soft voice and jumped in. Namjoon quickly made his way to the driver's side and got it starting the car.
Jimin stared out of the window a million thoughts racing through his head, no words being exchanged between the two only the radio could be heard playing in the background. Jimin watched as all the houses, trees, and buildings flashed by. What could Namjoon possibly want to talk about so suddenly? Jimin didn't have a clue what the older wanted, maybe this was a trick to get him to go back to his home.
Jimin looked around confused as they pulled into Namjoons driveway. "What are we doing here?" Namjoon didn't answer Jimin's question he only gave a soft smile and turned the car off, hurriedly getting out of the driver's seats and jogging over to the passenger's side to open the door for Jimin. "Namjoon, you didn't answer my question" Jimin stated as the two made their way over to the front door.
Namjoon fumbled with his keys and unlocked the front door "I know, but hopefully, all your questions will have answers soon" the older spoke with his deep voice sending chills up Jimin's spine. This was all so confusing to the younger, he didn't know what Namjoon had planned for all he knew was the older was going to murder him to keep his secret safe. The two made their way into the dark house "Close your eyes for just a few seconds," Namjoon ordered, Jimin gave him a skeptical look, "Come on, Minnie, please!"
Jimin held back a smile and did as he was told. "Namjoon, what are you up to?" Jimin could hear fumbling and Namjoon trip at one point causing him to giggle.
"Alright open your eyes," Namjoon instructed. Jimin's heart jumped, he looked around and saw lit candles and Namjoon holding some cheap roses. It was sweet but Jimin was still lost.
Jimin looked up at the older, "This is all very sweet but... what's it all for?" Namjoon gave a soft smile and handed the roses over to Jimin, he cupped the younger's face in his hands and let out a deep breath.
"I know I hurt you... a lot. But, I want you to know that I don't mean to, I'm scared Minnie..." Namjoon brushed his thumb over Jimin's cheek, "All my life I've been told being gay is wrong so I've built this lie, I got a girlfriend and I turned myself into this man who I'm not! I've always been so unsure about everything in my life, I always made sure to please others, always made sure I'm seen in a good light," Jimin's heart raced, his face heated up as he melted into Namjoon's touch, "and frankly I'm tired of it, Jimin. I-I wanna be with you, I know we're going to have to keep it a secret and that's okay! I'm still scared, god, am scared but... I feel this- this could work. I'm ready to take a risk! At first, I thought I could get away with just a one-and-done deal with you but after the first time we did it I wanted more, I wanted to feel you in my arms again and the night after the airport was amazing, I realized I wanted to spend every night like that with you" Namjoon spoke quickly and from the heart, he felt a weight leave his shoulders. Jimin stood there shocked, tears wanting to escape his eyes.
Jimin smacked Namjoon with his roses before letting out a laugh and tears, "You're so complicated!" The blonde scolded jokingly, "Is this your way of asking me to be your boyfriend?" Jimin asked as he wiped his tears away.
Namjoon chuckled and pulled Jimin by his waist closer to him, "Yes, it is!" Namjoon grabbed the roses from Jimin and placed them to the side, "So what do you say?"
The blonde pulled a serious face "No." Namjoons heart sank. A smile crept onto the younger's, "of course the answer is yes, Joonie!" Jimin laughed, "oh my god you should've seen your face!"
"You're such a brat!" Namjoon laughed as he planted kisses all over the boys face. Jimin let out a giggle and threw his arms around the older's neck.
Jimin stopped Namjoon for a second, "I agree to be your boyfriend on one condition," Namjoon nodded eagerly.
"What is it?"
"You dont have any second thoughts after this and no regretting anything, understood?" Jimin stated looking into the older's eyes.
Namjoon gave him a soft smile, "those are conditions I can live with," he planted a kiss onto the younger's lips. They were finally together, a proper couple. Well- sort of. Of course the relationship had to stay a secret but the two couldn't be happier.
For now everything was perfect.
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Soft smut chapter next uwu the next few chapters will be soft and mostly fillers before shit hits the fan so stay tuned lil moon fairies 💆🏻♀️