03:14pm | 05/12
"oh shit, oh shit, oh shit, oh shit, oh shit!" I heard my dad yelling as the ride started to go up
Sai and I just laughed as we watched everyone go up in the ride. Because of his injuries he's not supposed to ride most of the rides. That works for me though because truthfully I'm kinda scared of rollercoasters, so he's my excuse not to go on many.
As you can see Storm decided on a theme for her graduation party. She and my dad rented out a whole amusement park for the day so she could throw her party here. She invited her friends and other people who graduated to come and celebrate as well.
"babe you don't gotta kick it with me the whole time, you should go have fun" Masai said while taking another spoon of the ice cream sundae we were sharing
"it's fine, I like spending time with you"
"you gonna be with me for another week, you should go be with Majesty and Tay"
He has to go back to DC tomorrow since the judge only allowed him to be here for the weekend. Plus he needs to attend physical therapy and his trial starts on Thursday. Because of all of that I decided to stay with him that week. Hopefully the case can be dismissed the first day of trial so we'll be able to come home.
"they'll be fine, they got each other" I answered
"babe I fuck with all the attention, I really do, but you don't wanna miss out on spending time with your friends. I'm not going anywhere, we got mad time to spend doing nothing. now go have some fun"
"fine. but let's go on one more ride together then I'll meet up with them"
He nodded then began to stand up. I stood up and went over to the nearest trashcan to throw out the ice cream sundae cup then came back over to hold his hand. I led him over to the carousel. It was a pretty nice carousel in my opinion.
"nah this is ass" Masai said as we walked past the gates
The man standing by just nodded while he began to slow it down for us to get on.
This is like the fifth kiddie ride he's been on today. The most interesting ride for him so far has been the ferris wheel, and all that really does is bring you up and down in a circle at a normal pace.
When it finally stopped and we got on the only people on it were aunt Shay and Bronx, which made sense.
We sat in the little couple seat they had since neither of us felt like getting up on a horse.
"I'm nervous as fuck" He said as I leaned my head on his shoulder
"why? this only goes about a quarter mile per hour"
"nah not this, the trial. I don't have faith in this case at all. it's a white girl Cai. on top of that her dad went and did all that shit, they gon' believe it even more"
"Carter's a great lawyer, you have to leave it to him"
"and I don't doubt that one bit, but you gotta seriously take a step back and look at the situation. a black male allegedly rapes a white female. the same black male that was involved in a case similar to this just about two years ago. let's not forget to add my misdemeanors from when I was younger too. I got a past"
"I know how it looks, but they have no proof that you did it. no concrete proof at that"
"but also no proof that I didn't do it, and that's why I think I'm being framed. I don't think this was just her honestly, I think someone is having her blame me and they chose me specifically because they knew I'd have no alibi to prove my innocence. whoever this is knows too much about me. why you think Carter had to drop all his other cases and devote time to just mine? not because of your dad I'll tell you that. he knows there's nothing to help this case"
"you do have an alibi though, you have me" I said while taking his hand into mine
"nah. I been thinking, that shit not right. I'm not gonna use you to lie for me, that's not good boyfriend material"
"I want to though. whatever gets all of this to go away"
"no Cai! I don't want your name anywhere in this, you been through enough. I'll figure something else out"
"how about the truth?"
After hearing that he got silent. What is so bad that he can't be honest about it?
"truthfully" He started "...the truth would get me in way more trouble than I'm already in"
"Sai what did you do that night?" I asked and as if it knew the intenseness of the conversation the carousel came to a stop
"ride's over" The conductor said
We both got up and started to walk off. My question yet to be answered though.
"Sai..." I said as calmly as possible "where were you that night"
I let go of his hand and stopped in place once we were out of the gates.
"bro honestly let's not do this now, please"
bro?
"oh no, I want to do this right here right now. I'm confused as to why you can't just simply tell me where you were the night the girl was raped. because you say you weren't with her, and you weren't with me, I'm going to assume you weren't in your room. so where were you?"
"I say? what you don't believe me now?" He asked
Here he goes, tryna turn it onto me.
"I don't know what to believe right now, and frankly that's not important right now. where were you the night the girl was raped?"
"I was with Wayne" He finally answered
For some reason though I didn't believe that.
"so you were with Wayne but you couldn't say that weeks ago when I first asked you? you were with Wayne but I had to be your alibi instead of your best friend—who would've also been a reasonable alibi. my gpa may be a decimal lower than yours but please don't ever insult my intelligence like that"
"I put it on my father, I was with Wayne that night" He said then placed his hand over his heart to prove to me he wasn't lying
He rarely swears on his father so when he does I always believe him. Why wouldn't I though? Who's that sick to actually lie over their parents dead body? As pissed off as I am at him I know he's not that sick to do something like that.
"so then what were you and Wayne doing?" I asked
He looked to the ground and began to rub his neck. After a few seconds he looked up and was met with my eyes before starting to look elsewhere for the answer I guess.
"so then what were you and Wayne doing?" I asked again since he obviously didn't hear me the first time
"I can't—I can't tell you" He said with this remorseful look on his face
"you can't tell me?"
"it's not really my business to tell. I promise though, I'll let you know one day, today's just not the day"
I looked at him surprised but then started nodding.
"when my family decided to do a background check on you, did I hesitate to tell you? no. even though I pressed you about it I could've lied about how I got that information 'cus I knew you'd be mad, yet I was honest. when I made that weak decision to kiss Ty at the ball drop did I keep that to myself? nah. because even though a part of me was scared to tell you I still did. why? I trusted you to be understanding. after all of the things we've gone through these past few weeks I trusted you and stayed by your side this whole time because I believed you weren't the bad guy. even when losing people around me, having people look at me as a bad guy, having my fans and people who look up to me start to step away I still stood by you. and I don't regret it not one bit, because I trust you"
"and I trust you too" He said
"no no no, you don't get to talk. I asked you a question and you went mute so now you lost your talking privileges, you're gonna listen now. you kept your past from me when we first met, which I kind've understood since we were still figuring each other out at the time, yet it was something I deserved to know due to my status. you even said you never planned on telling me. strike one. you decided to fly out to Oklahoma to check out a house your dad left for mine. for some reason you thought you didn't need to tell me, in fact you lied over the phone about it. I let that slide because it wasn't that serious but still showed me how easy it is for you to lie to me. strike two. then you ask me to lie for you in court, perjure myself—which I agree to because I trust that you didn't do what they're accusing you of. all I asked in return was to know where you were. but now you don't trust me to tell me what you were doing, and according to you it's worse than what you're being framed for. strike three. so now—"
"it's not even like that, I want to—"
"it's still not your turn to speak" I said cutting him off after he cut me off "as I was saying...so now we're right where I predicted we'd end up. I'm sure I don't need to tell you why our dads didn't work out. your dad felt the need to keep stuff from mine, once again lack of trust. history really does repeat—as long as you don't learn from your mistakes. from what I'm seeing the apple doesn't fall far from the tree"
"nah for real stop that shit. you making it seem like their problems are our problems. we not them, we will work. I trust you Cai, I trust you more than anyone else who's ever been in my life. we're not them so imma need you to stop with all the history bullshit. I don't give a fuck what my dad did to yours, I'm better than him"
"then prove it. I'm gonna ask you one more time and if you really mean it then you'll tell me. if you really trust me you'll trust me to know what happened. so...what happened that night?"
He really stood there and started forming tears in his eyes as he debated with himself if he should tell me or not.
"let me make this decision for you then" I said before starting to walk away
I didn't make it far before he grabbed onto my arm and pulled me back.
"I can't, I swore I wouldn't tell anyone...I gotta keep that loyalty. just give me some time I promise"
"take all the time you need. you can call me when you're ready to be honest, as of right now though I don't trust you. and I can't be with someone I don't trust, so that's something we both have to figure out"
"Cai don't do this" He pleaded
"I'm dead not doing anything. if I were being dishonest with you I would expect you to move accordingly. I'm not gonna waste my time like my dad did, I am choosing to learn from his mistakes. I hope you do the same"
I removed his grip from my arm then started to walk away again.
"Cai!" He called out
I stopped in place but didn't turn around. I just waited for him to speak.
"you got me?" He asked
I looked down to see a shadow slowly growing over mine. I turned my head to see he was standing right behind me.
"yeah. always." I said before walking away