05:55pm | 04/19
"alright I'll be back Sunday night" I said as I lifted up my Louis Vuitton duffle bag
"boutta get that dick huh?" Majesty said before laughing
"his mom is there" I lied
"didn't you say she left this morning? come on now, you gotta stay consistent with these lies boo" He teased
I rolled my eyes then grabbed my keys off the hook.
"my bro's coming tonight by the way, I guess you'll meet him when you get back" He said just as I reached the door
"oh right, okay. I'll see you later"
I opened the door and left making sure to lock it behind me. I rushed downstairs and exited the building quickly to get to his car. I opened the back door and threw my duffle and backpack back there before going up to sit in the front.
"what took you so long, I've been waiting here for a minute" He said immediately pulling off as soon as I sat
"sorry Majesty was talking to me" I said as I put on my seatbelt
He's not supposed to be on campus at all so him picking me up from my hall is a risk he shouldn't be taking. The original plan was for me to walk a little bit off campus so he could pick me up from across the street but then he made me get stuff from his room which made my duffle bag even heavier. I was not carrying it all the way there.
"anyways I missed you" He said placing his hand on my thigh
"I missed you too"
We haven't seen each other since Tuesday which is when my dad bailed him out. Even though it's only Friday and has been about three days, we're not used to not seeing each other everyday.
He got to spend time with his mom though which is good and I needed to focus on school and practice. Now she's gone though and we have the weekend to ourselves.
"how's school?" He asked
"it's calm. I got a ninety seven on my accounting test, thanks to Ty who helped me study. I also have a group project due soon"
"what about the people?"
"what about them?"
"Micaiah" He said turning to look at me for a split second
He asks me about this every night on FaceTime ever since he got arrested. Him, my dad, Storm and Taylor. They know what answer to expect yet they keep asking.
"I don't really pay attention to them"
"Micaiah!" He said much louder this time
"Sai what do you expect me to tell you huh?"
"the truth"
"the truth? you want to know about how people have been giving me the dirtiest looks ever? how I hear whispers and mumbles everywhere I go? how barely anybody sits near me in class besides the foreign students? how I've gotten the worst messages in my DM's talking about I should kill myself? how I've lost the little amount of friends I had including those on the dance team? all for what, so you can blame yourself? nah. so like I said before, I don't pay attention to them"
He was silent after that and I could tell what I said made him feel bad, which is exactly why I didn't want to say anything. I've lied to him and my dad all week saying everything was good at school, I only ever told Taylor what was going on.
"why you ain't tell me? I woulda had Wayne fuck up anyone messing with you"
"it's not that serious, it's not like they're bullying me. everyone's just distancing themselves and I don't blame them"
"why? it's not like you're the one being framed for rape"
"yeah well you're my boyfriend and it's obvious that I still support you so in their eyes I'm just as bad as 'the rapist'"
"so then drop me. delete our pictures and shit, make everyone think we not together anymore and that you don't support me. we can go back to how we first started, only close friends knowing about us"
"Sai that's not happening. I'm not putting up a front just so people will like me. I support you one hundred percent, you're all that matters to me. I still have Majesty and I still have Ty, they're good enough friends"
"and you have Wayne, he's got your back so don't be afraid to go to him for anything you would need me for—besides dick obviously"
The rest of the ride to the hotel was quiet but a soothing silence. We ordered food on the way so we wouldn't wait so long once we got there.
"is your mom back home yet?" I asked as we waited for the elevator
"yeah she got back like two hours ago"
The elevator came and we rode it up to the fifth floor where his room was. He offered to carry the duffle for me as he should since it was mostly filled with his things.
He unlocked the door once we got to it then opened it allowing me to go in first.
"thank you" I said as I walked in
He followed behind then set the duffle down by the door.
Not even seconds past and I was lifted off the floor and was being carried towards the bedroom. I started giggling and wrapped my arms around his neck for stabilization.
He used his foot to widen the already open door then walked into the room and dropped me down on the bed.
He then took off my shoes and kicked off his before crawling on top of me. My stomach was filled with butterflies and my cheeks were getting sore from how hard I was smiling. It's amazing how after all these months he still has this affect on me.
"I fucking love you" He said before placing a kiss on my lips
He tried pulling off after just a peck yet my arms locked behind his neck holding him still. He didn't think he was about to give me that weak kiss and move on right? I need that sloppy, saliva, intense kiss right now after not having those lips for three days.
I started feeling myself growing in the sweats I wore and I know he was feeling it too.
"hol' up hol' up hol' up" He said against my lips while forcing himself away
"what?"
"I want this too, probably more than you but I ain't no minute man—you know that. our food coming soon, you not hungry?"
I am hungry, just not for food.
"kind've" I shrugged
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"what homework is that?" Sai asked while still sucking on his chicken bone
"history" I said turning the screen a little to the side away from his view
"come on lemme see. I can help, a nigga been bored all week without school. plus we all know I'm smarter than you, maybe I can help"
"nah it's fi—"
Before I could get the rest of my sentence out though he turned the laptop to face him with his greasy fingers. I wanted to move it back but it was too late.
"what's this?" He asked even though I know he read it
"a sexual harassment module. the school's requiring everyone to complete it again so we'll be aware of what's considered rape and stuff. we gotta do it for drug and alcohol use too" I explained
I saw the disappointment in his eyes but it lasted for a brief second before a small smile appeared on his face.
"as they should, niggas should be educated on this"
"Sai..."
"Micaiah stop it. I'm not a child, you don't need to protect my feelings. I know shit ain't easy, especially not for you. Wayne's told me all about the rape seminars and all of that, you don't need to keep shit from me thinking it'll hurt me. I'm a strong ass nigga, nothing is gonna break me down—besides your lil ass"
"I can't help it okay. If I tell you you're gonna keep blaming yourself when it's not even your fault"
"then who's fault is it? who put a gun to my head and told me to go have drunk sex with that girl? sure my friends might've hyped me up but it was ultimately my doing. if it wasn't for that shawty wouldn't be over here jacking I raped her. we gotta take responsibility for our actions. just because it's not fair doesn't mean I'm completely innocent in this"
I hate when he does this. I know he's right but sometimes I just want him to be selfish. To care about himself as much as I care.
Sure he made a bad call when deciding to have sex with a drunk girl, but he was drunk too. They both made that mistake, yet she decided to lie and say he raped her which is now ruining his life. So really it's her fault.
"I know you're just looking out for me and I fuck with you for that, but we just gotta take it the way it is. you believe in God and all that right? well then you should know that shit happens for a reason"
"okay Sai" I said as I turned back to my laptop to finish the module
"everything's gonna work out the way it's supposed to aight? just gotta let shit fall in place"
When I didn't respond he got up with his plate and started to walk over to the kitchen. I heard the water start running but then it was immediately shut off.
"nah fuck this" I heard him say before he started to walk back over to me
"I only got two days with you—barely—before I gotta return you back, I'm not about to use that time arguing with you over this. I just want us to focus on us this weekend, none of this shit, pretend it ain't happen. can we please do that?"
I nodded my head even though I'm still upset.
"good! now finish your homework so we can start having some fun"
"shut up, you're not my dad"
"oh on the contrary my friend, don't worry I'll show you"